Originally Posted by Jordan Christin
because he really wanted to see what was on the phone and plus we still like each other very much and it's just hard not to have each other.
Its always hard to do the right things because the wrong things always are more attractive and appealing.Giving in to this boy is what you want to do more than anything,so it doesn't matter on what flimsy terms you are getting back or whether its right for you or good for you to get back,you will still do it.
Your type of personality looks cut out to be the kind that will only learn her lessons after getting hurt and burnt.You don't have it in you to protect yourself from hurt,by not giving in,by staying away,by guarding yourself from the things or people that are bad for you,even when you sense that things are not right.Its like you are inviting the whole wide world out there to "COME HURT ME" just cos you have built up an imaginary picture of someone in your mind.
All of us posting to you on this forum feel this boy's playing with you and treating you shamefully but your mind sees only the picture you have built of him.So no matter what we say,I think you will just do what you want,which is continue playing second fiddle to him and always feeling hurt and heartbroken at his silly behaviour.You will maybe even find excuses for the hurt you feel from all this and start blaming him for all that when its entirely your decision to go back.
I sound harsh and maybe its because I can see what you can't see--that you are in clear danger of getting badly hurt and you can so easily prevent that even now by doing the one thing that's right and good for you:WALK AWAY with your head held high.But before doing that,make it very clear to the boy that the only reason you are doing that is you don't accept the terms of this relationship and feel you deserve more than he can give,which is why you CHOOSE to walk away.
Learn to stand up for yourself Christin.Learn it hard and well,because end of the day,no one else will do it for U.Some of us here have learnt this lesson at a much later age and stage than you are now,and after quite a bit of hurt and pain.Let us help you believe that life's much much more than this silly boy or any boy for that matter.YOU AS A PERSON,AS A YOUNG WOMAN,HAVE A PURPOSE IN BEING BORN IN TUCSON USA UNLIKE MILLIONS OF OTHERS OUT THERE IN THE DARK AND COLD,HUNGRY,UNCLOTHED AND POOR.SO COUNT YOUR BLESSINGS AND LEARN TO LOVE AND APPRECIATE WHAT YOU HAVE ,WHAT YOU CAN DO ,THE FUN YOU CAN HAVE INSTEAD OF LOSING IT ALL FOR A BOY WHO LOOKS LIKE HE CAN JUST TWIST YOU AROUND HIS FINGER.