OK so for those that know, I have been on the most up and down rollercoaster ride of a relationship with my ex girlfriend since September. Then we officially split (for the 3rd time) in may. 2 weeks later she started seeing my best mate. I found out about this 2 weeks ago and went mental, and verbally abused both of them quite badly and the rest of the college kind of gave them both a hard time. She claims she did it because he fed her a story of lies about me syaing I was seeing other girls behind her back and made her believe that I really didn't care abot her at all anymore. Anywhew, since I found out about them I I havet spoken to either. Then Tuesday she text me saying well done for this job I got. Then I saw her on Thursday at college (I have just graduated and she is about to go into her 2nd year). We ignored ecah other all night on Thursday and Friday I just really felt for her. So I text her asking how she is and we spent all day texting and talking, joking around like old times and saying how hard Thursday was and how we both kept thinking of old times and each other and wanted to talk to each other but was too afraid to. I still can't get out of my head what she did with my best mate and for this I could never ever get back with her. But I really am starting to miss her loads again. I just don't know what to do now. I said lets be friends and she said yea. She's gone back home up north for the next 2 months and I start my new job in August in london. She'll be back in london over the summer and wants us to meet up and she'll be back for good in September. Nobody knows that I spoke to her and everyone hates her for what she did to me, so even if me and her did et back, id keep[ it all very hush hush for a while. Its my birthday bbq today and I'm just worried that ill get very drunk and text her all my feelings for her again, which isn't a good move as I know we're not meant to be. I just wished we were. What do I do?

First, is she still with the other guy? If so leave her alone.
If she is not seeing him let her bring up getting back together and apologize to you on how she was wrong to trust him over you.
For now don't do anything more than txting her when she texts you.

If you don't want to txt her maybe leave the phone at home in a drawer when you feel it is better to not txt her IF that is at all possible.

If your not going to stop contacting her at all, what's the point, guy?? That's the whole thing in a nutshell, you must at least LEAVE HER ALONE!

ITS HER THAT Won't LEAVE ME ALONE! She isn't with him, she said I'm a million time sthe man he is and she relaises wta a mistake it was being with him. Anywhew yesterday I was so durnk as it wa smy birthday and I stupildy text her syaing I wish we were 2gther last nite/. I sintaly apologied this morning and she keeps texting me all night. I just got to forget about he rand do nothing but reply to her texts.