[skyman]

Can anyone help me PLEASE? I am driven to commit this to myself knowing full well that I will hurt the ones I love the most but I just can't help it. Please help me!

[J_9]

Tell me why you feel the need to do this.

[ordinaryguy]

It's not only the ones YOU love who will be hurt, it's also those who love YOU, even if you don't love them. If there are such people in your life, please, have some compassion and don't do this. Whatever burden you're being borne down by, get help with it. Call 1-800-784-2433. Do it now.

[fix-what-you-broke]

I don't want to go into too much detail, for personal reasons, and also I do not know how far I am allowed to go here, I want you to seriously think about this before you make your decision.
I have been where you are now, I felt the same, I did the cutting thing until I knew myself that it wasn't getting me anywhere with my problems,it made things worse. I didn't stop because I had no reason to do so, and at the time I thought it was helping me with the problems.
Explaining to my teachers at school how I had the scars down my arms was not a great day for me, neither was explaining to my boss when I left school and got a new job.people notice.you didn't mention cutting in your post, but that's how it started for me.
A mixture of family problems,abuse,feeling useless,undeserving of happiness did it for me, I didn't want to live either.
I remember going to a country park one day. I took two boxes of pills, then slashed my wrists,I was found slumped on the side of the road in the pouring rain bye some stranger who called an ambulance.
I got my stomach pumped, and they sorted out my arms,then freed me to go back to my misery.
What I am saying is this, I almost died that day, and you know what? Looking back, I would never have seen my son smile and tell me he loved me,I would never have found my partner, I would never have learned about all the wonderful things this life has to offer.
I'm 26 years old, started cutting when I was 11, and you know what? I only stopped when my man came home one day from work to see me doing it to myself.it broke his heart, he hated it and he was scared that he was going to loose me, he begged me to stop, he told me if I felt that way ever again to talk to him instead of doing that.
It was so hard opening up to him,telling him that I cut myself to try and get rid of the pain I was feeling, after I saw how much I had hurt him I stopped, and I haven't done it since.
And I am 99 per cent positive I won't do it again, I'm finally passed it, its all about hurdles, and getting over them all one at a time.
I know I am fortunate to have this guy in my life, without him I probably would be dead in the street somewhere.
Please just reaqch out to someone, anyone, parent, teacher,family,friend,counselor,complete stranger if that's what it takes... take control of your life whilst you can,and be the best person you can be, Don't end up like me...

[Nika567]

I know exactlly how you feel. I've been depressed for a long time now. I suggest getting help. Maybe seeing a psychologist. You should find someone to talk too that you trust and know won't judge you. It's hard. But hold on. Nobody and nothing is worth taking your life over.

[rockerchick_682]

I think that at some point everyone wants to die in their life. Unless you're some lucky bastard that's never been hurt, but really I suggest going to a good therapist. It might take you a while to find one that you like, but really it's worth it. But if you can't do that focus on the love you have in your life. Whenever I'm feeling down I think about everything I have left to live through, everything I have left to experience, and no matter how impossible it might seem, I know that I'll find that perfect guy that wants me and no one else. You have so much left to do. Find something you truly enjoy. There are so many places to see and so many new people to meet.

[Mom of 2]

The fact that you posted on this site shows all of us that you are asking for help and that you REALLY DON'T want to do this. You need something more than this site, though. You need to get professional help. If you get on medication, you also need to find a therapist or psychiatrist to talk to. If you think about it, there are people that care about you. If nothing else, the fact that people took the time to respond to your post should give you an indication that there are good, caring and kind people out in the world. PLEASE. Think about this. It could just be a chemical imbalance, something that is out of your control. Please see a doctor about this.

[mishelly3]

Ask for help? There's thousdands of people that do this for a profession call them call someone and talk, like everyone has said we all go through so pretty bad times in live and that why we have people to talk to so we can cope... So get some help so you can be the strong intellegent person you were born tp be...

Good luckkkk

[SweetDee]

Committing suicide is something that a lot of people who won't/can't deal w/ their problems/life really feel compelled to want to do.. you are not alone.

The problem w/ suicide is that there are no do over's in this life... and as time goes on and you find the days pass and turn into years, you suddenly wake up and realize that you don't feel suicidal anymore. It just happens, LIKE THAT. One day... BOOM! The feeling to want to leave this world leaves...

You can't risk killing yourself because this feeling won't last. You can't have a "do over"... once you're gone, YOU'RE GONE!

I feel that you've been given some really good advice on how to help yourself... short of what you've already read, try walking straight into a police station and tell them that you're suicidal... or walk into a hospital...

YOU NEED SOMEONE TO HELP PROTECT YOU FROM YOURSELF right now.

If you can't do it for YOU then get someone to do it for you... and do it for THEM.

You are a person who's made attachements in your life... There are people who love you. You will ROYALLY mess them up, dude. Help yourself right now FOR THEM, if for no other reason.

You have to trust that this will pass. It always ALWAYS does. And trust me, when it doesn't pass... you GET MEDS for it. You won't be the only person I know that needs to be on meds. Medication is a beautiful thing when used properly. If that's what you need... then that's what will make you feel like living... HEY WHATEVER WORKS dude.

Just get your butt over to some kind of facility and TELL THEM you're on you last straw...

People care. Sometimes they just need to made aware that there is a problem...

[aussieangel]

Trust me there is light at the end of the Tunnel, Suicide is a permanent solution to a TEMPORY problem.
Sending you lots of love, sometimes you feel like this when yourlife is about to make a dramatic change, it feels like the death of a part of your life, but there is something great out there for you.
Love and light

[Violet31]

Skyman,

I think we have all been where you are and had these thoughts for awhile.

It´s when they turn into obsessive thoughts and our control is slipping, we really need help.

If you are severely depressed, you can get help and believe me, you can live a full and happy life. The black clouds will go away.

I think you know you need help since you posted here.

Please, tell us why you want to do this so we can help you.

Best wishes to you,
Violet

[dontknownuthin]

First of all, I am sorry for the pain you are feeling and whatever circumstances make you feel so desperate. I want to suggest that you get some help - you may need some antidepressants and believe me, they can make a huge difference. They may not solve your problems, but they make it so that you can bear them and move forward until they resolve, you know?

We all go through times that are truly crappy and feel endlessly so. And some human pain is so unimaginable, we simply aren't equipped to deal with it. But know that it's the pain you are going through now that will inform the meaning of your life moving forward. It will make you compassionate, and more emotionally intelligent, and more important and helpful to the people around you. Even in the depths of despair, you are growing in some ways.

My Dad once told me when I was feeling similar to you that there is no problem in the world without a solution, and often the solution is time. Money issues resolve. Even losing a loved one - a bad breakup, a hurtful divorce or a death - can be so devastating, but then something comes along to fill your heart again when you are ready.

Sometimes people go through so much, it actually can have an impact on how their brain works on a chemical level and put you into a depression you cannot get out of independently. That's why it can be helpful to see someone and get on some antidepressants, and then just hang in there and give them some time to work. Believe me - it can be night and day. You may not have all the answers, but you'll be able to get off the sofa, and bear to see another day.

For me, out of a terrible depression came an answer for me - a new path that I've discovered to change my career and my financial situation, and that's spawned all these other things that are now really fun and cool in my life. And I see my son and wonder, how could I ever have questioned my value in this world. It is the same when I see my parents, or friends. These people value me, and when I was depressed and desperately unhappy, I lost trust in them all to kmow a good thing when they see it - in me, specifically.

I hope that helps you and that you will take all the best wishes and care that's offered you here, and take the next step to take care of yourself and get what you need to feel more hopeful. Life is beautiful, but not all the time... you have to be patient and sometimes, you have to fight very hard for your happiness.

[Starbucks21]

Sky,
I think you need to de-stress yourself a bit.

If you want to solve this you may want to consider a support group or maybe someone like a consular to talk out the reasons you want to do this.

There is always something to solve your problems but suicide isn't it.