I was going to answer the irst 2 and I must have not read the other ones that I didn't answer

Oh, I'm not going to bed! I'm just finished posting on this thread for the night. Lots of other threads to post on before I sleep! :) Michelle has school tomorrow, so I don't want to keep her up.

Hugs, Didi

Do you have homework due tomorrow that isn't finished yet?
I did most of it

Hey, kiddo! How are you doing?
OK

What can you tell me about something positive or good today?
I don't know. I can't remember

It's kind of nice not being so stressed about stuff, isn't it?
Not really

I take it you don't want to answer any of my questions?
Sorry, I didn't see them

Another thing that you might consider practising and us helping you with in this thread Michelle, is your grammar and spelling. It would be a good place to practice that. Do you want any help with that?
No that's okay. I'm fine until I type

Do you think that my boyfriend could be using me?

do you think that my bf could be using me?

Please take this lightly. But yes, possibly. It might just be an ego thing with him. As I said, please take it lightly. I don't know your boyfriend. Only what you have said about him.

If he is, does that mean he doesn't like me at all?

no thats okay. im fine until i type

Was does "idk" mean, then? Please? I didn't know any of those small abbreviations for words or phrases until I joined this site. In order for me, and possibly others responding to your posts, it might be best if you do use, as best you can, correct spelling and grammar. There are also other people from around the world who have a native tongue other than English who might not know what you are trying to communicate unless you do use correct spelling and grammar.

Do you agree?

I mean, you could maybe be a pen pal with another person who is your age who might live in China, France or wherever. It sounds pretty cool to me! I am really enjoying communicating with people from around the world!

I don't know stands for I don't know

if he is, does that mean he doesnt like me at all?

Not at all. It may be just a guy thing. I remember when I was in college, it was very much kind of a game for me to see how many girls I could date. I did like most of them. It is best not to be getting really tied down to only one person at your age when you or anyone with whom you might be interested in are going to be going through so many changes in your lives as far as what you need and want for each of you as individual persons.

It might take much practice and trying different things out with a number of different people before arriving at the one who is right for you and you being right for the other person.

The important thing right now, is to concentrate on who you are. What you want to be and accomplish as a person. If you want to have a career in something, then you need to buckle down to doing your schoolwork. If you don't want to have a career and just be married, then maybe you will find someone with the same ideas as you about that. Just please remember, that if you do find that special person someday, with whom you want to spend the rest of your life, then either one or both of you is going to have to be able to provide food and shelter for you both, as well as take care of paying the bills.

But, please remember what I have said about people at your age going through so many changes and I will add here, choices as individuals.

idk stands for I dont know

Thank you! :)

idk stands for I dont know

I'm waiting for an answer to "Do you agree?" about the question that your answer above was in reference.

Michelle, thank you for answering the questions that I noted weren't answered yet! Much appreciated! You are continuing to improve!

Wondergirl is leaving but is not logging off. (Otherwise, she won't be able to easily get back on this site.) Don't stay up too late, you two.

*tiptoes off to bed*

Oh, I'm not going to bed! I'm just finished posting on this thread for the night. Lots of other threads to post on before I sleep! :) Michelle has school tomorrow, so I don't want to keep her up.

Hugs, Didi

I have to wholeheartedly agree with the above! I don't want to keep you up either by continuing to post here. I don't know about you, Michelle. But, my first responsibility that I have to another person tomorrow (today) isn't until 2:30 in the afternoon. So, I can stay up awhile longer if I so choose. It may be that way with you too, someday. But, not now.

If I needed to get up in the morning, my butt would have been in bed at least a couple of hours ago. So, I too will be signing off from this thread. But, I do want to make sure that you are okay before I do go.

We can continue discussions tomorrow night, if you would like.

I just had a great idea!!

Michelle can teach Clough some stuff like lol and tmi and gmta and rotflmao etc.

What could Clough teach her (or us)?

What's tmi gmta and rotflmao?

I just had a great idea!!!!!!!!!!!!

Michelle can teach Clough some stuff like lol and tmi and gmta and rotflmao etc.

What could Clough teach her (or us)?

I have to say, you did a great job of tip-toeing off to bed. :) But, you shook the floor when you stomped back to the computer!!!! I'm still shakiiiiing!! :eek:

Actually, I would very much appreciate it if Michelle would teach me the Martian language. :rolleyes: In return, I could teach you all how to play the piano!! :D

O and about earlier... I didn't mean I ate like a cow... I shouldve said "i ate a cow" lol. Burgers and stuff are good and all... but I feel sorry for the cow :(

whats tmi gmta and rotflmao?

It's advanced Martian!!

I can play my keyboard thing. And I donk know if you know the song sweet child o mine by guns and roses but I can play the beginging on my keyboard.

All I know is
Brb I don't know boyfriend girlfriend best friends lol lmao lmfao bs because we nmhjc
And I think that's all but some as some of us know aren't ver appropriate

I'm still waiting for an answer to "Do you agree?"

T-minus ten seconds and I'm out of here...

10

9

8

...

Zero... I'm gone. Goodnight!

So I don't know if he's using me or not and I'm really confused... he acts like he is but then again like he isn't. He acts like he cares but like he doesn't care. I don't know what to think. I'm so confused. I want to talk to him about it but we don't have the time and I don't know what to say. I'm just like about to die

Who can keep a personal secret and tell me what you think?

Its okay, ill just stay here and talk to myself then

So how are you?
I'm just fine. You?
Not bad.

I'm here... I never felt so alone before. I hate fridays and satderdays... they are the worst for me right now.

Well since I thought he was using me I decided to e-mail him last night talking about it... today I thought I'd just ignore him and wait for him to come to me... I didn't talk to him until in 2nd hour. The teacher told us we could do our work with a partner if we wanted. I just sat in my own seat which is by the pincil sharpener. So he went to sharpen his pencil and had me go sit with him. I told him "havnt you noticed ive been ignoring you today?" and he said he didn't notice. We talked a little bit and I told him I think he's using me for THAT and to do his homework and everything. He said "yeah, thats why its been like 5 months since we did that and were still together" But for all I know he could have been doing that w/ some 1 else. I really don't think so. But IDK. I kind of volunteered to do his work though because I know he won't do it and will fail. EVen when I do it he fails because of the tests and everything. He even talked about dropping out so I said "i'll do all your work of you if you just stay in school" Anyway... I told him he needs to check his e-mail and he said "i dont remember my password, do you know it?" so I think he may know some how. Anyway, it may sound like I'm just worried about this... but if you read alll of the e-mails I got from him... its confusing. A lot of them, just talks about how he can't wait to do stuff again. He wants to do that, but not hold hands or anything else?? And then in other RARE e-mails he doesn't mention it but he says that he loved me, "yours forever", and that he loves me... IF you want to know more, PM me but you must keep it a secret.
But its like... it looks as if he's using me. But I feel like he's not. But maybe that's only because that's what I want to believe.

I kust took a quiz "what is your true loves name" and all it asks is your first name and if your love is a boy or girl... his name showed up... how ironic

Hi, Michelle!

I really do think that the two of you just need to talk to each other in person rather than trying to guess what the other is thinking because of the communication by electronic text of some kind. It just seems to make you more frustrated because you don't know about some things because you have to guess.

What kind of keyboard do you have, Michelle?

Oh oh oh give me the link please!

i kust took a quiz "what is your true loves name" and all it asks is your first name and if your love is a boy or girl.... his name showed up....how ironic

Where did you find this quiz, please?

Clough, Lesson One:

lol or LOL = laughing out loud

tmi = too much information (like, about bloody stuff or during chats about private matters)

brb = be right back

Clough, Lesson One:

lol or LOL = laughing out loud

tmi = too much information (like, about bloody stuff or during chats about private matters)

brb = be right back

Okay. Thanks!

What's lesson #2?

Lesson Two will be more of the same. Have you memorized Lesson One yet? There will be a quiz on Monday.

Hi, Michelle!

I really do think that the two of you just need to talk to each other in person rather than trying to guess what the other is thinking because of the communication by electronic text of some kind. It just seems to make you more frustrated because you don't know about some things because you have to guess.

What kind of keyboard do you have, Michelle?

we can't talk much in person. But I feel better when we do talk things over in person. And it seems like he cares more... the thing about e-mail is.. you don't know what kind of expression they are using when they talk... like if they are joking or whatever... you just see the words not how someone is saying it.
like today when I talked to him... somehow he made me feel like he doesn't just want me for that... but there are a lot of reasons that make me wonder if he's cheating or using me... but I really feel like he wouldn't do that. It just seems like he never really has anything to talk about or anything too.

I have a casio

Blogthings - What's Your True Love's Name? (http://www.blogthings.com/whatsyourtruelovesnamequiz/)

Blogthings - What's Your True Love's Name? (http://www.blogthings.com/whatsyourtruelovesnamequiz/)

Thanks for the link! Are you going to answer my question about what kind of keyboard you have?

She said Casio. Make her play etudes.

She said Casio. Make her play etudes.

Oops! I didn't see that she had answered my question! Thanks!

What model number is your Casio, Michelle?

He said he lost the $400 ring that he bought me. ( I kind of gave it back to him one day) he said he thinks that a mouse took it because their was one in the house moving everything around... I know that sounds like a lie... but he will lie about things like that. Do you think he may have given it to someone else? He gave me the neckless back. But he lies about something's that don't even makes since... I gave him my cellphone for pictures and he said he didn't get to turn it on... I know he did because he deleted some pictures... why would he lie about this?

I don't know the model... is that where it says ctk-491?

i dont know the model... is that where it says ctk-491?

Yes. That's the number.

I got to go for awhile. Need some nourishment! Am drying up and withering away due to lack of food!

Michelle, are you here?
I have just been reading some of your posts tonight and wonder if you have messenger or something so we could talk privately?

I want to ask you something about what you typed.

If not, we can do it, PM.

Hugs, Didi

Yeah I have messenger

She said Casio. Make her play etudes.

How about J. S. Bach? Her keyboard would be a good size to play J. S. Bach. Or, is that too much black stuff on the page!

How about practicing Christmas songs? I just cataloged a thin easy piano Christmas song book last night.

Ready for Lesson Two?

Ready for Lesson Two?

Yes! How do you think that I am doing so far with my responding? Do you think I need a little more practice? How many lessons will we have until the big test? Or, am I just taking these classes for observation and no grade?

Hmmm. You aren't using what you learned yet, are you? Do a few lols.

Lol, lol, lol! Was that all right? :confused:

"alright" is two words, "all right".

You have to say something funny before you lol. Or react to someone's funny thing.

Lol is too hard for clough... lets try brb. That means be right back. Say it when your going to leave for a minutr

Lol.. I'm just messing with you

Hey, missy br person. You said "since" earlier and meant... you know...

Sense

Thank you.

Let's give Clough a pop quiz on Lesson One.

Thank you.

Let's give Clough a pop quiz on Lesson One.

Oh, boy! I can't wait!

"alright" is two words, "all right".

You have to say something funny before you lol. Or react to someone's funny thing.

I was singing... :( It's kind of like the exercises that I have my groups do when we warm-up! Lol, lol, lol...

What would you say, Clough, if you were here or chatting on an IM and had to leave for a short time to flip over the chicken that's frying in the kitchen?

How about practicing Christmas songs? I just cataloged a thin easy piano Christmas song book last night.

It is time to start practicing those! :)

*mi mi mi mi mi*

*do re mi fa so la ti dooooo*

What would you say, Clough, if you were here or chatting on an IM and had to leave for a short time to flip over the chicken that's frying in the kitchen?

BBL?

Um, no. Keep studying.

Lol and tmi and brb

Just three. Take your time and rest between study sessions.

Um, no. Keep studying.

lol and tmi and brb

Just three. Take your time and rest between study sessions.

Okay, (deep breath!) Here goes! Let's see if I get it right!

Lol = laugh out loud

Tmi = too much information

Brb = bring your own booze!



Correct? Am I right? Am I right? :p :D

(Panting like a dog who wants a treat!)

Beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep. Sorry, no. Keep studying. I may have to postpone the Monday test and do some remedial work with you. You may even have to stay in your seat at lunchtime.

lol is too hard for clough... lets try brb. That means be right back. Say it when your going to leave for a minutr


lol.. I'm just messing with you

I'm glad that you said that last thing Michelle, because I was going to start to cry! :( :eek:

Beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep. Sorry, no. Keep studying. I may have to postpone the Monday test and do some remedial work with you. You may even have to stay in your seat at lunchtime.

No techer, no!! I will du btr. I promis!!

You are not even speaking English now. Or is that your version of texting? You may lose points for that.

Ok. Lesson Two.

lmao = laughing my a$$ off
rotflmao = rolling on the floor laughing my a$$ off
boyfriend = boyfriend
girlfriend = girlfriend
gmta = great minds think alike (when posting same thought/idea at the same time as another poster)

You are not even speaking English now. Or is that your version of texting? You may lose points for that.

:-C :' Will u 4give me teacher?

Good grief.

I hope teenagers aren't reading this thread.

Lol. I am

Ahhhh... don't forget fsd!

Isn't fsd a feminine hygiene product?

Pffffffffftttttt!! No! (That's fds)... fsd follows gmta!

Friends don't spit.

Ooops, Friends split donuts.

Ok. Lesson Two.

lmao = laughing my a$$ off
rotflmao = rolling on the floor laughing my a$$ off
bf = boyfriend
gf = girlfriend
gmta = great minds think alike (when posting same thought/idea at the same time as another poster)


Ok! I'll stude hard on this 1 and then u can tell me how I do 4 when I rite something using the acronyms and abbreviationenss that I have lernd alredy, okey? p.S. I myt do sum aditional stude on my own to empres u. Okey?

sorry about mi spellin. Havnot quiet figurd out hw to uze the spell chek thng yet!

Ok. Lesson Two.

lmao = laughing my a$$ off
rotflmao = rolling on the floor laughing my a$$ off
bf = boyfriend
gf = girlfriend
gmta = great minds think alike (when posting same thought/idea at the same time as another poster)


Ok! I'll stude hard on this 1 and then u can tell me how I do 4 when I rite something using the acronyms and abbreviationenss that I have lernd alredy, okey? p.S. I myt do sum aditional stude on my own to empres u. Okey?

sorry about mi spellin. Havnot quiet figurd out hw to uze the spell chek thng yet!

I also don't know how tu poste just yet either, aparantly!

This has nothing to do with my situation

I'm waiting for you to jump in. We are meanwhile killing time.

Any thoughts for us this evening? Any conclusions? (Keep it simple. It's late.)

yeah... and
wat=what
n=and
are=r
dose=those
dem=them
ttyl= talk to you later
nmjc = not much just chillin
l8r = later
best friends = best friends forever
asl = age, sex, location (usually when people are trying to meet someone to date)
love = love
little = little
omg = o my god
u = you
c = see
eye = I

not anything that I would say out loud it has to= to be kept secret

Did you get a chance to chat with Didi?

this has nothing to do with my situation

I apologize, Michelle. You do understand that we were just having some fun? We were hoping that you would join in with the fun too! It is the weekend, and for some of us, this is a time to just let loose and relax some.

That's a good list, by the way (by the way).

yeah... and
wat=what
n=and
are=r
dose=those
dem=them
ttyl= talk to you later
nmjc = not much just chillin
l8r = later
bff = best friends forever
asl = age, sex, location (usually when people are trying to meet someone to date)
luv = love
lil = little
omg = o my god
u = you
c = see
eye = i

Are you giving me more stuff for my assignment?

She was lol-ing once or twice. I saw her do it. And she understands how we old fogies are.

Lolololololololol hahahahahahahahah heeheeheeheehee lololololol *cough* *choke* lolololololol

By the way I don't know what 2 do about my situation... I'm really sad and I think he may just be using me but I don't know. I'm more confused than eva

Could you not deal with him for a while? Not talk with him? Not even look at him?

I tried that today and it didn't work... it did until 2nd hour but then he came up to me and wanted me to work w/ him. Do you think he is using me?

If you do his work for him, he will maybe graduate? What about tests? How does he do then?

lolololololololol hahahahahahahahah heeheeheeheehee lololololol *cough* *choke* lolololololol

You didn't do the proper breathing exercises first, before singing a note. That is why you are coughing and choking.

If you do his work for him, he will maybe graduate? What about tests? How does he do then?
He fails them.. but he doesn't even try. I mean he got 2% on one.

Clough, I did so do them!! I was laffing at your new assignment. Guess the test will be postponed until after Christmas...

Originally Posted by br_hjs
yeah... and
wat=what
n=and
are=r
dose=those
dem=them
ttyl= talk to you later
nmjc = not much just chillin
l8r = later
best friends = best friends forever
asl = age, sex, location (usually when people are trying to meet someone to date)
love = love
little = little
omg = o my god
u = you
c = see
eye = I


Are you giving me more stuff for my assignment?

I would appreciate an answer to my question above.

So how is he staying in school? Because of you doing his homework for him?

What do you think? Do you think that he is using me? I just want to know that he's not but I'm worried he is. I don't know what to think... I don't want to tell you to lie to tell me he's not, but that's what I would like to hear for the truth. I'm going to have to wait all weekend before I know from him and even then, he may lye about it

Clough, I did so do them!!!!!! I was laffing at your new assignment. Guess the test will be postponed until after Christmas....

Somebody's going to make me want to cry again.. :( :(

what do u think? do u think that he is using me? i just wanna know that hes not but i'm worried he is. idk what to think... i dont want to tell you to lie to tell me hes not, but thats what i would like to hear for the truth. im gonna have to wait all weekend before i know from him and even then, he may lye about it

Are there other guys that you are interested in? Please answer this question. Thank you!

Yes, I think he's using you, Michelle. Why shouldn't he? He got what he wanted and still gets what he wants with the homework and don't have to do anything to get something from you.

I would appreciate an answer to my question above.
Just some extra practice... when we give you the test, u can't look back and cheat either. Just to see what you know now... without looking tell me what you think these mean. Don't worry, it won't go against your grade:

Brb
Lol
I don't know

Are there other guys that you are interested in? Please answer this question. Thank you!
No

Yes, I think he's using you, Michelle. Why shouldn't he? He got what he wanted and still gets what he wants with the homework and don't have to do anything to get something from you.
I mean... do you think he even cares about me at all?

just some extra practice... when we give you the test, u can't look back and cheat either. just to see what you know now... without looking tell me what you think these mean. Dont worry, it wont go against your grade:

brb
lol
idk

Okay. Thanks for the extra practice! I'm not looking back, honest! But, you have to realize that the learning side of me has a very short memory!

brb = bring your own booze (told you I had a short memory!)
lol = lots of luck
I don't know = (can I cheat on this? Please? I can't really remember!) :(

I can't look into his eyes, but my best guess is, as soon as you aren't willing to do his work for him and come when he snaps his fingers, he will move on.

brb = be right back
lol= laugh out loud
idk= I don't know

I guess they could be whatever you want to make of them though

I can't look into his eyes, but my best guess is, as soon as you aren't willing to do his work for him and come when he snaps his fingers, he will move on.
Welll I tell him I'm not going to do it since he's failing anyway and he just says "fine then i'll remember that"
Its just that he never wants to hold hands or any of that but he'll do other stuff.

Yes, I think he's using you, Michelle. Why shouldn't he? He got what he wanted and still gets what he wants with the homework and don't have to do anything to get something from you.

I really like this answer! And, I do hope you give it some thought!

Bubbling red balloons
Lazy old lutherans
Iowans don't kick

brb = be right back
lol= laugh out loud
idk= i dont know

i guess they could be whatever you want to make of them though

Gosh! Thanks! I'll try to remember! But, you know me...

he just says "fine then i'll remember that"...but he'll do other stuff.

So he'll do private stuff if you cooperate with the homework, like paying you back, but not public stuff like holding hands?

What I mean is that I'm not worried about him wanting me to do his work... just that he doesn't like to hold hands or kiss but he always wants to do other stuff. That's what I'm worried is all he wants from me.

There's one way to test it out. Ignore him. Refuse to deal with him in any way. See what he does.

what i mean is that im not worried about him wanting me to do his work.... just that he doesnt like to hold hands or kiss but he always wants to do other stuff. thats what i'm worried is all he wants from me.

That is called using you.

That's what I tried today and then he came up to me wanting me to work with him... I was going to say no... but I don't want him to be the one mad at me. Because I can't control weather or not he decides for us to stay together... I may get mad at him but chances are I won't break up with him

But is that all he wants? Does he care about me at all?

There's one way to test it out. Ignore him. Refuse to deal with him in any way. See what he does.

I do agree with the above!

but is that all he wants? does he care about me at all?

>>>>Edited<<<< It may be all he wants. He might not really care about you. You may just have to accept that. We have already talked about choices...

Please read again what I wrote many pages ago. Please take it to heart. Thank you.

I'm not sure that you even read it.


Quote:
Originally Posted by br_hjs
If he is, does that mean he doesn't like me at all?


Not at all. It may be just a guy thing. I remember when I was in college, it was very much kind of a game for me to see how many girls I could date. I did like most of them. It is best not to be getting really tied down to only one person at your age when you or anyone with whom you might be interested in are going to be going through so many changes in your lives as far as what you need and want for each of you as individual persons.

It might take much practice and trying different things out with a number of different people before arriving at the one who is right for you and you being right for the other person.

The important thing right now, is to concentrate on who you are. What you want to be and accomplish as a person. If you want to have a career in something, then you need to buckle down to doing your schoolwork. If you don't want to have a career and just be married, then maybe you will find someone with the same ideas as you about that. Just please remember, that if you do find that special person someday, with whom you want to spend the rest of your life, then either one or both of you is going to have to be able to provide food and shelter for you both, as well as take care of paying the bills.

But, please remember what I have said about people at your age going through so many changes and I will add here, choices as individuals.

(1) i dont want him to be the one mad at me (2) i can't control weather or not he decides for us to stay together (3) i wont break up with him

Question for 1, 2, 3 above ------------ WHY NOT??

Its like even though he shows signs that he's using me... I think those signs are LYING!!
That's just how I feel about it. So I try to ignore them... but I'm trying to do less and less for him but still be there for him. Like when I do his homework he usually says "thanks, i owe you" but then he never does anything. What's he waiting for? And why is it so hard for him to just let me know he cares? He's like with me how I am with school. Afraid to say anything, afraid to be wrong and feel stupid, or emberassed

Question for 1, 2, 3 above ------------ WHY NOT???????
Okay well if I'm mad, I can still keep us together if I want to. If he's mad and wants to break up... sometimes its too much of a stuggle to go through a long argument... but I always fight my way through it and get him to change his mind anyway... I would never break up with him because I won't give up like that

I wouldn't say he's really the romantic type though... at all... but we used to hold hands and stuff at first. I don't get it. Sometimes he says he wants to and sometimes no.

But aren't their a lot of guys that don't like all that kissing and holding hamds?

its like even though he shows signs that hes using me.... i think those signs are LYING!!!!!

Why would signs that he's using you be lies? Just because you don't WANT them to be lies, so you lie to yourself?

That's just the feeling I get.

I actually feel like I broke up with him... and like I can do it no problem... but I know I'm wrong and I still won't do it even if I want to, because really... I don't want to

So he will continue to use you until he's out of school and can move on without you.

Do you think he cares about me at all or not?

There's only one way to find out, like I said before.

Okay, I'll tell you how it goes. But what I would like to do is talk to him about it . But the only time I get to talk t ohim isn't long and I don't want to waste it talking about that because I just think that he would be a little annoyed by getting accused of stuff that he doesn't do. (I really think he doesn't, but I just kind of wonder about it)

br_hjs: do you think he cares about me at all or not?


Wondergirl: So he will continue to use you until he's out of school and can move on without you.

I think that Wondergirl has already answered your question with the answer that she gave above.

If you are looking for us to make it right according to your wishes, that probably isn't going to happen. You need to live in reality of the situation.

He does not care about you.

O well that's really nice to hear after I was just starting to fell better and quit crying and get some sleep

I hate weekends. Especially Friday nights and saterdays... its to long to wait to talk to him about the things that bother me most and usually just so happen on those days

What do you really want to happen in this relationship, br_hjs based upon the questions/comments that you have asked/stated? Please answer this question.

You don't have to answer right now. It could be tomorrow or next week sometime. Please read things that you have posted and what we have said about them. Please?

My thought right now, is that this is not a healthy situation for you to be in. But, you seem bound and determined to remain in it. Why? I don't really know. I am sure that there are many other guys with whom you might have a relationship if you were to choose to do so in which you would be much happier instead of trying to figure out things and guessing about things most of the time with the present relationship that you are in.

There are many fish in the sea from which to choose friends as well as relationships. Please make your choices wisely. Currently, it would appear that you are not.

I really do hate to see you suffer in your thoughts. It does make me sad.

okay, i'll tell you how it goes. But what i would like to do is talk to him about it . but the only time i get to talk t ohim isnt long and i dont want to waste it talking about that b/c i just think that he would be a little annoyed by getting accused of stuff that he doesnt do. (i really think he doesnt, but i just kinda wonder about it)

You don't have to talk to him about it. Just back off. Ignore him. He doesn't call anyway, so that's no problem. Next week in school will be the tough time. Avoid him. See what he does. Of course, he may be afraid he's losing his homework person...

What do you really want to happen in this relationship, br_hjs based upon the questions/comments that you have asked/stated? Please answer this question.

You don't have to answer right now. It could be tomorrow or next week sometime. Please read things that you have posted and what we have said about them. Please?

My thought right now, is that this is not a healthy situation for you to be in. But, you seem bound and determined to remain in it. Why? I don't really know. I am sure that there are many other guys with whom you might have a relationship if you were to choose to do so in which you would be much happier instead of trying to figure out things and guessing about things most of the time with the present relationship that you are in.

There are many fish in the sea from which to choose friends as well as relationships. Please make your choices wisely. Currently, it would appear that you are not.

I really do hate to see you suffer in your thoughts. It does make me sad.

Good because I planned on answering tomorrow... I'm really tired now.
One thing I will say now though is that I know I could be with some one else who would treat me better and theirs a lot of people like that. But it just wouldn't seem real to me. They wouldn't mean anything to me. Ive been their and really didn't care when we broke up. Other people just seem like fake or something to me

You don't have to talk to him about it. Just back off. Ignore him. He doesn't call anyway, so that's no problem. Next week in school will be the tough time. Avoid him. See what he does. Of course, he may be afraid he's losing his homework person....
I haven't been doing his work much anyway. And nothing about us has really changed. He's failing those classes anyway so its not like it really matters. And I told him today he needs to start doing his own. He said he don't know how... but he's passing 1 class I do his work in and I'm failing... (because of tests) its history class

Well.. I'm going to think about how, nothing has changed and he may have been using me all this time and I didn't mind I just didn't think about it until now and so I was happier. But all that's changed is what I thought about. Nothing about us. So really its all the same and I'm going to sleep because I don't know what I'm talking about ne (any) more

Well, it's 4:25 or so here. Guess I should go to bed before the birds start cheeping. Thanks for all the conversation. More soon, I hope.

The following is from an earlier post that I wrote to you. I don't even know that you read it and what you thought of it.

I am going to bed now...

Quote:

Originally Posted by br_hjs
If he is, does that mean he doesn't like me at all?



Not at all. It may be just a guy thing. I remember when I was in college, it was very much kind of a game for me to see how many girls I could date. I did like most of them. It is best not to be getting really tied down to only one person at your age when you or anyone with whom you might be interested in are going to be going through so many changes in your lives as far as what you need and want for each of you as individual persons.

It might take much practice and trying different things out with a number of different people before arriving at the one who is right for you and you being right for the other person.

The important thing right now, is to concentrate on who you are. What you want to be and accomplish as a person. If you want to have a career in something, then you need to buckle down to doing your schoolwork. If you don't want to have a career and just be married, then maybe you will find someone with the same ideas as you about that. Just please remember, that if you do find that special person someday, with whom you want to spend the rest of your life, then either one or both of you is going to have to be able to provide food and shelter for you both, as well as take care of paying the bills.

But, please remember what I have said about people at your age going through so many changes and I will add here, choices as individuals.

Well, it's 4:25 or so here. Guess I should go to bed before the birds start cheeping. Thanks for all the conversation. More soon, I hope.

Cheep, cheep! We're already cheeping! :D

I'm east of you and it's dark here with no birds. Or did you mean cheap?

Cheep, cheep cheep... I'm a birdbrain!!

Lololol gmta tmi

lololol gmta tmi

There you go with the advanced Martian stuff again!

Goodnight, Gracie!

All right. So I'm here again. I like really forgot about how I felt yesterday... I don't feel like he's using me at all. I feel like I've always felt only different... but maybe no one should say anything about it unless it's that he's not or something goood like that because I don't want to feel like I felt yesterday

But I think I'm going to go again but I'm really not sure... I dk

Well, until you do the test and find out for yourself where his loyalties lie, there's not much we can say except to keep your eyes open.

I came on just to see how you are doing today, Michelle. I can't stay online due to health issues but I wanted to say a few things after our chat last night and reading all of your posts since then.

I feel, in the bottom of my heart, that this guy is using you. Even if he isn't, he doesn't love you. You keep asking the question and pretty much everyone who knows you as well as many, many people here (teens and adults of varying ages and both male and female) have told you that he seems to be using you, he doesn't treat you right, you deserve better, etc. You just do NOT want to hear it. Then, even when you allow yourself to admit it's true, you say that you don't care, that you still want him.

Many of us have discussed your need for therapy, Michelle. I really feel that you will benefit from therapy - NOT because I believe you are sick, but because you need someone to talk to about these issues. You need someone to sit down with you, listen, give you feedback, help you to plan out ways of letting go, moving past this and how to learn to respect and care for yourself. You are on the edge of either making a very serious mistake that will affect you in a negative way for the rest of your life OR growing up and making changes in your life that will make you a happier young woman.

You have a pattern of being used and accepting less than you deserve. You have an unhappy home situation. You have no real friends. You allow yourself to be treated like garbage and say you don't care. The truth is, whether you want to admit it or not, YOU DO CARE! Otherwise, you wouldn't be here, posting as you do... chatting with various members who are trying so hard to help you... etc.

This thread was started after you sent me a PM saying you wanted it because you DID want to grow emotionally. You said you wanted people who really cared and wanted to help you to be honest with you and support you. We are all trying, but you have to do your part too.

You cannot function without a proper night's sleep for any length of time. You cannot deal with your issues if you are unwilling to admit and work hard at getting past them. You KNOW the truth. You KNOW that the best thing for you is to let this guy go and work on your own self-improvement so you attract guys and girlfriends who genuinely care for you. You cannot get healthy by closing yourself off in your room every day after school and sleeping then stay up all night on the computer.

Michelle, you KNOW that Clough, Wondergirl, myself and many others really want to help you. You cannot change what you are unwilling to admit to, and once you do it will take hard work.

You know, there are plenty of girls and guys on this site who have come for advice, been given it, and make every effort with the support of the others to take the advice. Sure, when they feel like they can't do it they come back for support, but they make the effort. That is what you need to do, Michelle. You need to start accepting the very good and honest advice here and create a plan and the supports you need to stick to it.

We care Michelle... but do you??

Hugs, Didi

Sorry that's too much for me to read. {yawn} I'll read it later

sorry thats too much for me to read. {yawn} i'll read it later

Yeah, whatever...

You and I both know you are more than capable. Keep playing the game, kiddo, and you will be hurt. Like I said, it's your choice, and it seems you prefer negative attention to caring, positive advice. I guess what you have just told me is that I shouldn't bother. Okay. If you want my support and advice again, ask for it. Otherwise, you're on your own as far as I am concerned.

Hugs, Didi

I do hope that you read it, Michelle. If not once, many times. Please take it to heart. It is the truth.

If I could rate your answer Didi, I'd give you as many "Agrees" as I could!!

Yeah, whatever....

You and I both know you are more than capable. Keep playing the game, kiddo, and you will be hurt. Like I said, it's your choice, and it seems you prefer negative attention to caring, positive advice. I guess what you have just told me is that I shouldn't bother. Okay. If you want my support and advice again, ask for it. Otherwise, you're on your own as far as I am concerned.

Hugs, Didi
Well, if that's it... do you think that maybe, just maybe he realizes that I want to be sad and it's the reason why he treats me the way he does? But that's all wrong if that's what he thinks

He just called me... right when I quit crying and was getting ready to talk to my brother about it. Anyway... I tried to talk to him about how I think he's using me and he said he's not and then I was kind of talking a little more about it and he started to get a little mad. But anytime I worry about anything about him, he's like that. Like when we talk... he wants to have a good conversation not about something like that. Then he asked me when I'm getting my license and I told him that's part of why I think he's using me. And he's like "why?" and I said "when i get my lisence what are you going to want to do?" and he said "i want you to get your license to i can see you out of school, because we dont see each other much." then I said "okay but we arent going to have sex" he said okay and I jokingly said "well, maybe just once since its been a while" and then he said "no, 2 seconds ago you just said we wouldnt so we wont"

But he always kind of did leave it up to me. That's why I'm still kind of confused... I guess its just the holding hands/kissing thing that makes me wonder... but I asked on another web site and some guys replied and said that they don't really see what's so great about it... and 90% of people enjoy kissing is what I read on another web site. Anyway, I think that I just won't worry about it. But if I find out he is, its going to be hard to ever trust anyone again. But I'll come here for help, whatever happens

Then he said he was online chatting with babes all day.. and I just said "what" and then he said "whats the name of the movie thats off of" and he kept talking about some movie with a nerd in it

So what do you guys think about what he said?

He was pushing your buttons. Guys call it "teasing".

Hi, Wondergirl!

I would like to add that if he really cared about you, he would be trying to do things that would make you feel good and not cause you to wonder what is going on and cause you to worry.

So, what's up Wondergirl?

Wondergirl was up until 4:30 Sat morning and is ready for bed now.

Nothing much is happening. The cats are still wandering around. I finished the dishes, washed out the microwave, and made a pitcher of Minute Maid orange juice from frozen concentrate. I'm hungry and there's nothing much to eat. Everything is closed, since it's 2:30 a.m. I think I want a pizza.

Oh, you have a cat! So do I. My cat's name is Boots. I have a gig in Staunton, IL tomorrow. I washed my tux shirt and ironed my tux. Almost everything that I need is ready to go in my car.

I have four cats -- Thomas Jefferson, Rasputin, Boswell, and Little Debbie (three are rescued).

You iron??

What time is your gig? For a wedding?

Wondergirl is now going to snuggle under her electric blanket that has prewarmed her bed.

Good night, all.

Of course I iron!! I also do dishes, can sit, lay down, roll over, heel, bark and am litter box trained! I make an excellent pet! My next step is to try to be a human, though. I am working on it!! Had you all fooled, didn't I?

I think the gig is at 3:00 p.m. It is for a dance like usual. It seems like we play down there about once every few months. I have only been playing with the group for about a year. So, it is hard for me to really know what are the usual gigs and what aren't.

The day starts with us meeting at 9:45 a.m. to carpool at a married couple's home in Rock Island who are also playing the gig. Am also meeting a trumpet player from Davenport, IA there at the same time. We then are off to Peru, IL to meet the band bus. From there, we go to Staunton. The whole thing takes up the whole day.

Oh... I forgot one more thing that I can do... I can also play dead! I do a really great job at it... you should see me! Tongue sticking out and a little drool here and there. Hold my breath until I turn blue! I'm a hit at Halloween!! :eek:

When trick-or-treaters come to the door my master says: "Hey, kids! Do any of you have a dog?" (Some nod, "Yes.") "Hey, you wanna see ours play dead?" "Um, sure." They say.

I scare the begeebers out of 'em every time!! :p

Lol!!

Goodnight, all!

Sounds like a busy but fun-filled, exciting day! Seeing as I see you speaking of pets, I thought I'd tell you about mine. I have a 125 lb. Bernese Mountain Dog named Thunder. He will be 3 in January. He is stupid/smart and a real puppy in an elephants body. :) I also have a 62.5 lb. Chocolate Lab named (yech) Browni. I actually call him my chocolate moose, a term of endearment that became necessary after seeing the way he bends down to take a drink of water then it drains out of his mouth for 5 minutes. Afterwards just like a big moose! Heehee! He is 3 years old. I took him in as a foster dog 2 years ago. He suffered from EXTREME separation anxiety. After all the progress that I had made with him there was no way I was giving him up. It would have set him back so far. So, I adopted him.

I have three cats: Tara, a Bengal cross rescue with a stage 5 heart murmur. She was given a very poor prognosis - less than a year and probably not six months. Three vets who I have taken her to have never heard a heart murmur as severe as hers. It seems that the main artery to her heart isn't working. Surgery had a potential success rate of less than 1%. They wouldn't spay her or give her shots because they felt she wouldn't survive them. When we moved to the country she was 1 year old. My daughter let her out by accident one day and she was gone all night. We found her in the barn. A few months later she presented us with 5 kittens. Sigh... couldn't be spayed or get shots but... :) So, I took her to my vet and had her spayed and receive her vaccinations. I figured if she got out once, she'd do it again. The Bengal in her makes her a little more determined to get outside. She survived it all and is now over 4 years old. I kept 2 of her kittens, both females and named them Bubble and Squeak originally, but my daughter took offense to it so we renamed Bubble to Bubo (owl) and Squeak took on the name of Baby. All of my canine/feline pets are neutered or spayed.

I have a nasty little "love" bird, Laura, who was also a rescue with her husband, Luke. She was very badly mistreated and it shows! She ended up killing her husband and now lives a meaningless life in a cage, surrounded by animals who want to eat her. In addition, there is Franklin... a rescued red-eared slider. He was about the size of a silver dollar when I first took him in 8 years ago. He suffered from soft shell because of not being fed properly and was near-death. Now he is larger than my head and very, very healthy. He has been used as a teaching aid in the primary grades for many years, but is now retired. He had a girlfriend, Fern, a Midland painted turtle for a year and a half after she was brought to me after being run over by a car. I nursed her and healed her and she was released this summer. Franklin misses her a lot!

I also breed angelfish and fancy swordtails for extra cash, and feeder fish of various kinds for Franklin, so I have 3 aquariums. My home is like a zoo! There is usually always a wild animal, bird or something here being taken care of. I have nursed fawns, fox kits, baby groundhogs, raccoons, skunks, chickens, goats, squirrels, robins, starlings, swallows, even a baby bear! I think I will have my own sanctuary if I ever get rich.

Anyhow, just thought I'd tell you about my pets. They keep me VERY busy and kind of poor, but I could never live without an animal of some kind. I used to have a wonderful dog, Sam. She was part lab and part husky and a real sweetheart. She, too, was a pup that I rescued. She came to me with parvo and almost died. She turned out to be the best dog who ever owned me. She used to visit schools as well as seniors residences as a Therapy Dog. Sadly, I lost her September/05 to kidney failure at 10 years of age. We were just going to start a new therapy dog program for people in hospice, so it was a huge loss. Her temperament could never be beat.

Anyhow, I'm off to bed again. Have a good time tomorrow, Clough!

Hugs, Didi

I thought about breeding my own fish... but I don't know if I could or anything about it.

But what do you guys think about when I was talking to him and he said no... whatever. That whole thing about when he called and when I get my license... do you think he was just lying and saying that so I would think he really does care and then say OK we will? Which I won't anyway. Or do you think he really was telling the truth?

Clough, POP QUIZ!!
What do these mean:
lol
brb


and for the future... 1 I forgot about was g2g = got to go

I didn't do my homework this weekend which means I didn't do his either. But I haven't been doing either of ours and when I do, its never finnished. I don't know why I haven't been doing it though.

Hi, everyone!

I got back from my gig after 2:30 this morning! Will be responding to things tonight!

Clough

Michelle didn't do her homework and Clough did his gig. I admire C for his attitude and sense of responsibility.

How can we better encourage M to do homework? She says the algebra teacher assigns many problems but checks only a few and gives grades based on the accuracy of those few.

I suspect M isn't doing her homework because she sees no gain in doing more than, say, five algebra problems. How can we convince her that doing all of the problems, even if there are as many as 50, are to her benefit? Is figuring out each one important? If so, why? If they are similar, why should she do all 50 to prove she knows the process? Why should she do all of them? Is there a bigger positive than just figuring out the answers?

She has us do all of them so we know what were doing on the test but we still get 5 points for completeing it and she doesn't grade them all because "she doesnt have enough time". And if we don't do it(which a lot of people don't... I think only like 5 people are trying in that class) she makes us write down why we didn't do it and give her that paper. Latley iv'e just been writing things like "its a waste of time for only 10 points" and "u have better things to do" I mean really, when I do my homework in that class it takes like 3 hours and the whole time I'm trying to hurry because I get home from school around 3:45 and then spend about 3 hours doing homework in that one class and all I think about is : I need to take a shower, eat dinner, clean my room, take care of my pets, god only knows what I'm going to do when I get a job which well be when I get my license. And I don't see the point in that either because I save my money. I want to have a lot of it. Well... looks like all the money I saved in the past 3 years did me no good at all because my dad took it all. And I mean I really save. If I but anything its food. And maybe I'll spend like $60 every 6 or 7 months on either clothes or games. But I try not to even do that... I don't go to the movies, or the mall with my friends... I'd rather save my money... but now I see theirs no point since my dad just takes it all from me anyway

He wes me over $1500 by the way. And he owes my brother over $10,000

Isn't there someplace to put it so it's safe?

If the rest of the class has the same concerns about the algebra homework, could they ask the teacher to rethink the homework, to maybe assign only ten representative problems that would be manageble for the students to do each night? Or even have the students themselves pick out homework problems for the class...

It doesn't matter where I keep my money... my dad's still going to get it from me because he'll get all mad and stuff if I TRY not to and I can't stand him. Hes never in a good mood. And I want to stay home from school just 1 day and he won't let me. He never cared before and now all of a sudden I get yelled at for wanting to. I can't even stand being around him for 1 second and the main reason why I don't want to go 2 school, is because I'd have to be in the car with him for about 25 min the whole way their... he yells at me and tells me that I need to get my license and makes it sound like its my fault that I don't already have it and he says I need to go driving more and all this stuff but I don't have anyone to go with me. Every time I ask him or my mom they are "busy." My mom always says she has to "clean" I guess the new definition for that is watching TV. And my dad says he has to "golf" which now I guess means get drunk and then sleep all day. And I get yelled at for askinf when we can go... by the way, the things that they do, even if they really were cleaning or golfing, isn't as important as me getting my license. They could at least take an hour out of their day for me and they choose not to. And they won't even take me anywhere I need to go other than school. I need new clothes. All of my clothes are getting holes in them. I would have bought my own clothes if they would have just taken me. I would have bought myself and I pod too. But I've been waiting over a year to get myself an iPod and with christmas coming up, their going to be sold everywhere again and I'll probably have to wait until like April. I wouldn't have the money now anyway and you know what my dad says? He laughs and says "they wont even make ipods anymore by the time you get one"

Clough, POP QUIZ!!!!
What do these mean:
lol
brb


and for the future... 1 i forgot about was g2g = got to go


lol = Laughing out loud

brb = Be right back

Did I get those correct? :D

Congratulations!! Yes, you did. Do you want a cookie now?

Did you cheat?

I can't believe this thread had over 40 pages and it isn't even a week old

Congradulations!!! Yes, you did. Do you want a cookie now?

Did you cheat?

Goody! :D Yes, I would like a cookie now! :D

Did ---- I ---- cheat?? How could you ask such a thing?? :mad:

Well, ummm... no ---- I mean ---- yeah. Well, sort of anyway... (gulp!! ) :( :confused: :o

I think that I am getting reall small here right now >>>>>>> you can call me the shrinking man...

Got to go for awhile...

You don't deserve a cookie if you cheated. :( Yeah, you need to go study some more

I can't believe this thread had over 40 pages and it isnt even a week old
Just means you have a bunch of people loving you! That my friend is wonderful... Keep up the good work guys and br... hugs to you sweet!;)

You don't deserve a cookie if you cheated. :( Yeah, you need to go study some more

Whaaaa!! But, I want a cookie!! I didn't totally cheat!! Whaaaa!! :( :( :( :(

Would you please give me some more acronyms to study? I promise that I won't kind of, sort of cheat the next time!

Here's some baklava from Harry & David. Enjoy!

Tmi
g2g
I don't know
2L8
Addy
Bbfn

Here's some baklava from Harry & David. Enjoy!

tmi
g2g
idk
2L8
addy
bbfn

Those are kind of hard, teacher! Are you sure that I can study and remember what they mean?

Several are review.

Memorize these by next Monday --

Chat and Usenet Acronyms and Abbreviations (http://www.geocities.com/eedd88/abbreviations.html?200716)

Several are review.

Memorize these by next Monday --

Chat and Usenet Acronyms and Abbreviations (http://www.geocities.com/eedd88/abbreviations.html?200716)

Yes MA'AM! MA'AM! :p

I sat up last night until 3 a.m. waiting for you and to hear stories about your gig. I just have to go to bed now. It's 1 a.m. already.

Any ideas on what adventure a 4th or 5th grader could have (in 1200 words)? I need an adventure idea.

I sat up last night until 3 a.m. waiting for you and to hear stories about your gig. I just have to go to bed now. It's 1 a.m. already.

Any ideas on what adventure a 4th or 5th grader could have (in 1200 words)? I need an adventure idea.

Hey, thanks! I didn't know that you wanted to hear about the gig. Want to hear a short version about it now?

Any ideas on what adventure a 4th or 5th grader could have (in 1200 words)? I need an adventure idea.

Considering that Winter is just around the corner, how about something concerning Winter activities like sledding? Having snowball fights? Building igloos or snow forts, etc.

Of course, we also know how much children at that age like to go ice fishing! :D Right? ;) Not! :eek:

Here's some baklava from Harry & David. Enjoy!

tmi
g2g
idk
2L8
addy
bbfn

Even I can't figure out those last two

Do you have school tomorrow, Michelle?

Do you have school tomorrow, Michelle?

Hahahahaha! Your words quiet the spirit, Craig. :)

Hugs, Didi

You make me chuckle too, Didi!

Well, last night I was up until 3 am and then I had a bunch of night mares and I wish I wouldn't had slept at all... I have never had a nightmare in my entire life until yesterday... that's kind strange

But I stay up til' around 3 sometimes and I'm fine because I also sleep earlier on like when I get home from school for abour 4 hours. But every day I go to sleep at a different time... I just can't keep it the same... sometimes its 8 pm one day and 3 am the next... pretty much just when ever I feel tired

I apologize for not responding to this post, Didi! You obviously spent a great deal of time writing it!


Sounds like a busy but fun-filled, exciting day! Seeing as I see you speaking of pets, I thought I'd tell you about mine. I have a 125 lb. Bernese Mountain Dog named Thunder. He will be 3 in January. He is stupid/smart and a real puppy in an elephants body. :) I also have a 62.5 lb. Chocolate Lab named (yech) Browni. I actually call him my chocolate moose, a term of endearment that became necessary after seeing the way he bends down to take a drink of water then it drains out of his mouth for 5 minutes. Afterwards just like a big moose! Heehee! He is 3 years old. I took him in as a foster dog 2 years ago. He suffered from EXTREME separation anxiety. After all the progress that I had made with him there was no way I was giving him up. It would have set him back so far. So, I adopted him.

I have had pets all of my life. Mostly just cats and some birds also. I love dogs! But, because of the amount of maintenance that they require, I don't have one. You must have an awful lot of room where you are in order to have so many pets!


I have three cats: Tara, a Bengal cross rescue with a stage 5 heart murmur. She was given a very poor prognosis - less than a year and probably not six months. Three vets who I have taken her to have never heard a heart murmur as severe as hers. It seems that the main artery to her heart isn't working. Surgery had a potential success rate of less than 1%. They wouldn't spay her or give her shots because they felt she wouldn't survive them. When we moved to the country she was 1 year old. My daughter let her out by accident one day and she was gone all night. We found her in the barn. A few months later she presented us with 5 kittens. Sigh... couldn't be spayed or get shots but... :) So, I took her to my vet and had her spayed and receive her vaccinations. I figured if she got out once, she'd do it again. The Bengal in her makes her a little more determined to get outside. She survived it all and is now over 4 years old. I kept 2 of her kittens, both females and named them Bubble and Squeak originally, but my daughter took offense to it so we renamed Bubble to Bubo (owl) and Squeak took on the name of Baby. All of my canine/feline pets are neutered or spayed.

I'm glad that you have your animals neutered or spayed. It is the most humane thing to do. I just have one cat now. Used to have two. One was the mom and the other was the son. The son Boots, is the one who remains. I think that he is 15 years old. You would never know it by looking at him or his behavior!


I have a nasty little "love" bird, Laura, who was also a rescue with her husband, Luke. She was very badly mistreated and it shows! She ended up killing her husband and now lives a meaningless life in a cage, surrounded by animals who want to eat her. In addition, there is Franklin... a rescued red-eared slider. He was about the size of a silver dollar when I first took him in 8 years ago. He suffered from soft shell because of not being fed properly and was near-death. Now he is larger than my head and very, very healthy. He has been used as a teaching aid in the primary grades for many years, but is now retired. He had a girlfriend, Fern, a Midland painted turtle for a year and a half after she was brought to me after being run over by a car. I nursed her and healed her and she was released this summer. Franklin misses her a lot!


She ended up killing her husband and now lives a meaningless life in a cage, surrounded by animals who want to eat her. I love your sense of humor!


I also breed angelfish and fancy swordtails for extra cash, and feeder fish of various kinds for Franklin, so I have 3 aquariums. My home is like a zoo! There is usually always a wild animal, bird or something here being taken care of. I have nursed fawns, fox kits, baby groundhogs, raccoons, skunks, chickens, goats, squirrels, robins, starlings, swallows, even a baby bear! I think I will have my own sanctuary if I ever get rich.


Anyhow, just thought I'd tell you about my pets. They keep me VERY busy and kind of poor, but I could never live without an animal of some kind. I used to have a wonderful dog, Sam. She was part lab and part husky and a real sweetheart. She, too, was a pup that I rescued. She came to me with parvo and almost died. She turned out to be the best dog who ever owned me. She used to visit schools as well as seniors residences as a Therapy Dog. Sadly, I lost her September/05 to kidney failure at 10 years of age. We were just going to start a new therapy dog program for people in hospice, so it was a huge loss. Her temperament could never be beat.

Anyhow, I'm off to bed again. Have a good time tomorrow, Clough!

Hugs, Didi

Thank you for sharing! I agree. I could not live without an animal of some kind as a pet either! Hugs, Craig

well, last night i was up until 3 am and then i had a bunch of night mares and i wish i wouldnt had slept at all.... i have never had a nightmare in my entire life until yesterday.... thats kind strange

The nightmares might be caused by watching horror movies, did you watch any lately

No. I haven't watched any in a long time... but earlier that day I was talking to my boyfriend on the phone and I was joking around about being afraid of someone breaking in and all kinds of stuff and I used to have a really bad fear of everything that happened in that nightmare.

Hi everyone! This is very sad what I am about to say... I have never thought about doing heroin before. However I have tried marijuana but don't even do that now. I know that heroin is a lot more dangerous and I've heard of many dying from it. Anyway, a guy came to our school and talked to us about his 20 year old daughter dying from heroin. He had pictures and the call he made to 911 and you could hear him giving her cpr. He gave us great detail and everything that happened. Well, that was today and this last week or so... something about me had just change and I feel like it wouldn't matter if I died. I would just kill myself but because of my boyfriend I cant. Its good that I think before actually killing myself. I think do I really want to do this? Is it worth it? Is their anyone or anything worth living for? And he's all I have. And I'm not sure he does. If he doesn't then I just want to die. And anyway, after hearing that story that was supposed to scare us away from heroin, it made me want to do it. But because I know my boyfriend would be mad, I won't do it. I guess I was just so interested in the story... it was sad, but I felt like they were telling it about me for some reason.. and another thing... he showed us the notes she left and everything before she died and told us everything about that day... I wish I could have recorded it. I mean it put a perfect image in your head of everything that happened. And I feel like a horrible person to my boyfriend for even thinking about doing it. I picture it like for him, if he loves me and tells me over and over not to do that, its drugs or him and I just believe he doesn't care which is why I feel like it shouldn't matter what I do, even though he does care, he shouldn't have to deal with me being like that. And even if I did die, I feel guilty just thinking about what all he might would go through if he cares... but honestly I don't know if he does

Has anyone read this? Does anyone care? That's making me want to do those things more. Your all right I guess. I do love the drama. I don't want to but I do.

Don't do anything stupid.

Does it matter that I tell you that?

As long as I have him I won't. Because then I would lose him or if I didn't lose him he would start doing that stuff too and I don't want him doing it. And honestly, I don't know if he really cares or not. Its like he does but I'm just worried he doesn't and if he doesn't then why should it matter? But if he does then I don't want to do anything to make him worry about me.

Now wait a darn minute! Held me understand what you said. Keep it simple, please.


As long as i have him i won't. Because then i would lose him
if i didnt lose him he would start doing that stuff too
idk if he really cares or not
Its like he does
im just worried he doesnt
if he doesnt then why should it matter?
But if he does then i dont wanna do anything to make him worry about me.

This?

As long as he loves me, I won't do drugs.
If I do drugs, I would lose him.
If I do drugs and didn't lose him, he would start doing drugs too.
I don't want him to start doing drugs.
I don't care if he cares.
I don't care if he doesn't care.
It seems like he cares, but I'm worried he doesn't care.
If he doesn't care, then why should it matter?
If he does care, I don't want to do anything to make him me.

Has anyone read this? Does anyone care? Thats making me want to do those things more. Your all right i guess. I do love the drama. I don't want to but i do.
Yes... and this is where your strength comes in and you do what is right and not what is wrong... Sweet, you areheading towards a very big train wreck... I have read it all and I care! Strength... whats in you sweet... I have seen it in you bring it back out!

What do you mean?
He would get really mad and want to break up if I did anything like that, so it's that or him. If he did decide to stay and not break up then he would get into all that stuff too. I mean we already agreed on that... if one of us does it, we both do it. Our "rule" is we can only do that stuff together. But we never have.
Anyway, I don't know if he cares. I think he does, but how do I really know? I'm worried that he doesn't. If he does love me, then I don't want to do any of that stuff because I don't want him to worry about me. But I think before I do things and I ask myself... is it worth it? Will anyone care? Is it worth dying for? Is their anything or anyone I should live for, so that I won't do this? And other stuff like that... and all I have is him. So that's why I don't do anything. If I didn't have him I guess I would do it. So, if he doesn't even care about me, I would do it too. Maybe I would just to see if he cares about me when I end up dying from it.

You could be like Ophelia floating down the river with flowers in her hair.


There's rosemary, that's for remembrance.
Pray you, love remember.
And there is pansies, that's for thoughts.
There's fennel for you, and
columbines. There's rue for you,
and here's some for me. We may call it
herb of grace o' Sundays.
O, you must wear your rue with a
difference! There's a daisy. I
would give you some violets, but they
wither'd all when my father
died. They say he made a good end.
And of all Christian souls, I pray God.
God b' wi', you.

~ Ophelia
Hamlet Prince of Denmark
Act IV Scene V

What?

Okay, I've kept quiet hoping you would ask me to continue helping and quite content to sit back and let you figure out things yourself. You were doing well, but then started your attention seeking behaviour again. Too bad, because you were actually doing some great self-talk.

You ask, "Is there anything or anyone I should live for, so that I won't do this?"

The answer is: YES!! It is NOT him... but, do you know who that is?? It is you. Let me tell you, I am very angry with you right now. You can NEVER live for someone else or someone else's feelings. You do not do what will make someone else happy... you do what will make YOU happy!

So, will drugs make you happy? No! Drugs are usually taken to hide pain. Only, it doesn't happen that way. Instead the pain increases, builds, becomes all consuming. The very thing that you take drugs for (and that includes any addictive type of behaviour - gambling, sex, alcohol, over-spending & of course drugs) builds as you engage in the addictive behaviour. So, you take/do more, the pain builds more... you increase the addiction, the pain increases... and gradually you just plain die.

I watched my husband die... and fight to live. I had my 32 year old cousin jump off a bridge to relieve his pain. I once counselled a young man who jumped off a bridge in the hopes of killing himself over a girl. He learned several things. He learned he did NOT want to die. (Oooops! Too late, he had already jumped off!) He learned that sometimes you don't die... you might screw up your body or your brain instead and have to live with that the rest of your life. He learned that she didn't care. He learned that attempting suicide did not make her care.

I worked in addiction counselling for many years. I have seen what drugs do to your body before you die. I have seen a 19 year old girl claw herself to death because she locked herself in her apartment in an effort to kick the habit for her new baby. The baby died of starvation. I have looked death in the eye and cried for it. In then end it doesn't matter. All that matters is what YOU do in your life to make yourself and others who will appreciate it feel good.

You do NOT sleep with someone to make them happy. You do not cut yourself because your boyfriend and you have a pact. You do not take drugs to find out if anyone cares. You respect yourself enough to chose a man who respects you enough to NOT sleep with you. You do not make pacts with someone about cutting, suicide, drugs, or anything else like that because in doing so you DEGRADE the love. You do not take drugs or kill yourself to see if someone cares. If they don't, they won't care after your dead, and if they do, you will never know.

I ask you, "Michelle"... one more time... when do you start caring for yourself? When do you start taking responsibility for your own life and seek out people who truly DO care and who respect you so much all they will do is encourage goodness and personal growth from you?

I am one of those people but I get a "yawn" when I try to talk to you from the heart. There have been many people here on many threads that try to help you, are honest and caring. You continue to choose to concentrate on the negative and stressful things. I thought you wanted to grow?

It really does not matter if he likes you or not. It really doesn't matter if he loves you. All that matters is that YOU like you. Do you? If you don't, you will NEVER find love.

Hugs, Didi

Thank you for sharing! I agree. I could not live without an animal of some kind as a pet either! Hugs, Craig

You're welcome, Craig. Just as an aside to my rather lengthy post (which ones aren't?? )... I... ummmmm... well... I just learned, after 8 years, that Franklin... well... Franklin had to renamed to Francis. Sigh... (s)he presented me with 20 eggs the other morning! I did have some the last 2 years, but assumed they were from the injured/rescued Midland Painted turtle that was sharing his/her tank. Apparently not! :)

The eggs were not fertilized, so they were just disposed of, but I have learned a very valuable lesson. When Franklin was about 3 years old I thought that he was performing a mating ritual with the ceramic turtle in the bottom of the aquarium in order to convince it/her? To allow him to court it. Apparently, Franklin/Francis was actually flirting with what she believed was a male turtle to convince him? To court her. I took movies of it, had a few chuckles and forgot it. Now I am red-faced, but more knowledgeable.

;)

Just thought you would enjoy my little 'mistake'.

Hugs, Didi

Didi... you hit it on the button! Love yourself! First... Love yourself!

Okay, I've kept quiet hoping you would ask me to continue helping and quite content to sit back and let you figure out things yourself. You were doing well, but then started your attention seeking behaviour again. Too bad, because you were actually doing some great self-talk.

You ask, "Is there anything or anyone I should live for, so that I won't do this?"

The answer is: YES!!!!!! It is NOT him... but, do you know who that is??? It is you. Let me tell you, I am very angry with you right now. You can NEVER live for someone else or someone else's feelings. You do not do what will make someone else happy... you do what will make YOU happy!

So, will drugs make you happy? No! Drugs are usually taken to hide pain. Only, it doesn't happen that way. Instead the pain increases, builds, becomes all consuming. The very thing that you take drugs for (and that includes any addictive type of behaviour - gambling, sex, alcohol, over-spending & of course drugs) builds as you engage in the addictive behaviour. So, you take/do more, the pain builds more... you increase the addiction, the pain increases... and gradually you just plain die.

I watched my husband die... and fight to live. I had my 32 year old cousin jump off a bridge to relieve his pain. I once counselled a young man who jumped off a bridge in the hopes of killing himself over a girl. He learned several things. He learned he did NOT want to die. (Oooops! Too late, he had already jumped off!) He learned that sometimes you don't die... you might screw up your body or your brain instead and have to live with that the rest of your life. He learned that she didn't care. He learned that attempting suicide did not make her care.

I worked in addiction counselling for many years. I have seen what drugs do to your body before you die. I have seen a 19 year old girl claw herself to death because she locked herself in her apartment in an effort to kick the habit for her new baby. The baby died of starvation. I have looked death in the eye and cried for it. In then end it doesn't matter. All that matters is what YOU do in your life to make yourself and others who will appreciate it feel good.

You do NOT sleep with someone to make them happy. You do not cut yourself because your boyfriend and you have a pact. You do not take drugs to find out if anyone cares. You respect yourself enough to chose a man who respects you enough to NOT sleep with you. You do not make pacts with someone about cutting, suicide, drugs, or anything else like that because in doing so you DEGRADE the love. You do not take drugs or kill yourself to see if someone cares. If they don't, they won't care after your dead, and if they do, you will never know.

I ask you, "Michelle"... one more time... when do you start caring for yourself? When do you start taking responsibility for your own life and seek out people who truly DO care and who respect you so much all they will do is encourage goodness and personal growth from you?

I am one of those people but I get a "yawn" when I try to talk to you from the heart. There have been many people here on many threads that try to help you, are honest and caring. You continue to choose to concentrate on the negative and stressful things. I thought you wanted to grow?

It really does not matter if he likes you or not. It really doesn't matter if he loves you. All that matters is that YOU like you. Do you? If you don't, you will NEVER find love.

Hugs, Didi

Why would I live for me? I don't see the point in living just to die anyway. But right now I'm hoping I don't die for several reasons. 1 of them is because I want to live just to see what happens in my life but I want it to be like I'm dead and looking at what would have happened if I would have lived. If that makes sense. (almost said since) Another thing is that I love him so much that he makes me want to live and also, I went like 24 hours without eating or drinking anything and I'm like really de hydrated. I want to sleep but I cant.

Eat and drink and then sleep sweet... keep yourself healthy... Love yourself... and your own body! Think about you...

I can't sleep. I have a bad headache, I can't breathe, and its like 80 degrees in here. They told us that 90% of headaches are dehydration. My face is like really pale or something.

And another thing... if I do what makes me happy, and what I want and not others... that's not a good thing

If you don't take care of you with eating and drinking properly, with getting enough sleep, with studying in school so you grow up to become a productive person who has a job she likes, then you don't love you.

i can't sleep. I have a bad headache, i can't breathe, and its like 80 degrees in here. they told us that 90% of headaches are dehydration. My face is like really pale or something.

and another thing... if i do what makes me happy, and what i want and not others... thats not a good thing

Why can't you sleep?
Why do you have a headache?
Why can't you breathe?
Why is it so hot in there? Open a window and let the breezes in.
Drink water.

Yes, you must first do what makes you happy and are good for your soul. What would make you happy?

You're welcome, Craig. Just as an aside to my rather lengthy post (which ones aren't???)... I... ummmmm... well..... I just learned, after 8 years, that Franklin... well... Franklin had to renamed to Francis. Sigh... (s)he presented me with 20 eggs the other morning! I did have some the last 2 years, but assumed they were from the injured/rescued Midland Painted turtle that was sharing his/her tank. Apparently not! :)

The eggs were not fertilized, so they were just disposed of, but I have learned a very valuable lesson. When Franklin was about 3 years old I thought that he was performing a mating ritual with the ceramic turtle in the bottom of the aquarium in order to convince it/her? to allow him to court it. Apparently, Franklin/Francis was actually flirting with what she believed was a male turtle to convince him? to court her. I took movies of it, had a few chuckles and forgot it. Now I am red-faced, but more knowledgeable.

;)

Just thought you would enjoy my little 'mistake'.

Hugs, Didi

Thank you for sharing the above, Didi! Also, for sharing about how sex changes are possible in animals too! :D

I just don't know how you manage to take care of everything with all of the animals that you have to care for, yourself, and everything else you have to do!

If you don't take care of you with eating and drinking properly, with getting enough sleep, with studying in school so you grow up to become a productive person who has a job she likes, then you don't love you.
Everyday I go to sleep for a few hours, wake up late for school, don't have time for breakfast or like breakfast food and it will make me want to throw up in my 1st hour if I eat anything because I'm just like that... I won't eat when people are around so I don't go to lunch. And usually I sleep a few hours after school. But before I get those few hours of sleep I usually eat and drink something. But today I went straight to sleep and slept until after 8 pm. And I only woke up then because my mom came in my room to check on me

Why can't you sleep?
Why do you have a headache?
Why can't you breathe?
Why is it so hot in there? Open a window and let the breezes in.
Drink water.

Yes, you must first do what makes you happy and are good for your soul. What would make you happy?
I have a fan on and my windows happen. I mean open. I have been drinking plenty of water. So much I'm about to throw up. And I can't sleep because I feel like I'm sufficating. This happens a lot though. Usually about this time of the year.
What would make me happy would be to know weather he cares or not and not wonder about it, and to be able to see him more, my dad to give me my money back, and to get my license and go get an iPod soon because every time I went they were always sold out and with christmas in a few months it will be worse. But I'm, tired of my life just being music. In my room all day listening to music. I don't want anything to do with it. I'm sick of it. But I can't help it. I don't have much.

You need a better schedule.

Why won't you eat when people are around?

I just won't do it. I don't know. Theirs a lot I won't do when people are around and I haven't ate at school in about 6 years

What will happen if you eat when people are around? Why did you stop?

I just wont do it. idk. theirs alot i wont do when people are around and i havent ate at school in about 6 years

I know that this has nothing to do with your post. But what you said reminded me that believe-it-or-not, I never once used my locker the entire time that I was in high school!

What will happen if you eat when people are around? Why did you stop?
I don't know. That's not what's important

What purpose does it serve for you to not sleep, not eat, be late for school, etc? Why don't you make yourself stay up when you get home from school, do your homework, eat supper, talk to your mom, find something pleasurable to do in the evenings (besides telephone, computer, tv), go to bed around 10 or 10:30 pm and get up the next morning in time for school? Obviously, it won't happen overnight, but if you are dedicated to it, and follow the same basic routine every night for a month, you WILL eat, sleep, drink, perform better at school, etc. like most teens your age.

What is the payoff for NOT doing it?

Hugs, Didi

Please start a new thread, Clough. We will deal with you in that one. :D

idk. thats not whats important

Actually, it IS important. If you figure that out, you may gain insight that you can use to start making your life better.

Love, Didi

Please start a new thread, Clough. We will deal with you in that one. :D

HAHAHAHAHAHA!! Touché!!

Hugs, Didi

What purpose does it serve for you to not sleep, not eat, be late for school, etc? Why don't you make yourself stay up when you get home from school, do your homework, eat supper, talk to your mom, find something pleasurable to do in the evenings (besides telephone, computer, tv), go to bed around 10 or 10:30 pm and get up the next morning in time for school? Obviously, it won't happen overnight, but if you are dedicated to it, and follow the same basic routine every night for a month, you WILL eat, sleep, drink, perform better at school, etc. like most teens your age.

What is the payoff for NOT doing it?

Hugs, Didi
I have the thought in my head to answer that, but my headaches getting the best of me and I will have to answer that tomorrow. Promise. I feel like I'm going to throw up though and I think I'm just going to go.

Hmmm, Didi. That may be so important that it has something to do with Michelle loving herself.

Yes, headaches really get fierce when one has to concentrate on something and can't just flip it over her shoulder.

why would i live for me? I dont see the point in living just to die anyways.

Don't live to die!! Live to LIVE!!


But right now i'm hoping i dont die for several reasons. 1 of them is because i want to live just to see what happens in my life

You already know what happens in your life. Life is what YOU make it. Nothing more, nothing less.


Another thing is that i love him so much that he makes me want to live

Actually, if you loved him you would want to be the best person you can be for him. You would not speak of killing yourself. You would eat properly. You would find things to fill your life and make you happy BESIDES him. You would be more positive. You would trust him and believe in him. You would not talk of taking drugs. You would get an education. You would look after yourself by getting the appropriate amount of sleep. You would be finding a way to make YOUR life fulfilling and satisfying so you didn't feed off him. You would have friends.


... and also, i went like 24 hours without eating or drinking anything and i'm like really de hydrated. I want to sleep but i cant.

So?? Go and get something to eat and drink then get to sleep! What purpose does it serve?? Who's attention is it that you are REALLY trying to get here?

Hugs, Didi

i have the thought in my head to answer that, but my headaches getting the best of me and i will have to answer that tomorrow. promise. i feel like im going to throw up though and i think im just gonna go.

Okay, Michelle... thank you. I think that going to bed is the best thing that you can do right now. Although, I would get a drink and a snack first. :) Seeing as your headache is so bad I think we should all let you be tonight. You have had to do a lot of deep thinking.

Good night, sweetie.

Hugs, Didi

Bingo!


Originally Posted by grammadidi
Actually, if you loved him you would want to be the best person you can be for him. You would not speak of killing yourself. You would eat properly. You would find things to fill your life and make you happy BESIDES him. You would be more positive. You would trust him and believe in him. You would not talk of taking drugs. You would get an education. You would look after yourself by getting the appropriate amount of sleep. You would be finding a way to make YOUR life fulfilling and satisfying so you didn't feed off him. You would have friends.

Yes, headaches really get fierce when one has to concentrate on something and can't just flip it over her shoulder.

Or when someone hasn't eaten or hydrated themselves enough nor had a proper nights sleep in ages! :D

I think she's actually done well tonight, don't you? Perhaps she is starting to understand a bit??

Hugs, Didi

It's all very overwhelming. Perhaps now tackle one thing at a time. Maybe we should move in with her in order to keep an eye on her... Clough can bring his cast iron frying pan (on another thread).

Please start a new thread, Clough. We will deal with you in that one. :D

You

Don't

Like

Me

Anymore!

:( :( :(

I SAID you could bring your cast iron frying pan.

And I got a response from Didi.

I SAID you could bring your cast iron frying pan.
:eek: But ONLY if he seasons it properly! ;)