ahudson058
Sep 10, 2008, 02:43 AM
In the past couple days I've been meaning to talk to the man I love about why I am upset with him (because he told me once that he loved me and that he didn't want to tell me under the circumstances because his actions will say differently because he's still with his girlfriend and he doesn't want to treat me the way he treats her because he is using her for money and a place to stay and for the lifestyle she's giving to him freely, and he will continue to until he can get on his feet get his own career started and make enough money to financially support the both of us by going to college and stuff like that but hed rather mooch off someone who doesn't deserve it because her father is paying for their lifestyle the big house and everything in it including xbox and stuff like that basically he doesn't want to mooch off his parents he feels like that's worse because he respects his parents and anyway he's a nice gentleman and he still thinks of me this been going on for 2 years or so. Anyway I've been talking to people about it. And whle he's been with her I've told him how it upsets me because I feel were wasting our time with other people and so I have gone and been fooling around with other guys and I fear now he's thinking of me as a slut. But yet he still comes around and calls me. Last night, I fell asleep, and when I woke I was in tears from a nightmare. The man I love was telling me something like he didn't love me and well never be together. And that sent me into tears in my nightmare and then I woke up already crying. What could this nightmare mean?