Will he ever want to?

Also.... He like never wants to show that he cares much. Like he's afraid to hold hands and stuff

Its so hard for me to understand my boyfriend. I mean when he jokes, I don't know if he's joking or not. I don't even know if he loves me or not. And when I think about it and I look around and see how other guys are like my brother for example, it like they are the same way. I just have no idea how they REALLY feel about things and its like they hide it so good. But my friends who are all girls, or other females I can always sense if they don't really like me or whatever. I just wish I could tell about my boyfriend. But I can't, why is it like this?

My boyfriend almost never really shows it but he says its because of how he was raised. Even his friends call him a "cold hearted" person. Every now and then he shows it but its like he's afraid and I feel sorry for him and like no ones ever cared about him and that kind of seems true.... But he doesn't want me to care about him either. I'm so confused.... He says he tries to love me but he loves NO ONE. Is their anything I can do for him? Other times he says that he DOES love me

You can be there for him and be a friend. His problem expressing how he feels is really bothering you though. He will have to work it out for himself. He has to want to! You can not fix it for him. If it is hurting you, tell him. Breaking up for while may make things clearer for both of you.

He is playing a guy game it goes... "I am so broken by life,I can not be counted on to give attention, affection, consideration to anyone else"
Rule#1 it is his game, he is the one getting the negative attention
Rule#2 he can at any time be all broken again
Rule#3 drinking and or drugs can be a big part of the game
Have fun with this one, do not expect a lot, you will not be disappointed

Well he quit drinking and drugs for me

At 18 amd upi 16 normally it is not time to start talking about marrrigae, but dating and enjoying being together. In 3 or 4r years would be when you start talking marriage after you are out of school, he is out of college or at lest tech school and working on good job.

On the holding hands, some people show things more than others, due ot culture, you need to discuss that with him

When I talk to him about any of this he gets mad and he wond ever say why

Beth give this relationship some time, you are both very young. You should never settle for less respect, attention and affection than a normal dating relationship though. He may just not know what to say, he needs to make the effort in any case. You don't need to be treated shabbily by a boyfriend.