LostInHisEyez
Dec 5, 2008, 12:34 AM
For those who read my other posts, its been a while, but if you did- I met an amazing guy who loves me and wants to be with me. We've been together for about 4 months a couple of days.. and maybe three days ago, I cheated on him.
::smacks self in face. Kicks self in a$$::
It was with a long time friend/crush(of 4yrs), who recently confessed his feelings.
(he was away, and now that he's home, he told me that he trully cared, etc.) he told me that how could I be so patient waiting for my boyfriend who's a million miles away. And faithful. It kind of broke me I guess.
He kissed me. One night.
I told my boyfriend that and he said he was glad that I at least told him.
He made out with me. Another night.
I took off my shirt while making out. (and then the cops came, and carded us... in my car.. yeah stupid.. )
And right after that, and the cops left.. I did him a "favor"..
Only one friend knows, and he says that I should be with this other guy because my boyfriend and I were having troubles and were on the verge of breaking up, but now that we're talking it out (he comes home in two - four days) I feel as if I have to make this huge decision if I want to make this work.
Of course I would want to, he's an amazing guy.
But he wouldn't want to be with someone who cheated. So why not break up with him? Because he's already said those "theres no one else but you, idk what i'd do without you, you're my life." kind of stuff (which creeps me out)
There's a lot to talk about with me and my boyfriend, but as for me and this other guy.. we haven't talked in maybe a day or two.. so at least I'm doing the right thing and breaking it off with him??
I know most of you guys are going to bash me, but I did something really f'd up, and now I need help.
::smacks self in face. Kicks self in a$$::
It was with a long time friend/crush(of 4yrs), who recently confessed his feelings.
(he was away, and now that he's home, he told me that he trully cared, etc.) he told me that how could I be so patient waiting for my boyfriend who's a million miles away. And faithful. It kind of broke me I guess.
He kissed me. One night.
I told my boyfriend that and he said he was glad that I at least told him.
He made out with me. Another night.
I took off my shirt while making out. (and then the cops came, and carded us... in my car.. yeah stupid.. )
And right after that, and the cops left.. I did him a "favor"..
Only one friend knows, and he says that I should be with this other guy because my boyfriend and I were having troubles and were on the verge of breaking up, but now that we're talking it out (he comes home in two - four days) I feel as if I have to make this huge decision if I want to make this work.
Of course I would want to, he's an amazing guy.
But he wouldn't want to be with someone who cheated. So why not break up with him? Because he's already said those "theres no one else but you, idk what i'd do without you, you're my life." kind of stuff (which creeps me out)
There's a lot to talk about with me and my boyfriend, but as for me and this other guy.. we haven't talked in maybe a day or two.. so at least I'm doing the right thing and breaking it off with him??
I know most of you guys are going to bash me, but I did something really f'd up, and now I need help.