I'm 17 and I've been a cutter since I was about 12... this year I started taking sleeping pills to kill myself nothing works...
What did your therapist say about your cutting?
What methods have they told you to do to help stop this behaviour?
I have my opinions on the pills but I will keep them to myself...
I hate my life I hate myself I want to die so bad... I feel alone... I'm stupid I'm retarded I can't do anything rite...
What are some things you
do like about yourself?
Can you draw? Write poetry or music? Good at doing puzzles? Computer games?
Nobody is comepletely hopeless, even "retarded" people have their talents, it is offensive to them to consider yourself in this category because you think you are 'stupid'
I keep thinking I had enuf I've bin tortured enuf... imy mom is around bt not around me... my dad doesn't even claim me I don't have 1 single friend. I swear I cry myself 2 sleep...
This... to me... sounds like a typical whinging teenager...
The world hates you, you hate the world blah blah balh.
What have YOU done to FIX the problem?
Nothing I bet?
Join a sporting club, or hobby group, even volunteering... I know it's not exactly most peoples taste but when I was younger I used to go to dog shows with my parents... there were lots of other kids my age that went as well and I made some new friends... you can do the same with any club, you just have to actually TRY.
I will not quote the rest as honestly it is incoherant dribble...
You do not truly want to kill yourself, I can tell you that as a FACT. There are many indicators from your post alone.
What you do need to do is get help...
Whether it be preofessional or self help you need to do something rather than sitting around feeling sorry for yourself.
Try volunteering at a homeless shelter... that usually puts things into perspective for people... you realise how LUCKY you are to even have parents and a home and trust me, your life will seem like heaven compared to a lot of people out there.
You could volunteer at somewhere like an animal shelter, there are lots of caring, great people to meet and befriend...
Sporting groups are fun.. you can play a game and work on your team skills... you are FORCED to work as a team and therefore you begin to learn how to work well with others.