SKG0511
Nov 3, 2007, 11:53 AM
Hey everyone... New here... Well I am 22 my boyfriend is 29. We've been together for 6 years living together for 3. Our relationship is dying. I have no one to talk to because I'm embarrassed. I just don't understand what's wrong with him. I am very attractive I know that I could go out and get any guy I want. I am in love with my boyfriend though. I am becoming so frustrated, depressed, upset, and self conscious over this and now I don't know what to do. Our sex life has always been good but about 2 years ago we went through a slump and my boyfriend just didn't want to have sex. We went 6 months without sex and I was about to dump him. Then I blamed myself and felt like it was half my fault because I was flat chested and insecure. So I went and got a Breat augmentation thinking that it would help me with my insecurity and ultimately our sex life. We worked it out and then we were having sex a few times a day everyday and it was great. Now I am back in the same situation. All the sudden sex just stopped. It's been about 4 or 5 months now since we've last had sex and I can't even remember the time before that. I've tried EVERYTHING Lingerie, lotions and potions HAHA, I've tried to do new things to spice it up and nothing grabs his attention. We're to a point now where if I get naked and walk around the house he doesn't even turn and look at me. He doesn't want to kiss me nothing. If I go in for a kiss he pecks me and if I ask him to kiss me better he rolls his eyes or asks me WHY. If I joke around and put his hand down my pants or on my chest he pulls it away. Im starting to feel like he is actually disgusted by me. If anyone told me this I would right away say he's cheating. But I KNOW for a fact that my boyfriend isn't cheating because he calls me 100 times whenever he's out and I never catch him in a lie I know where he is 24/7 so he's definitely not cheating. Plus we do pretty much everything together. I am so frustrated at this point I almost wish he was cheating so I could make some sense of this! What also hurts is he will watch porn when I go to bed or when I go out. Its like how could he look at porn but not want to be with me? That's how I know it has nothing to do with him being stressed or depressed or any other excuse he comes up with. It causes a lot of arguments and he says hurtful things to make me feel like its my fault. I asked him a million times why and he never wants to talk about our problems I ask him why doesn't he just break up with me and he doesn't answer me. He still talks about us getting married and having a kid soon. So I don't think he wants to break up or feels like its over. I however don't want to get married or have a baby with someone who is going to put me through this every once in awhile. I love him I don't want to leave but what do I do? Is it me? I keep asking myself what have I done? What is it about me? Did he lose interest? Am I not adventerous enough?
My other issue is we live together and have 2 cats, a dog and a parakeet and Its hard for me to end it because they are like our children and I can't imagine being separated from one of my pets or seperatng them from each other. I would also hate to take one of them away from him. Its so complicated. I feel like I'd rather just keep living here and taking care of them and letting my animals be my life and main reason to stay then break up and risk losing one or more of them and have them all be separated.
I'm starting to go nuts he refuses to talk about it. There's no affection at all in this relationship and I feel like I am starving for attention, affection, intimacy and sex. It actually crossed my mind a few times to just start going out and doing my own thing and finding someone to just have sex with but I can't do that because I truly love him and I think its wrong to do that. I've even said it to him out of anger that I'm going to find someone else that will have sex with me and he just says whatever
Please give me advice
My other issue is we live together and have 2 cats, a dog and a parakeet and Its hard for me to end it because they are like our children and I can't imagine being separated from one of my pets or seperatng them from each other. I would also hate to take one of them away from him. Its so complicated. I feel like I'd rather just keep living here and taking care of them and letting my animals be my life and main reason to stay then break up and risk losing one or more of them and have them all be separated.
I'm starting to go nuts he refuses to talk about it. There's no affection at all in this relationship and I feel like I am starving for attention, affection, intimacy and sex. It actually crossed my mind a few times to just start going out and doing my own thing and finding someone to just have sex with but I can't do that because I truly love him and I think its wrong to do that. I've even said it to him out of anger that I'm going to find someone else that will have sex with me and he just says whatever
Please give me advice