herxo
Oct 28, 2007, 11:38 PM
Sometimes I find myself reminiscing when I see other couples. Other times I feel strong and confindent knowing that I've moved on.
Okay well it starts when I dated this guy for a month and three weeks I know it didn't seem long. Anyway in the beginng of our relationship I didn't like him as much as he liked me. Later on when I started to get to know him more I fell for him and his personality. He was my first boyfriend. After a month and three weeks he had broken up with me because he felt that something was holding him back from loving me. It broke my heart so much to hear him say that over the phone. I cried for nights wondering why he had just died on me and now sometimes wish he could love me again like the way he use to. In addition I felt worthless because I thought I had did better than his ex (his girlfriend before me). She dumped him for someone else, after all the things he said to me about her like when he told me he hated her for what she did to him and would never forgive her for that. He still calls her his best friend for who knows what reason. And I think he has feelings for her. However that isn't the case my question is How can I forgot about him completely? I sometimes like him and think about him but feel dumb because I know he's over me. We're friends now and I see him everyday expect the weekends. I don't like to have still feelings for him but sometimes I can't help it. I even tried to like someone else just so I can get my mind off him. A few weeks ago around the beginning of October I confessed that I still had feelings for him because I couldn't hold it in I had to tell him.
After the break-up we had still kissed like if we were dating but knew it wasn't right to because we were not dating anymore.
But now its been already three months ago and I still like him somehow.
I know if I saw him with someone else I'd get sad and jealous of the fact he moved on faster than I did.
So I want to get over him completely:(
But how can I?
Okay well it starts when I dated this guy for a month and three weeks I know it didn't seem long. Anyway in the beginng of our relationship I didn't like him as much as he liked me. Later on when I started to get to know him more I fell for him and his personality. He was my first boyfriend. After a month and three weeks he had broken up with me because he felt that something was holding him back from loving me. It broke my heart so much to hear him say that over the phone. I cried for nights wondering why he had just died on me and now sometimes wish he could love me again like the way he use to. In addition I felt worthless because I thought I had did better than his ex (his girlfriend before me). She dumped him for someone else, after all the things he said to me about her like when he told me he hated her for what she did to him and would never forgive her for that. He still calls her his best friend for who knows what reason. And I think he has feelings for her. However that isn't the case my question is How can I forgot about him completely? I sometimes like him and think about him but feel dumb because I know he's over me. We're friends now and I see him everyday expect the weekends. I don't like to have still feelings for him but sometimes I can't help it. I even tried to like someone else just so I can get my mind off him. A few weeks ago around the beginning of October I confessed that I still had feelings for him because I couldn't hold it in I had to tell him.
After the break-up we had still kissed like if we were dating but knew it wasn't right to because we were not dating anymore.
But now its been already three months ago and I still like him somehow.
I know if I saw him with someone else I'd get sad and jealous of the fact he moved on faster than I did.
So I want to get over him completely:(
But how can I?