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Ohhhh then here you go... I can't give you your boyfriend though! LOL

He called me today. We can talk a little more now. We have a new way. We talked for about an hour!!

And about absulutly nothing

You two didn't figure out the Mideast mess??

What do you mean?

Well, if you talked for an hour, you had plenty of time to figure out how we can get our soldiers safely out of Iraq and Afghanistan. Or didn't you talk about that?

You two didn't figure out the Mideast mess????

:eek: Oh, gosh, woman! You are so funny!! :D

Thanks for the info re: publishing. I may just be in touch. Right now life is a little discombobulated. Trying to get it organized enough to know what I'm doing next! Seriously, though, thank you for your help.

Hugs, Didi

This is making me mad... I want some pizza really bad but I'm not hungry and it'll make me fat.

Why are you skyping each other?

I skype guys in Europe.

It seems more like a way to avoid long distance charges.

How far away does he live from you?

The sad thing is in like 5 years we probably won't be talking at all... I just don't see it happenening. Just like I didn't see myself ever turning 16. And I don't see myself ever graduwaiting or moving out.

How far away does he live from you?
Like a 20 min drive... maybe 30

A CA small press assigned me to write and then published four books, plus The Chicago Historical Society published a long article another librarian and I wrote about a major Chicago landmark (no one had ever approached it from our point of view before, and CHS liked that).

I have no agent.

Start writing again, Didi. What's your book about? (I know from your posts here that you're a good writer!) If you have questions, email me.

Thank you, Wondergirl. My book is about my experiences through my husband's illness (gastric cancer) and his subsequent death. It goes into the beauracratic sh$t we went through, including having 2 home nurses almost kill him. One was fired, the second was charged with 'something' that I have never been made privy to. It was directly related to my husband's death though, because I had to give several statements. She was very clearly 50% responsible for him dying when he did - only 1 day after he asked her to leave the room and begged me not to trust her.

The other 50% of the responsibility was due his being given a faulty pain pump that had been recalled by the manufacturer. He went 24 hours with no pain medication, then they started him back up on the same amount he had been on prior to the 'mistake' (which they attempted to blame on me despite the fact that the pumps are locked and only the nurses have the keys!). He died less than 12 hours later. His whole illness was filled with injustices and I am not strong enough to pursue them legally. I have heard the process will be very costly and lengthy and will not enable me to maintain closure upon that chapter of my life. Sometimes I regret my decision.

When he was dying I had used my email to deal with my emotions. Everyone who was a recipient has urged me to publish them in the form of a book, so I have been putting them all together with a few other memories. Don't get me wrong, it truly is a story of love.

Sorry, this stuff doesn't need to be on this post. If you would like to discuss it further, we should do so via PM or email.

Hugs, Didi

Thank you, Wondergirl. My book is about my experiences through my husband's illness (gastric cancer) and his subsequent death. It goes into the beauracratic sh$t we went through, including having 2 home nurses almost kill him. One was fired, the second was charged with 'something' that I have never been made privy to. It was directly related to my husband's death though, because I had to give several statements. She was very clearly 50% responsible for him dying when he did - only 1 day after he asked her to leave the room and begged me not to trust her.

The other 50% of the responsibility was due his being given a faulty pain pump that had been recalled by the manufacturer. He went 24 hours with no pain medication, then they started him back up on the same amount he had been on prior to the 'mistake' (which they attempted to blame on me despite the fact that the pumps are locked and only the nurses have the keys!). He died less than 12 hours later. His whole illness was filled with injustices and I am not strong enough to pursue them legally. I have heard the process will be very costly and lengthy and will not enable me to maintain closure upon that chapter of my life. Sometimes I regret my decision.

When he was dying I had used my email to deal with my emotions. Everyone who was a recipient has urged me to publish them in the form of a book, so I have been putting them all together with a few other memories. Don't get me wrong, it truly is a story of love.

Sorry, this stuff doesn't need to be on this post. If you would like to discuss it further, we should do so via PM or email.

Hugs, Didi

How about a new thread started for people who would like to share in this way?

How about you shut up? Lol. Just kidding... what if I meant it though? Lol.

I have a habbit of asking questions when I hear a question

How about you shut up? Lol. just kidding.... what if i meant it though? lol.

Are you addressing me, Michelle?

Yeah.. lol. But it was a joke

Methinks she wants her thread back.

I already have an idea for you, Didi. And I just unshelved my Writer's Market today to begin a plan for my own writing. I'll send you my email address.

Methinks she wants her thread back.

Then, it's back!

Clough, I hope I didn't hurt your feelings.. I was just joking.

I'm glad your brother is home and won't have to go back. Some soldiers are on their third and forth tour over there.

Would your boyfriend sign up?

Clough, i hope i didnt hurt your feelings.. i was just joking.

You were making me wonder... But, thank you! :)

He talks about that stuff sometimes but I know if I don't want him to he won't do it. I just know it.

How about a new thread started for people who would like to share in this way?

I have nothing else to post in this regard. Thanks though.

Hugs, Didi

How about you shut up? Lol. just kidding.... what if i meant it though? lol.

Whether you meant it or not it was rude and insensitive and not the way you should be talking to people who have devoted a lot of time and sent a tremendous amount of caring and support your way.

If you want us to shut up, stop posting.

Didi, I want you to shut up. And I don't know why I come here anyway but because of that none of you will EVER hear from me again. I come here to talk about one thing and that deosnt even get talked about. Im better off leaving the computer and just thinking on my own without EVERYONE's LIES here.. don't bother respnding to this... I won't read it. I know what you have to say... that its not lies whatever... that's just more lies

And its not rude its what I'm used to... how is it rude... MAybe because your from somewhre else. Where I'm from everyone says stuff all the time like that as a joke... especially to their friends.

Ok sweet... settle down...
It is time you stop making NO attempt to help yourself and make A BIG attempt to help yourself... Maybe it is just time you do something aobut your problems instead of sit here and dwell on them... I haven't seen you not once make an attempt to become a better YOU... so maybe you are right... now is the time to get yourself in order and get off this puter! Time for YOU sweet... Make it happen! Today! Start today!

If you got some poop to clean up then clean it... you wouldn't just let it sit on the floor and gather flies would you?? Geeze... enough is enough!

Didi, i want you to shut up. And I dont know why i come here anyways but because of that none of you will EVER hear from me again. I come here to talk about one thing and that deosnt even get talked about. Im better off leaving the computer and just thinking on my own without EVERYONE's LIES here.. dont bother respnding to this... i wont read it. I know what you have to say... that its not lies whatever... thats just more lies

I don't know why you come here either Michelle. I thought that this was the reason:


Okay, I have started this thread for Michelle at her request. She would like the people who have been helping her the most to participate in the "New" Michelle! This board is for people who are willing to help by staying as positive and honest as possible with the ultimate goal of providing Michelle with support, caring and understanding... while encouraging her personal growth.

When the people here are honest with you, then you refuse to listen. When we try to help you we are pushed away. Yet we all keep coming back. I wonder why that is? (and I am not even Wondergirl! :P) We come here trying to show you that there is more to life than clinging to a relationship that isn't. We try to show you that a lot of people are far, far worse off than you but they don't go moaning and griping about something they cannot and will not change. We come here to play, to have a bit of fun (I think that's called being honest) dispersed with some life lessons, honest feedback and caring.

Michelle, the only people who have posted on this thread are people who genuinely care. Nobody has attacked you, like on previous threads. We are kind to you, and very, very supportive. You just never give one ounce of yourself back. If this is the way you are with your 'boyfriend', your parents, your friends, teachers and other people in your life it is no darn wonder why you are so very, VERY sad and lonely.

We are trying to teach you that talking about something over and over and over again does NOT resolve it if you aren't willing to listen. Communicating is a two way street. You will NEVER have a loving relationship with anyone if you don't learn from some of the feedback on here.

To my way of thinking, you are desperately crying out for love and attention. Do you not see that the only way to get it is to GIVE it?? Every time someone gets close to you they get pushed away because you are afraid. It's time to grow up.

I will not shut up, Michelle. Although, after you posting almost 750 messages on here my guess is that you really don't want help anyhow. You probably are a troll. You would have been booted off here a very long time ago if it wasn't for us being dedicated to supporting you on this thread. I will continue to provide advice on this forum as long as you ask the questions. That is my right as a member here. It is also my right as someone who cares.

I hope you come back. I hope you take 2 days to sit and re-read this entire post. Pretend you are the one giving the advice. I hope you will listen before it's too late. I will NOT play games with you anymore, Michelle. This thread is for your personal growth. Take it, by posting and listening, or leave it by getting off here. It really IS your choice! I will tell you this... I DO care.

Hugs, Didi

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Michelle, this thread was closed because kind people were taking their time out to help you, yet you because disrespectful and rude.