I have been in a relationship with this guy. After we met, 3 weeks later my father commit suicide due to some family problem. It was not anyhow related to my relation with this guy. But since my father's death it seems that I have changed a lot. I have lost control over my temper and I lose it when I am annoyed or treated unfair. I don't like being around many people I rather choose to stay alone although it makes me more depressed and frustrated, but being in a crowd makes me feel the same. What is wrong with me? What am I suppose to do? I decided to go out of country for a while but my mother seems to be offended by this decision of mine and she wants me to stay here. I tried to talk to her last night but she had to sleep. She thinks its all because of my breakups with that guy because I use to be with him 24/7 rather being with my family. But its not only him that is making me lose my mind. I want to go from this place to have my space because I did this twice before and it sure comforts me, but my mother won't allow. What am I suppose to do?

I know that getting away from familiar surrounding can be peaceful and help you think more clearly. It doesn't have to be to another country. Maybe find somewhere a little closer and invite your mom along if that is within reason.
Your mother probably feels like you are just trying to run away from your problems but ultimately you are the one that has to decide what is best for you.