blue_st4r
Dec 24, 2008, 04:39 AM
Hello folks,
Im a 20 year old male student. I have had a really low or no self esteem all my life. Im not good with social settings, outings, parties, etc.
I donot come from a dysfunctional family.
Problem is, Im 20 now and Im failing at everything. I wasted a whole year studying something which I changed and Im starting fresh with something totally new this year. None of my friends or my family members are happy with what Im doing.
I have never been in a relationship with a girl. And this is really starting to worry me... I may be the next "40 year old virgin"...
I know this may not be the right time for me to put myself into a relationship.. But someday I have to get married and have a family right? That's what all humans do (I think?)..
I have no confidence over talking to chics, nor to smart people. My list goes on and on.. I have an average height.
Im losing interest in life basically. What should I do. I cannot afford to pay $100+ per hour for a professional counselor. My university counselor is free but its budget. Im practically eating only about once a day, Ive lost about 20 pounds doing nothing. Social interaction is at all time low. Im getting thoughs of running away, harming myself or to end my life.
This message is long and boring sorry, but I need any views on this..
Please help
Thanks
Im a 20 year old male student. I have had a really low or no self esteem all my life. Im not good with social settings, outings, parties, etc.
I donot come from a dysfunctional family.
Problem is, Im 20 now and Im failing at everything. I wasted a whole year studying something which I changed and Im starting fresh with something totally new this year. None of my friends or my family members are happy with what Im doing.
I have never been in a relationship with a girl. And this is really starting to worry me... I may be the next "40 year old virgin"...
I know this may not be the right time for me to put myself into a relationship.. But someday I have to get married and have a family right? That's what all humans do (I think?)..
I have no confidence over talking to chics, nor to smart people. My list goes on and on.. I have an average height.
Im losing interest in life basically. What should I do. I cannot afford to pay $100+ per hour for a professional counselor. My university counselor is free but its budget. Im practically eating only about once a day, Ive lost about 20 pounds doing nothing. Social interaction is at all time low. Im getting thoughs of running away, harming myself or to end my life.
This message is long and boring sorry, but I need any views on this..
Please help
Thanks