I seem to have been alone for ever. I haven't had a girlfriend in years with one acception last month I went out with this girl for a week treated her really well and within a week I got dumped last night she was throwing herself at my friend and making a right whore out of herself in the process I want to kill her and everyone around or just die myself. Every girl I have even dared to show a slight interest in always wants one for my friend they all say oh you'll find some one translation to me means as long as it isn't me I am beginning to resent women completely I hate then they are all such hypocrites and es. I feel I have no place in this world and am contemplating suicide because I ahte this shelf

Having a girlfriend isn't always that great. You should try to get involved in community activities. You will find that special someone one day. It takes time. However if you don't have respect and self esteem for yourself no one will give it to you either.
Not all women are hypocrites. Love and dating is an emotional roller coaster even when you find the "one".

Try just getting to know people in general without a romantic attachment. It is very hard. I used to think the only "good" relationship would be a romantic one. Forget about just getting to know people in general. I mean, what would be the point of that? What a waste! But having contacts that are just regular without romance is necessary for well rounded feeling. If you feel depressed, seek medical help with a mental health professional. And if you don't like that professional, keep shopping around. If money is a problem, find a place that offers free help. You need to see someone who specializes in mental health. I am suffering like you because I am not happy with the relationships around me. I feel like a loser too. I am seeing a therapist and hope it helps. Good luck. Ps I am also on medication for depression

Not all of us are like that you know. And Okay, maybe she just used you. Did you really love her, like with all your heart, because if you didn't, then you shouldn't be giving her the time in your day to hate her. She's gone, she's obviously not the one for you. And it's olay to be down, but pick yourself back up, there are MILLONS/BILLIONS of girls out there! You'll find her.

,Violet.