laynielou
Oct 14, 2008, 08:34 AM
I'm a 22 year old college student. On the outside I look like I'm doing quite well. However, for years now I've suffered from extreme highs and lows.
Sometimes, I feel like I have "the world by the tail". During these episodes, I work out every day, I lose weight, I hang out with my friends, and basically become "the life of the party" everywhere I go. But there's a bad aspect to this too... I spend way too much money, I drink too much, I do drugs, I ignore my family, I lie to everyone, and I make bad decisions without any thought.
Then there are the other times... I feel like I just can't go on. I start feeling extreme guilt for the things I've done. I have difficulty getting out of bed. I just cry and sleep. This is normally when I stop caring about school and skipping classes. I can't remember anything or concentrate.
I feel "normal" sometimes too. This is when I have to apologize to everyone and try to "fix" the things I've done... This normally doesn't last long.
I can't go on like this forever, but I just don't know what to do. I'm on Prozac for depression but it doesn't seem to help any of this. Please help.
Sometimes, I feel like I have "the world by the tail". During these episodes, I work out every day, I lose weight, I hang out with my friends, and basically become "the life of the party" everywhere I go. But there's a bad aspect to this too... I spend way too much money, I drink too much, I do drugs, I ignore my family, I lie to everyone, and I make bad decisions without any thought.
Then there are the other times... I feel like I just can't go on. I start feeling extreme guilt for the things I've done. I have difficulty getting out of bed. I just cry and sleep. This is normally when I stop caring about school and skipping classes. I can't remember anything or concentrate.
I feel "normal" sometimes too. This is when I have to apologize to everyone and try to "fix" the things I've done... This normally doesn't last long.
I can't go on like this forever, but I just don't know what to do. I'm on Prozac for depression but it doesn't seem to help any of this. Please help.