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Beenkie
Aug 10, 2005, 06:49 AM
Me and my ex travis broke up on July 8th and I've been single ever since... I feel like I'm moving on with my life.. but I care about him but not as much as he loves me.. he cries hisself to sleep for weeks when we break up.. I don't... I just try to move on... He's 15.. I'm 12.. almost thirteen.. My parents know our age difference.. and they met him (they like him.. ) we've been friends ever since we broke up.. and we went out 3 times.. but we still have feelings for ea other but I've been going through a lot.. And, I told him I am and he understands.. my best friend's leaving(moved and to different school) But, like every night I'm crying over my best friend.. and my best friend loved me a lot more than Travis does... and, my worst fear is him telling me he doesn't love me anymore.. n he said that to me last night... and it upset me so badly. He said he loves me like a sister.. but, I'm crazy over him..

Me and my best friend went out once.. and he was so pissed when we broke up... he didn't act the same around me or anything.. he began to hurt my feelings.. n then I found out that he was upset and mad because we broke up... and I began to realize I felt for him deeply on his birthday... I cried falling to my knees in school and throwing up because I missed him and that he loved me.. but it was weird to never recognize that.

What should I do?? I don't know who and what I should go after or just stay locked up in solitude...

fredg
Aug 11, 2005, 06:55 AM
Hi,
Believe it or not, you will have many more issues like this during the next few years!
It's hard to accept that some like each other, and then it stops!
Try making some new friends, and keep saying to yourself that you are important, great person, good outlook on life, and someone else would be very, very lucky to have you.
Meet new people, and soon this will be part of your past. Try not to dwell on the past, and move on.
Best wishes, and good luck to you,
fredg