OK as I have yet another question,And I'm sorry if this is starting to get annoying but I need to know is it wrong or weird, to have to listen to be called a whole bunch of names and go home listen to music and sleep and do nothing, like really lately all of I have been doing is sleeping a little on the internet and music like half the day I have headaches and come home and listen to music feel better and then go to sleep wake up do stuff till about 2 in the morning and go back to sleep. Like I don't know if I can handle school,sports teams,friends and stuff so I escape to listen to music one of my friends suggest I go to the doctors beucase of his disease (Crones disease) he thinks I suffer from this disease and another depressional disease. He says at my age his was depresses emo and escaping from the world by music. But I tell my parents and they laugh in my face and I don't know what to do I can't go to the doctors alone or with a buddy because I don't have a medical card for myself and I'm not saying I have bad parents(my mom verbally abuses me and is always threatening to kick me out of my house and I'm only 13 turning 14) ( but I like my dad) but I'm afraid to ask again because my mom is a b**** and laughs well my dad doesn't say anything and walks away what do I do I'm afraid that I have a medical depression and crones because the pills are around 135.00 a month and my parents wopuld not be able to afford it I need ergent advice...
If any medical doctors on this site could look at this I would be so happy

OK as i have yet another question,And im sorry if this is starting to get annoying but i need to know is it wrong or wierd, to have to listen to be called a whole bunch of names and go home listen to music and sleep and do nothing, like really lately all of i have been doing is sleeping a little on the internet and music like half the day i have headaches and come home and listen to music feel better and then go to sleep wake up do stuff till about 2 in the morning and go back to sleep. like i dont know if i can handle school,sports teams,friends and stuff so i escape to listen to music one of my friends suggest i go to the doctors beucase of his disease (Crones disease) he thinks i suffer from this disease and another depressional disease. he says at my age his was depresses emo and escaping from the world by music. but i tell my parents and they laugh in my face and i dont know what to do i can't go to the doctors alone or with a buddy because i don't have a medical card for myself and im not saying i have bad parents(my mom verbally abuses me and is always threatening to kick me out of my house and im only 13 turning 14) ( but i like my dad) but im afraid to ask again because my mom is a b**** and laughs well my dad doesnt say anything and walks away what do i do im afraid that i have a medical depression and crones because the pills are arond 135.00 a month and my parents wopuld not be able to afford it i need ergent advice....
if any medical doctors on this site could look at this i would be so happy
It sounds to me that you may be suffering from depression. You express that your parents aren't bad but your mother verbally abuses you and your father ignores you and avoids issues you may have. Having a tough life at home may make you sad and lonely which will lead to depression. You feel like you want to escape form reality, so you either sleep or listen to music to get away so you don't have to deal with emotional stress others may have on you. My advice to you is, your so young and you shouldn't have to go through this, go to your school councolor and tell him or her what's going on and that you need help. They will listen, and they will try to find you what ever help you will need. Good Luck and keep your spirits high!

I swear I can't talk to anyone on the internet, I am really shy as it is even though I have a good amount of friends but I can't handle walking with a lot of people, or stuff like walking around a big crowd . I get so nervous its hard to even to my mall unless I'm with a friend.I went to a counselor before (without my parents knowledge and it backfired) the counselor ended up telling my parents about and I got in trouble.


And just today when I tolded my brother to get out of my room she was like "why do u ahve to be such an a** to everyone when u dont feel good" and I looked at her and went to bed and today she was threatening to kick me out of the house and go live on the streets.


And my mom found out that the music I listen is apparently "stupid" in her terms so I might not be able to listen to my music


And it makes me sad that the only other copeing things I have are cutting myself , etc...
And sleeping

I mean only on the internet

i swear i can't talk to anyone on the internet, i am really shy as it is even though i ahve a good amount of friends but i can't handle walking with alot of people, or stuff like walking around a big crowd . i get so nervous its hard to even to my mall unless im with a friend.i went to a councellor before (without my parents knowledge and it backfired) the councellor ended up telling my parents about and i got in trouble.


and just today when i tolded my brother to get out of my room she was like "why do u ahve to be such an a** to everyone when u dont feel good" and i looked at her and went to bed and today she was threatening to kick me out of the house and go live on the streets.


and my mom found out that the music i listen is apparently "stupid" in her terms so i might not be able to listen to my music


and it makes me sad that the only other copeing things i have are cutting myself and etc....
and sleeping
I'm a shy person too. I also couldn't handle large crowds or going places that a were packet with a large amount of people. Take it one step at a time and make yourself go to the mall (with of a friend, your young and shouldn't go alone cause it's not safe) but while your there make yourself walk around large crowds, (force yourself to come out of your comfort zone) even if it's for only a minute, because every little bit will help. As you get older this will get better, as it did for me.

If your having family problem, change your approach towards your family members, they may not be able to understand you, and you could be feeling that they don't understand you. Your feeling sad, and that sadness is turning into anger, and you maybe taking that anger out on your family members which will lead to more stress and sadness for you in your family life.

If your mother is concerned about your music, than she is absolutely concerned about you, (she does care).

Please stop cutting, it will not make things better. Take my advice and please stop cutting, because I use to be a self cutter also, and it does not make you feel better, it just spreads your feelings around.

I have gone through some of the same things you have gone through as a teenager, it's like when I read your story it's like looking through a mirror. My mother and I never got along, she kicked me out or I ran away from home, but I took a good look at myself and my life and I made changes, and now (believe it or not) my mother is my best friend, I don't know what I would do with out her. If you need some one to talk to you can email me anytime, my email is [email protected]
Keep your spirits high, Theirs always a silver lining at the end of each dark cloud, things will get better if you focuse on the issues!

Believe it or not- I totally understand where you are coming from, when I was your age I would get home from school put on some Tool or Slayer etc. and lay on my bed and listen until I fell asleep. My parents took my CDs all of the time but my friend at school would just burn me a new one. I also kept a lot of my discs in my locker at school. I kept a journal as well but my parents snooped around and got angry for me writing in it. I didn't know it at the time but I was suffering from depression.
It sounds as if you are depressed and also suffering from anxiety. I don't have much advice for you- I just wanted you to know you aren't alone in feeling the way you do.

She says that because she only wants me to listen to songs I hate like kid rock ( no offence I just don't like his music) and io get forced to
Its not because she cares but because most the songs I listen is rebilous stuff or inapproipretiate basic understanding of the song

OK right now its getting to the point where I don't think I can have knives and where near me because any time is ee I knife my first instiinict is to cut myself.

You'll regret the scars when you get older.

Has anyone had the feeling that your happy and you listent to a normal song but it reminds you of something and you just start to rbeak down

//////??

Yes, if I really connect to the song emotionally-

Your mother is being rather worthless, I can't stand parents who act like this, nothing gets me more angry than hearing this. Tell her to kick you out, and then bring this up to child protective services and see what they think of throwing a 14 year old kid on the street. Should be rather interesting for her!

I would would but I'm too scared I may be put somewhere scary(im veryn shy and hard for me to make new friends)