Hi
I have found myself on a soul searching journey. I have been married for 12 years and have a 7 year old son. I had a tough upbringing, had some traumas experienced and also some serious failed relationships before I married and now at 38 years of age over the past 4 months I have found myself at a crossroad. I am in the throes of separating from a wife who professes to love me dearly but I do not feel the same as I feel no inner happiness. I instead find myself in love with another married woman (36) who finds herself in the same position of her life and who cares for me intensely. I find myself on a new path of discovery. I had been the peacemaker most of my life, non violent and always caring putting others before me, making all happy, except myself and in the long run I have made myself unhappy and found myself unfullfilled, unhappy and in debt. I am in a career that I loathes but believe my calling is in helping others, in motivating and seeing good in themselves. Spirituality has interested me for a long time, and now that I find myself in the throes of my position I find myself, the need to delve into my deeper spiritual self is now more profound than before. I yearn to find my purpose, and I yearn to find that harmony and inner peace. Is this possible and how? Am I alone in this?
Peacemaker

Hi
I have found myself on a soul searching journey. I have been married for 12 years and have a 7 year old son. I had a tough upbringing, had some traumas experienced and also some serious failed relationships before I married and now at 38 years of age over the past 4 months I have found myself at a crossroad. I am in the throws of seperating from a wife who professes to love me dearly but I do not feel the same as I feel no inner happiness. I instead find myself in love with another married woman (36) who finds herself in the same position of her life and who cares for me intensely. I find myself on a new path of discovery. I had been the peacemaker most of my life, non violent and always caring putting others before me, making all happy, except myself and in the long run I have made myself unhappy and found myself unfullfilled, unhappy and in debt. I am in a career that I loathes but believe my calling is in helping others, in motivating and seeing good in themselves. Spirituality has interested me for a long time, and now that I find myself in the throws of my position I find myself, the need to delve into my deeper spiritual self is now more profound than before. I yearn to find my purpose, and I yearn to find that harmony and inner peace. Is this possible and how? Am I alone in this?
Peacemaker
Hiya,
I feel you are a good man I love the fact you put other before you but some times we have to put are self frist in situation. I try to please people to by putting them frist all it left me to is tear and sleepless nigth I try seeing good in people but please try to get some self happiness to yourself I sure you deseve it but make sure you follow a right path don't rush in thing and talking the best way to slove theses thing
Love jenny xx

Hi
I have found myself on a soul searching journey. I have been married for 12 years and have a 7 year old son.
Peacemaker

Greetings!

True peace starts with aligning with a higher purpose -- GOD. When you feel God and have Him in your heart, you can also feel His guidance in your life if you but ask. Destroying a relationship is not an easy task, emotionally speaking. You have invested many years in your marriage and now you appear to see that the grass is possibly greener on the other side and want to "jump the fence". While no one can truly tell you what to do, you should indeed consider the ramifications of such a move. Consider what it will do to your 7 year old son who has grown accustomed to his mother and undoubtedly, loves her very much as well as you -- his parents. Many times children do not understand about separation and divorce and it can be a traumatic occurrence for them when and if it does happen. Stability and harmony in the family is then crushed. You then have to ask yourself if you truly want to put your son first and through this kind of thing? Or is it more important to your own happiness to leave and go with one who is already married as you say? She also belongs to another.

Remember, just as you are doing your present wife this way, thinking the grass is greener on the other side, the one you now want to be with may very well do that to you someday! Why? Because the law of karma comes around full circle. Sooner or later you may find yourself wishing you had stayed with your wife and re-kindled the love relationship you once had but by then she may have moved on and it may be too late! Consider the long-term effects of this on you. And if you are married by the church, then remember that a marriage vow is considered sacred before God. You took your wife "For better or for worse, in sickness and in health till death do you part". A little introspection is in order here along with some good soul-searching and perhaps some professional marriage counseling, i.m.h.o., as it may be what you might wish to consider. While you do have free will choice, please remember that all that glitters is not gold!

Soul-searching may cause you to discover the greater spiritual side of you but you must use all efforts to instill peace and Love in the situation you are now facing. Part of one's spiritual path is to take into consideration the other person whom you have shared a good portion of your life with. Marriage should create honor and trust between TWO people, not just oneself. Therefore, you hold a spiritual tie with your wife and she with you. Do you want to break it where the tear may not be mendable? Is it truly worth it to leave and forget what you had and can have in the future with your present wife? Take your good time in thinking this out and work to straighten things out with your wife if possible. If not, then ask your Creator to guide you as to the next possible step. He will do so in Love if you but ask with a sincere heart.

For inner peace find the answer that causes you to have the clearest thoughts, the highest purpose and the greatest love in your heart.