I am turning into a psycho... or I think I have.. I am just weird and different than other people..

Just because you are weird and different doesn't make you a physco, unless you have personality disorders that make you do outrages acts.

Don't make yourself something you aren't, don't even think it unless a professional assessed you that way.

If this feeling gets out of hand, you had better visit your doctor.

Just because you are weird and different doesn't make you a physco, unless you have personality disorders that make you do outrages acts.

Don't make yourself something you aren't, don't even think it unless a professional assesses you that way.

If this feeling gets out of hand, you had better visit your doctor to be referred to a specialist who can help you understand your feelings.

itneverends,

We are all weird… And some of us are proud of it. Don't beat yourself up. You are simply trying to discover your place in this world. Start by being nicer to yourself.

Look around you... everyone is flawed, weird in their own way, have unique qualities... How we are all alike is that we all yearn to be part of a group that shares love and caring. :) Otherwise, it's nutsville.

Hey if we weren't all a little weird we would be bored of being the same. At least that's what I tell myself lol. In your eyes what is it that is "weird" about you

Well m far past that "petty talk"... I just can't fit in... and my interests are far more weirder n different than other people.. n so is my past and experience...

well m far past that "petty talk"...i just can't fit in...and my interests are far more weirder n different than other people..n so is my past and experience...

You know everybody tries to portray this perfect life and I have to tell you nobody is living it. We all have ups and downs and we have things we wouldn't like others to know about or have to admit to publicly. What is weird to you is normal to me and vice versa.

Being different is not wrong or bad. It is more your mental state of what and why and how you receive and understand.

Ok, I am not into orange hair, nose and lip rings, but I know a wonderful church member who has all of those.

And of course some people may wonder about some of us, hanging out here for hours a day, So maybe you are the actual sane person

Yeah I know... people keep on living this life pretending every freaking thing fine.. but its not!so why the hell do we have to give fake smiles n stuff... we are the ones destroying ourselves and then try to find things to blame it on!

Well I have always been that person who nobody talks to or sits by or smiles at lol. And I have a terrible past to but now I am healthy and living and people do sit by me and chat so maybe its just a faze

Yes I agree I think if everyone is honest this world would be a better place

You know what I am the kind of person who now doesn't gives a to anyone... but I am proud of who I am... a self fish mean imbecile... and I like it...

yeah i know...people keep on living this life pretending every freaking thing fine..but its not!so why the hell do we have to give fake smiles n stuff...we are the ones destroying ourselves and then try to find things to blame it on!

You're not alone in thinking that by any means. My friend and I have talked about that as well, how here in Western society it's really expected to be friendly and smiling all of the time, even if you don't feel like that at all. It's in human nature too, for sure, to blame others for our mistakes because we don't want to feel badly.

You're definitely not alone in how you think, this is a good place to share your opinions and be able to vent

I am sick with suffering... and maybe just maybe... I might do something about it... but I think I have to wait..

What makes you feel this way - weird physco why are you so angry with the world.
I think I go through the same phase as you I make my partners life sometimes a living hell and I love it but there is always a point where you have to stop.

What are you sick of suffering from?

Existence is a useless n senseless idea for me...

OK we can see you are hurting.

We can see you are angry.

Why?

What do you want to do about it?

Continuing to spit out venom isn't solving your problem.What can you tell us about yourself that you don't want to keep holding onto?

Anger over?Hating yourself for?

How long has this been going on?

What have you tried to do to change it?

OK we can see you are hurting.

We can see you are angry.

Why?

What do you want to do about it?

Continuing to spit out venom isn't solving your problem.What can you tell us about yourself that you don't want to keep holding onto?

Anger over?Hating yourself for?

How long has this been going on?

What have you tried to do to change it?

Agreed. Spitting out one sentence statements isn't really getting anywhere, we need to start getting a little deeper here and these questions by KBC are a good place to start.

Stop thinking psycho- weird thoughts. . Start thinking
About doing as much good as possible for others. It can make a big difference
With you thinking less about self and doing good for others. Repeat this affirmation
Ofen, I AM HEALTHY, STRONG, YOUNG, POWERFUL, LOVING, HARMONIOUS, SUCCESSFUL AND HAPPY. We are all in trouble if we cannot change for the
Good and make this world a better place to live. Our thoughts can get us thinking
In a bad way, we should try to keep them on health good things.

Maggie 3

I am 16 now... I like what I have become... I am selfish and a liar... I don't care about anyone.. and that IS the way I am... I am anti social... n yes I can say that I am angry... n yeah I hate everyone.. thats all... or do you need more?

More?

Why is it you wrote in here?

What do you want from us?

I don't know... I just wrote it...

Maybe a chat room might be more to your liking.

This is Ask Me HELP Desk.

We tend to answer QUESTIONS,and look for SOLUTIONS.

Can we help you? Do you want help?

How do those choices make you happy and able to get along in life? Don't you hit a lot of speedbumps and brick walls?

I'm more like dead inside... time and experiences changed me...

And you're how old??

ADDED: If you're younger than 65, you have no business saying "time and experiences changed me." At 16, you haven't had any time to experience anything yet. Trust me, you haven't.

Yeah you can say that... but certain event do leave some impact being regarless of age...

You're a poet, aren't you.

Lol yes...

You mess around with music too, don't you. Maybe guitar or keyboards? You're a creative type. Right?

yeah you can say that...but certain event do leave some impact being regarless of age...

Yeah you also have a lot more time to move on from them now. Or get help from them, whatever they are since you won't say anything more.
We would probably more sympathetic if we actually knew your situation.

I am a screwup... I have been kicked outa several schools... I have a history of extreme depression,self destruction and suicidal tendencies... now its all over I suppose... I live my life alone.I don't hang out with anyone... I only go out for walks and smoke... I don't like people... musics my life.. I m going to make a band I guess... I write songs... n usually prefer to sit alone... now in this school.. m trying to be *fine*.. usually I look like a nice cool flirty dude.. but there's more to it.. I have had my paranormal experiences,betrayals and stuff... so in short everything I have faced and been through.. that all makes me different from people of my age...

You mess around with music too, don't you. Maybe guitar or keyboards? You're a creative type. Right?

Yeah m learning guitar... n design some tatoos too...

i am a screwup...i have been kicked outa several schools...i have a history of extreme depression,self destruction and suicidal tendencies...now its all over i suppose...i live my life alone.i dont hang out with anyone...i only go out for walks n smoke...i dont like people...musics my life..i m goin to make a band i guess...i write songs...n usually prefer to sit alone...now in this school..m trying to be *fine*..usually i look like a nice cool flirty dude..but theres more to it..i have had my paranormal experiences,betrayals and stuff...so in short everything i have faced n been through..that all makes me different from people of my age...

I don't think you're a screwup. You are very young and indeed have been through some depressing things and are hurting. But you can talk about them somewhat at least and that is a great way to help yourself.
It's all right if you don't have friends at this moment; you can always make them when you're ready and open to. There are a lot of people out there who are more like you than you realize.
I assume you're in a school now? How are you doing there? Do you have any plans for after school, or when you turn a certain age? I know it has helped me a lot in the past if I find something to strive for; you can focus much of your idle energy on planning (a trip, your future career, school, music, etc.) whatever you dream to do.

It sounds like you're a creative person and that's great. Music, designing tattoos, etc. You mentioned making a band? That's a good idea to meet people who have the same tastes in music as you who often have the same viewpoint, and if not, who can broaden your horizons.

My point here is that you should not give up on yourself, ever, yet alone so young. No matter how bad it is there is someone out there that has it ten times more worse.

Do your tattoo designs have any particular theme or just whatever you think of at the time?

ADDED: Do you sketch them out in pencil or go as far as drawing them in black ink?

Black ink... and mostly tribal with some pentegrams or something... and about my school... I wasted my previous year... now trying to be low profile... I am into all the metal stuff... so my family doesn't like the way I am.. they are a little cool with me now... I just can't sacrifice my wishes and desires for anyone... I also ran away from a military school I was recently sent to... I some times drink... and smoke on regular basis...

black ink...and mostly tribal with some pentegrams or something...and bout my school...i wasted my previous year...now trying to be low profile...i am into all the metal stuff...so my family doesnt like the way i am..they are a little cool with me now...i just can't sacrifice my wishes and desires for anyone...i also ran away from a military school i was recently sent to...i some times drink...and smoke on regular basis...
You sound wonderfully creative!--music, art, writing. With all that talent and so many possibilities to use them once you're out in the world on your own, why not bite the bullet and finish high school to get your diploma.

After h.s. most community colleges have an arts division. You could take basic courses like in psych (to understand how people think) and in English (to experiment with all kinds of writing) and maybe an elective in art (to experiment with all kinds of media). Get an associates degree or even just a certificate in something to give you a boost into the next adventure.

Mold your education around your needs and around who you are. A good guidance counselor is priceless and will help you accomplish this. Teachers also are great guides and supporters, as the next paragraph proves.

It was in today's paper -- an angry and mostly hopeless-feeling troublemaking Chicago teen, Nelsan Ellis, was headed for disaster when two fine arts teachers took him under their wing because they saw something special in him. They encouraged him to be in school productions where he learned how to express his emotions in socially acceptable ways. He's now one of the stars of HBO's "True Blood" and will be in an upcoming movie "The Soloist" with Robert Downey Jr. and Jamie Foxx.

itneverends: some of the advice on this post is really great and I hope it shows you that even though you're angry at the moment in it seems that you are in a lot of pain ,there is hope for change.

personally I was a loner from the age of 13 until I was 17. I only had like 3 friends that I only saw at school, I was depressed, anxious and in a lot of pain b\c of the general situation at home. I've also spent a good chunk of my life being suicidal... but once I was ready to move out of my shell, I saw that life can be truly amazing! Sure I'm a little wired still ,he he but who isn't. Normal doesn't really exist when it comes to people, b\c what is defined as normal changes from place to place and from city to city, town to town.

Besides if you have been in trouble and in pain that has a tendency to create chain reactions. I really hope that one day, when you are ready you will be able to open yourself up and create a good life for yourself filled with people who like and love you for who you are.

Besides you seem to have a really good thing going g for you with your creative abilities, why not take a chance and try to develop them further?

and of course even at 16 you can have had some significant experiences that have molded you and made you the person you are, but trust me there are so many things to experience... both good and bad and you probably haven't even touched the tip of the iceberg yet.

wondergirl's advice on school is a really really good advice! Wouldn't it be awesome to be able to study something you like? An d to be better at something your really good at ? :)

personally I like to think of life as a journey, and everything in this journey has created me. And I've managed to look at all the negative aspects of my life and turn it into something positive: for example my mom is a periodical pill popper, and b\c of this I had to be her mom and my siblings mom when she was in one of those periods... sure it sucked, but it has helped me become a sympathetic person who values what she's got and I have a great relationship with my siblings! Or my dad has been absent most of my life but I have had the most wonderful stepdad!

and even though your way to 16 has been troublesome, painful and hard... the sum of the next 16 years doesn't need to be that hard... :)

I wish you the best of luck!

-Roxy

You know what I hate the most?people who act like every single freaking thing is fine... and there is hope and stuff... why do you think life is worth living?while the truth remains unchanged.. it is senseless... why are we all to blind to see that?one day... mankind will completely destroy it self and will run outa things to blame it on...

I don't get the impression you are ingesting anything the posters have put out to you, itneverends. Seems like you are only interested in posting about all the things you hate, the downside of everytrhing, the depressing aspects.

You can either remain a screwup, trash your art, forget your music, or you can become a positive thinker and do something with yourself.

Thank everyone here who has given you positive confirmations.

You are l6, is that correct ? In June you posted that you were going to a military camp. Is that something you have done, or yet to do, or did you decide not to go?

Some teens tend to judge themselves too harshly. You have a lot of growing up to do.

Feeling being different from others, there could be as many as reasons as one may think. Psyco feeling is but some what unusual feeling if one experience. How??
The answer is that we always been taught to be normal (isn't it so) and when one becomes some psyco it is different, to see things the way one think, to conclude the events, to interpret, anlysis of situations and sometimes "the response" too.
The event causing such a "symptom" defines the nature of psycy. Now let us know if you can remind on what event or events you felt such thing and make sure you define that "thing" too because psycy is a vast term to absorb. What exactly you think that does it mean that you are have pysco feeling??

you know what i hate the most?people who act like every single freaking thing is fine...and there is hope and stuff...why do you think life is worth living?while the truth remains unchanged..it is senseless...why are we all to blind to see that?one day...mankind will completely destroy it self and will run outa things to blame it on...

That's great. So after months of posting small rants about everything you can think of and things you can't even control like all of mankind, what are you going to do today to start putting positive thoughts into your life?

you know what i hate the most?people who act like every single freaking thing is fine...and there is hope and stuff...why do you think life is worth living?while the truth remains unchanged..it is senseless...why are we all to blind to see that?one day...mankind will completely destroy it self and will run outa things to blame it on...

You know what. It is not really about pretending that things are just fine. When you pretend that everything is just fine that implies that you have a problem, ignore it, don't deal with it and then pretend everything is fine. When you face your problems, deal with it and try to find a solution to them then you are not pretending that everything is just fine... you are just dealing with what has been handed to you or whatever has been sent your way

Is life fair? No. But who ever said it was going to be. Sometimes you are handed... what are you going to do about it? Is it useful to ignore it and hope it'll go away.. Is it helpful to sit down and cry? Or should you find a way to deal with it.

I'm sorry that my tone with you have changed. But you have gotten some really great advice from some very wise people. And like Tickle said: you do have a lot of growing up to do. I'm 9 yrs older than you and I have to say that the stuff that have happened in the last 9 yrs haven't been all good... but it's how I'm handeling it that matters.

I'm sorry your in a bad place, but if you don't want advice... why ask for it?

At sixteen you have no idea what you want, want to do, want to see. You are going to meet a very nice girl one of these days, and she will change the world for you. Open all new possibilities, positive attitudes. And you will wonder what ever happened to that strange kid with the bad attitude.

Some of us have been where you are now, it is just a phase, a glimp in the hemisphere. It passes.

I wish you all the best from this time on because things are gong to change for you in a big positive way :)

Ms tickle

tickle: well said! :)

First.. yeah I ran away from that military school.. second am well past that good chick changing me state... to be honest.. (first time though)sometimes I enjoy being this way... its the way I am... and about trashing my so called art and poetry... you won't find that all about happy crap... I just can't stand the sight of happy people... I really don't care about how this life should be spent and about caring people... you just don't know how its to be on the dark side of things... but trust me... in the end you feel good and learn to accept yourself as the way you are.. call it whatever you want... bad,evil,brutal,dark... its your opinion... I can sacrifice myself in order to satisfy ones expectation..

i can sacrifice my self in order to satisfy ones expectation..
In order to satisfy WHOSE expectation?? And what about OUR expectation?

I remember Suzie. She worked at our library shelving books. It was her first job and she was 16. She wore black all the time, every day. She used a lot of black eye makeup. (This was before goth.) She wrote scary, dark poetry. She was smart and it was good poetry, but very brutal and evil. She wanted us to hate her. She hated people, she said. She wouldn't talk to us. But she did a good job shelving books and we liked her for that. After she graduated from high school, she quit the library job and disappeared. We often wondered what happened to her.

We finally heard what had happened to her. She went to a cooking school, graduated from there, and started her own successful catering business. She also got married and has two children. Apparently, she's still being creative.

I'll end this for myself now... this is senseless for me now.. hopeless...

It isn't hopeless at all. Why don't you try listening to the advice all of these people have given you instead of being stubborn and ignoring it?

I'll end this for myself now....this is senseless for me now..hopeless...

If there is one thing I have learned about you in all these months it is just the opposite of what you wrote here. I could focus on the negative like a guy who refuses to apply what he's being told. But instead I'm going to focus on the positive and point out something that you don't even notice about yourself but something that you have that 99% of the population does not have. You are NOT a quitter.

You have continued coming back for months, so I know you that while you have not found the answer you are looking for you never quit looking for that answer. I think for you to get some resolution it starts with you though. Your answer isn't out there, it's in you own brain. My parents didn't exactly believe I should be happy... uh actually most of the time. They were very miserable and often demeaning. There reality defined their lives, I did not allow it to define my own, just like you can not let "mankind" define yours. You are not responsible for mankind you are responsible for you and you alone.

So again, I ask this question of you, a person that I know is not a quitter, What are you going to do today to change your mindset and thought process to achieve positive thoughts for positive results?

That's something I can't do and won't do.. thats all!

Folks, as kind as you all have been and caring, I think you are bashing your collective heads against a brick wall with this young chap. We are just feeding his need for self loathing and I don't think there is any more we can say or do for him.

His last post says it all after all of that time. What a waste ! Best leave him to ponder his thoughts.

ms. tickle

thats something i can't do and wont do..thats all!
And I am baking chocolate cupcakes and was going to ask you if you want vanilla or chocolate icing on yours? And sprinkles too?

And I am baking chocolate cupcakes and was going to ask you if you want vanilla or chocolate icing on yours? And sprinkles too?

I prefer vanilla (with pink sprinkles). Thanks.

I prefer vanilla (with pink sprinkles). Thanks.
You want a glass of cold milk too? A napkin?

You want a glass of cold milk too? A napkin?

Well, I find hot milk much nicer. And a napkin won´t be necessary, thank you.

But I don't like cupcakes! I want ice cream.

But I don't like cupcakes! I want ice cream.

Oh, I want both! A chocolate ice cream cupcake with sprinkels and vanilla icing... mmmm...

oh, i want both! A chocolate ice cream cupcake with sprinkels and vanilla icing... Mmmm....

Dave is stealing my ice cream!!

dave is stealing my ice cream!!!!

Hey! I need some energy before going to the gym! See you!

*slaving over a hot stove, baking cupcakes*

You can't have your cupcake and eat it too

you can't have your cupcake and eat it too

That's what she said