kuulski
Aug 7, 2008, 02:06 PM
Ok long story guys but I have recvd positive feedback from this site during a breakup and wanted to revist and see if someone out there can help me through this storm.
I have been going through a storm recently and this magnified several ongoing situations.
My dad recently contacted me and I found out he was ill needs heart transplant and also is diabetic with multiple complication. We never really had a relationship or contact for most of my childhood and adult life. I am now 31 and have realized that these issues that I have not confronted completely are effecting my life. Bad relationships and situations where I am hyper sensitive and constantly living sad and down most of the days of the week. I do have good days but they are not as often as the bad days. I was seeing a therapist last year and the sessions helped me tremendously. We didn't really get into my childhood too much just an overall picture of these situations however I do feel I need to continue the therapy. I have self medicated most of my adult life but want to move on and be able to live free of these burdens. Selfmedicated=4/20 nothing beyond that besides drinking once in a while. 4/20 is daily and got to a point of obsession so I have curtailed it to after work maybe once or twice. Weekends is more often. I guess my question to you guys out there is it possible I am suffering from PTSD? And if so what are steps someone has taken that can truly help me get past this. I have a friend that expressed she also dealt with this and her first move was to confront the people in my mind visualize them and forgive them until I feel I have truly forgiven them. She told me it's a process that takes time but that it has changed her life. She also advised me on deflecting negative situations and not absorbing everything happening and taking it personal. I would truly appreciate anyone's help that has been in a similar situation and input is greatly needed. As I stated I am going back to therapy as I feel it did help me improve the situation prior to my recent episode. However I do feel there are people out there that have possibly dealt with the same situation or similar and would be able to offer productive input. Thanks in advance :)
**Updated 8/8/2008**
Well I am on my first day of no cigs,420 and also trying to not bite my nails. Wish me luck :)
I have been going through a storm recently and this magnified several ongoing situations.
My dad recently contacted me and I found out he was ill needs heart transplant and also is diabetic with multiple complication. We never really had a relationship or contact for most of my childhood and adult life. I am now 31 and have realized that these issues that I have not confronted completely are effecting my life. Bad relationships and situations where I am hyper sensitive and constantly living sad and down most of the days of the week. I do have good days but they are not as often as the bad days. I was seeing a therapist last year and the sessions helped me tremendously. We didn't really get into my childhood too much just an overall picture of these situations however I do feel I need to continue the therapy. I have self medicated most of my adult life but want to move on and be able to live free of these burdens. Selfmedicated=4/20 nothing beyond that besides drinking once in a while. 4/20 is daily and got to a point of obsession so I have curtailed it to after work maybe once or twice. Weekends is more often. I guess my question to you guys out there is it possible I am suffering from PTSD? And if so what are steps someone has taken that can truly help me get past this. I have a friend that expressed she also dealt with this and her first move was to confront the people in my mind visualize them and forgive them until I feel I have truly forgiven them. She told me it's a process that takes time but that it has changed her life. She also advised me on deflecting negative situations and not absorbing everything happening and taking it personal. I would truly appreciate anyone's help that has been in a similar situation and input is greatly needed. As I stated I am going back to therapy as I feel it did help me improve the situation prior to my recent episode. However I do feel there are people out there that have possibly dealt with the same situation or similar and would be able to offer productive input. Thanks in advance :)
**Updated 8/8/2008**
Well I am on my first day of no cigs,420 and also trying to not bite my nails. Wish me luck :)