I have noticed that i always have a problem.
Im either ill.
Upset.
in pain.
or just plain complaining about something!
1) I think i have illnesses, but i don’t, and i know it.
It makes me sad to think im not ill, how stupid do i have to be to want an illness?!
2) My group of friends is falling apart!
B*ing, depression, smoking...tearing us apart!
3) A certain friend gets on my wick!
She's clingy and ruining my chances of new friends and relationships. (and she has a serious BO problem)
4) I am attention seeking.
i know for a fact that i am defiantly an attention seeker, i don’t know why since i hate people noticing me...im contradicting myself!
I suppose i don’t get enough "good" attention from my family, the only person i talk to for more than 5 seconds is my younger brother, now realising this, i am very, and deeply upset.
I am afraid of my dad and my mam thinks im someone im not, so if i act my usual self, she won't listen or connect...
And i have a small group of friends and i know them inside out, and since its a small group of the rejections (people other people don’t want to be friends with) i don't meet any new people.
Should i seek counselling or something? I’m generally a happy person, but that’s because i don’t think of reality, and when i do, i want to cry.
(After this post I’m not coming on again for a week to try and sort my priorities out)