Hey I was neglected from eveyone from my school days.even if I get some friends they don't last long.(they just avoid me.I would try to contact them but in vein).I am 25now.
So I took a decision of not to marry anyone(I didn't want to spoil a girls life)
But recently I fell in love with a girl.she is calm&subtle.I want to propose her.
But my mind says"hey even boys hav abandoned u then why r u trying to spoil a girls life.dont propose her"
But my heart says"hey u wont be able to live without her.try proposing"

What to do?will she love me?(I a smart by looks but my life isn't smart enough)

One more thing I try to forget her but in vein.I couldn't eat or sleep well.my heart is paining

Read what your saying, why on earth are you putting yourself down like that? I am sure you're a very smart young man look at yourself in the mirror and tell yourself that.. She must of found the real you that she likes you don't have to be some big stud to have a girl like you we just like guys we are nice and honest and fun to be with... So congratualtions to you , you are all of those.. So go propose to your girl.. be romantic we love it when you get on one knee and ask us and I am sure your going to get the answer you want.. HAve confidence in yourself you will be just fine.

Well, since "true love" is something you GIVE, not something you get, the only thing you can really control in life is your own actions.

With that, I imagine you CAN spend a lifetime putting yourself down, but that seems selfish and unproductive.

Love is about focusing on the needs of others. So, why not stop thinking about yourself here? Why not see this girl as someone worth GIVING love to and worth working for and supporting and sustaining... and generally stop looking at yourself here?

Why not? Once you stop putting yourself at the center of all this, you can do fine.