Changita
Apr 14, 2008, 11:03 PM
Hello,
I'm very confused. I have been against divorce my whole life, but I'm beginning to think a lot about doing it. My husband doesn't really hurt me or anything; although he used to emotionally hurt me. We have been together for 6 years, Since I was 16, married for two I have a two yr. old daughter, who I love dearly. But I realized something about 6 months ago, there has been an empty place in me, that I have tried to fill with taking care of people, and having a baby, and getting married. I kept pushing thinking something would fill this hole, and now I have figured out that it is not something I can fill with those things. Ive realized that it is a space between us that has never been filled, I was just living in a fairy tale world were you meet and fall in love and you get married. He said to me once after we were married that at one time earlier on in our relationship he wanted out, but he didn't leave only because he felt sorry for me. He didn't tell me this until we got married, no one should ever feel that way about someone they stay with, even if he says he don't feel that way anymore, should they? I just want to be happy, but he doesn't want me to go out with friends or get along with my family, and he doesn't want to do anything that I want to even though Ive been on his escapades for 6yrs. Now. I don't know what to do anymore, he says he can change for me, but if there is a void in me, something missing, or a void in our relationship that I have tried to fill for so long, then is there hope? Even if two people are easy to get along together, never fight anymore or anything, is it so wrong for me to want to be happy, just truly happy even if I hurt him? There is just something missing and I need to know how other people see this.
I'm very confused. I have been against divorce my whole life, but I'm beginning to think a lot about doing it. My husband doesn't really hurt me or anything; although he used to emotionally hurt me. We have been together for 6 years, Since I was 16, married for two I have a two yr. old daughter, who I love dearly. But I realized something about 6 months ago, there has been an empty place in me, that I have tried to fill with taking care of people, and having a baby, and getting married. I kept pushing thinking something would fill this hole, and now I have figured out that it is not something I can fill with those things. Ive realized that it is a space between us that has never been filled, I was just living in a fairy tale world were you meet and fall in love and you get married. He said to me once after we were married that at one time earlier on in our relationship he wanted out, but he didn't leave only because he felt sorry for me. He didn't tell me this until we got married, no one should ever feel that way about someone they stay with, even if he says he don't feel that way anymore, should they? I just want to be happy, but he doesn't want me to go out with friends or get along with my family, and he doesn't want to do anything that I want to even though Ive been on his escapades for 6yrs. Now. I don't know what to do anymore, he says he can change for me, but if there is a void in me, something missing, or a void in our relationship that I have tried to fill for so long, then is there hope? Even if two people are easy to get along together, never fight anymore or anything, is it so wrong for me to want to be happy, just truly happy even if I hurt him? There is just something missing and I need to know how other people see this.