_Krissi_
Oct 30, 2007, 04:43 PM
This is not one of those usual stories where I get played and I can't get over a guy. Its more like me playing every guy. Ive never been in a long relationship before and I always play around with guys's feelings,which is a bad thing I guess. This is my first time being in a situation like this and I can't really get myself out of it :confused:
Anyway I have been dating this guy named Bryan(19yrs old,turning 20 in a month) for almost 3 months already and from what I found out about him he is a really good guy. For the past three months he comes to see me single day.. he bought me pretty expensive stuff for each one of our monthly anniversaries, and still I keep on being very controlling and I don't let him talk to any of his girl friends and it kind of bothers him. I get pissed about the smallest stuff and he always puts up with it. There is stuff he did that were actually reasonable to get pissed at and stuff I did for him to get pissed but most of the fights is because of him even saying hi to gilrs. He always tells me he loves me a lot AND I could see that he really does but I don't love him back and I know it, even though I tell him I loove him so muchh, all the time. Im attached to him since I've been seeing him every single day for this long and it feels weird not seeing him for a day but it is not love. Anywayss the problem is that, recently I've been talking to another guy (Michal,18yrs old turning 19 next year.) And I'm starting to have feelings for him too. I cheated on Bryan with him last night, which for the first time I feel really guilty about.
This has been going on for about a week,actually. Michal is a pretty good guy and I'm the first girl he actually cares about, according to him. Ive known him for about a year already,just didn't talk much. The first time I met him I liked him but I didn't really have a chance. So basically I've been wanting him for a while already and I'm finally getting my chance. He says and does stuff that Bryan never even thought of doing for me for the past 3 months. He calls me everyday to hang out and he doesn't even care that most of his friends don't like that.
They both also very VERY attractive.
Everything in my head is so mixed up and I don't know what I want or feel no more.
I want to stay with Bryan, but then I really really REALLY want Michal too. And knowing that I could have both of them makes it even more confusing.
When I kissed Michal last night he gave me a feeling, Bryan never did before. And just by touching me I get goose bumps. But on the other side me and Bryan have been through a lot already.
Another plus for Michal is that he is my nationality and Bryan isn't. I didn't have a boyfriend that's my nationality for Godd knowss how long and it feels pretty good to have someone to talk to in my language =]
Another thing that makes me want to pick Michal is that me and Bryan had this hugee argument today where it comes to a point of a break up but then again he is not breaking up and he keeps on trying to work on it.
The relationship I have with him is like my longest relationship,usually its like a week anniversary and I wanted to actually have something real and long with him.
:confused:
I Really like them both at this point :rolleyes:
what I was thinking is that I could go out with both of them at the same time, but then it wouldn't be real so that out of my list.
Then I was thinking of just writing their names on paper and without looking picking one but then it wouldn't really be fair. So the last plan I had is this Friday, to give a break to Bryan for 2 weeks and for those 2 weeks to be with Michal and then I would see how things go with Michal and it might be easier to pick one of them and I know for a fact Bryan would take me back(since I would tell him I need time to think about our problems)
But now that I'm thinking about it, if I would do that I would get even ore confused about everything,since I would be longer with Michal, so I don't know what to do anymore and how to pick since in my eyes they are both the same and I like them both the same.
The First thing they both do when they wake up is call me and they spent all dayy talking to me as much as possible and I love both of their personalities.
I don't want to do something ill regret... Pleaseee helpp :o
Anyway I have been dating this guy named Bryan(19yrs old,turning 20 in a month) for almost 3 months already and from what I found out about him he is a really good guy. For the past three months he comes to see me single day.. he bought me pretty expensive stuff for each one of our monthly anniversaries, and still I keep on being very controlling and I don't let him talk to any of his girl friends and it kind of bothers him. I get pissed about the smallest stuff and he always puts up with it. There is stuff he did that were actually reasonable to get pissed at and stuff I did for him to get pissed but most of the fights is because of him even saying hi to gilrs. He always tells me he loves me a lot AND I could see that he really does but I don't love him back and I know it, even though I tell him I loove him so muchh, all the time. Im attached to him since I've been seeing him every single day for this long and it feels weird not seeing him for a day but it is not love. Anywayss the problem is that, recently I've been talking to another guy (Michal,18yrs old turning 19 next year.) And I'm starting to have feelings for him too. I cheated on Bryan with him last night, which for the first time I feel really guilty about.
This has been going on for about a week,actually. Michal is a pretty good guy and I'm the first girl he actually cares about, according to him. Ive known him for about a year already,just didn't talk much. The first time I met him I liked him but I didn't really have a chance. So basically I've been wanting him for a while already and I'm finally getting my chance. He says and does stuff that Bryan never even thought of doing for me for the past 3 months. He calls me everyday to hang out and he doesn't even care that most of his friends don't like that.
They both also very VERY attractive.
Everything in my head is so mixed up and I don't know what I want or feel no more.
I want to stay with Bryan, but then I really really REALLY want Michal too. And knowing that I could have both of them makes it even more confusing.
When I kissed Michal last night he gave me a feeling, Bryan never did before. And just by touching me I get goose bumps. But on the other side me and Bryan have been through a lot already.
Another plus for Michal is that he is my nationality and Bryan isn't. I didn't have a boyfriend that's my nationality for Godd knowss how long and it feels pretty good to have someone to talk to in my language =]
Another thing that makes me want to pick Michal is that me and Bryan had this hugee argument today where it comes to a point of a break up but then again he is not breaking up and he keeps on trying to work on it.
The relationship I have with him is like my longest relationship,usually its like a week anniversary and I wanted to actually have something real and long with him.
:confused:
I Really like them both at this point :rolleyes:
what I was thinking is that I could go out with both of them at the same time, but then it wouldn't be real so that out of my list.
Then I was thinking of just writing their names on paper and without looking picking one but then it wouldn't really be fair. So the last plan I had is this Friday, to give a break to Bryan for 2 weeks and for those 2 weeks to be with Michal and then I would see how things go with Michal and it might be easier to pick one of them and I know for a fact Bryan would take me back(since I would tell him I need time to think about our problems)
But now that I'm thinking about it, if I would do that I would get even ore confused about everything,since I would be longer with Michal, so I don't know what to do anymore and how to pick since in my eyes they are both the same and I like them both the same.
The First thing they both do when they wake up is call me and they spent all dayy talking to me as much as possible and I love both of their personalities.
I don't want to do something ill regret... Pleaseee helpp :o