Im going to ask for your help here and fill you in with a short version of my story: Im 32 with a 13 yr old son me and his father moved on when my son was 2 yrs old. I met another guy who was honorable, loving, devoted and everything a girl would want for about 6 years we just broke up march 2008 with 10yrs. My sons father was killed 4 yrs ago but since our decision to go separate ways the new guy was the only man I had in my hm and around my son who called him dadd until our breakup un march. Anyhow me and say Ed have had so many ups and downs lived togther off and on but alwayz saw each other. I've had a headache for 5 years tried anxiety meds, mistreated my son ignored family lost jobs, friends you name it. My love for him was so strong I always wanted to put him first. Turns out he's a playa lies every time his mouth opens. I've caught him cheating by his cell ph, my friends, and videos in his ph as well. I've waited on his good behavior and loyalness for to long and just exhaust myself constantly. About 6 months ago I decided to go to airline school in another city for 2 months I had a bad dream one night and I thought it was my crazinezz but turns out the dream was not only true but a girl I came across before with him was pregnant she just had the baby August 08 he says its not his. I know him well lies and all tears of his don't fool me and I'm not stupid. I argued with this supposedly baby mamma many times he claims its not his baby and would rather c me he alwaz ask for my son. Now I don't know of anyone in there right mind that would put up with this or take him back. I no he's still lying about many things but I think he should see his kid if its his. Believe me when I tell you how hard it is for me everyone want a family and he gave that to me & my son at one pt and we wanted to have more children but I guess it wasn't right. 1o yrs no condoms or anything and here this girl just had a kid. He calls me alwayz. He says he loves me but I can't forget what he did to us. I love him and try to show him that not by taking him back but encouraging him to do the right thing. One more thing my ex's mother died 2 year ago and this has also made his behavior intollerable and I tell him that but he's to hardheaded to tuff for his own good. His baby mamma thinks I'm a witch and I'm chasn him that's not it at all. He ed up thinkn I would alwz be there but once I got strong I knew I couldn't go back. Please help I'm ignoring his calls but I probably will answer one hoping it's a different ball game but usually never is.

you always wanted to put him first

what about your kids? Uh

what about your kids they should come first sod the men in your life

you should not have anything more to do with this guy seriously after all the crap you have gone threw in your life, do you really want him dragging you down the pit hole again?

no and your smart not to take his calls if he does try rining again tell him to push off. If that does not work call the police and have him done for harrasmet.

focus on your life and your kids wel bieng millions of single moms out there do it everyday and they raise wonderful children you can do it too

So lose the moron OK.

focus on your kids that has to be your most imporant thing you do here. Because there totally innocent in this. And they sure don't need you mistreating them over your failed love life OK.

try and keep yourself happy stop worring about x boyfriends or how they cheated on you or how they have a kid. And focus on yourself and your family

please help I'm ignoring his calls but I probably will answer one hoping its a different ball game but usually never is.

All due respect, that's called insanity, and I'm glad you see it and are taking actions in the right direction to correct that thinking.

You deserve to love yourself, and put you, and your kids first, so you can heal, and build a life you enjoy.

You have wasted enough of your life on the ex, and his BS!!

Your have made a good first step, and I know you can continue, and any questions you have, or support you need, just ask.

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