kuulski
Jan 22, 2009, 11:17 AM
Hi guys I have posted several times in my quest to find the true me and get past the sadness and moodyness that has basically overwhelmed my life I realized something. I look for a mothers love from everyone close to me. My mother didn't raise me my grandmother did and she was verbally and emotionally abusive. I believe I have been very dependent on people close to me to love me like my mother/grandmother didn't. My relationships usually become overwhelming for the person I am with and the ties are cut. The only person I had very serious issues with is my daughters mother who I have not been with in 6 years. My ? Is how do I move past this dependence? How do I build up my confidence so that I can move past this and be more healthy. I have been doing more physical activity as a stress reliever but I believe the main issue here is my need for a mothers love that I never had. It has caused me great heartache as I am 32 and still single... never been married single parent to a 13 year old girl and I believe this is directly affecting my ability to be more then just a provider but to show my daughter the unconditional love she deserves. Your input would be greatly appreciated. Thanks!