We were together for 2 and half years. She broke up with me because she got angry because I acted like I didn't care about why she was upset. I didn't call her she called me a few days later. We talked and I said that I needed time. Which I did because I needed to become a man and had always just put it off. I needed to get my together. We talked for a couple of months and I told her I would call her in a week and let her know where I was at. She stated that if I didn't call we would be over. I didn't have my together on that day and panicked. I wanted to be that man for her and wasn't. I screwed up an disnt call her. I have recently called her and tried to tell her how sorry I was and that I did love her and wanted to be with her. I understand that I hurt her more than anyone ever has. Also that she could never possibly forgive me. We will talk via email some and she says that maybe she will answer my calls in a week or a month.. who knows... I want her to see that I am a man and can be there for her. I want her more than anything. Not a second goes by without thinking about her? What do I do?

Your head and your heart seem to be going in different directions. She gave you an ultimatum: you either do 'x', or else. In my opinion, if you want to be a man, you do not fall for that trick. If she is interested in you, she will give you all the time you need to get your act together.

George is right, I would not respond to an ultimatum, and I wouldn't respond to the person that gave it. You need an honest self evaluation of your feeling. Don't let anyone dictate the terms of your own life, that's not healthy.