Hello,
I am writing here for the first time with a lot of emotions and just want to have a few opions from another. I am 40 5'10 mixed race and consider myself very attractive woman with no children. I met my current boyfriend and at some point move in with him(including with 3 cats 1 deceased now. I am not going to go into all of the pain emotionally I have gone through since I have done this 5 months ago. The thing is if I was a man I would cherish a woman like me and would be so glad there is a woman out there that is considerate, emotionally supportive, good looking, honest, loves animals and care for human being. I walk up to my boyfriend lately and he fakes like he wants to kiss me, fakes like he wants to hold me and sometimes fakes conversations with me. He knows I am sensitive and especially when we may not get along. When we go to bed he now holds on to his pillow and knows I am looking at him like if to say why not me? He like my soft skin and the way I feel when he makes love to me, or kisses and even play fighting for laugh and all. Lately, when he talks to me he just glaces at me and never the focus like before. I just lossed beautiful animal and it was devastating to me and he knows this. I got a little rubbing on my shoulder and "Oh I understand your hurting" speech. I love him, but find it difficult to want to remain here when I feel he has lossed interest in something that wowed him not to long ago. I am sad 90% due to I feel he just don't want me around anymore. I have no home to go to and a little part time job.

Hi there, I can understand, it must be so painful for you.
I'm not an expert or anything, but I feel the first thing you should do is talk to your boyfriend. Be honest with him and tell him what you feel. Ask him if he is still interested in you or is he just faking. It is possible he is not interested, but it could also be that he is going through something himself and you can find out by asking. Also might be, you can take a break from him. Go for a holiday by yourself or with some friends. Maybe the time apart could help you two. You can discuss this with him too. Its possible that what the two of you need is just some space.
Talk to him, ask him to be honest with you.
I don't think he has stopped being interested, I'm sure there is some reason that you can both work out..
And just in case, if he is no longer interested... dont waste your time with him. You deserve someone who will love you and treat you right. Its not the end of the world. You were living even before you met him. Just because you are sensitive person, doesn't make you weak.
Hope this helped. Take care, and don't u worry. Life can be hard sometimes, but there's always an answer