i hate life...my 7 year old little brother has a tumor in his brain stem and will probably die...my 12 year old little brother is abused by my real mom...and hes a jerk to me! my dad is always mad...he has anger management issues...if he gets mad he will hit me..my step mom is only 15 years older than me! and shes a royal !!! my 15 year old sister trys to control everything i do! shes like a MAJOR christian...and if i cuss she gets PISSED! and my little 10 year old sister pretty much runs my life...i have to do what she says because ill get in trouble for saying anything mean to her...she is my step moms child! and my other little sister who is 4 is the biggest brat you will ever meet in your life! and my 2 best friends Erinn and Christie are the only people i trust...at times i dont even trust Christie....shes a backstabber and she likes to bail on me and erinn! me and erinn are planning to run away when we turn 17 and go live in North Carolina where she used to live...we live in Texas right now...and there are like 600 people in my town..and all the guys are jerks! everyone of them is a jerk....there are NO nice guys in my class.. there were 4 michael keena tj and justin...my best guy friends but they all moved........my life is just not going to good...and at times i just want to die! the only thing that makes me wanna live is knowing that erinn will always be there for me! she is my bestest friend ever...and she might be moving.....im really sad about that! i mean who am i gonna get drunk with if she moves!?!?! anyways.....i just really hate my life...and i need someone to talk to...preferably someone my age!!!!!





ps. i REALLY want a boyfriend but all the guys are jerks to me! what do i do about that???

hottJen

Girl, I know I can't totally relate........but a am a teen-actually almost 14. Anyway, I know you are going through a tough time right now and it sucks! I am sorry 4 ya, but please don't let yourself go. You are more than that. Please don't drink, I know it sounds cool but the effects are rough. I don't wanna sound like a lil' guidance councelor but it's just may advice okay. As for your dad hitting you-He better have a good reason, and even if he does that's abuse and totally wrong. Please listen to me. Don't run away or do these dangerous things. And 4 ur friends-Try to be social and keep you bffs. All friends fight. Don't lose them. I hope things turn out better. Please take care, stay safe, and remember tough it out........Things should get better.

libaan

so silly

libaan

so silly