i am sick of being so dark! I desperately want to be light skinned again.

KRIS P KRIS · Sep 24, 2009, 05:31 PM

I was born as someone who was light skinned. I started to darken when I was 4-5. I had a good tone then.

When i was 13-14ish. I went to DisneyWorld for a week due to a vacation. Ever since then I became really dark and am referred to being really dark. I am sick of it. I really want to be light skinned again. I am almost not afraid of hydroquine or bio-whatever it's called.

I am 16 now. Darker than I've ever been in my life. For a good part of my life I had a great tone and was lighter than my sis (who isn't dark) but now I am way darker and am the darkest in my house. Lots of people said I am really dark. Friends, family a bit, people. i am so sick of it.

I never was born dark or wanted to be dark so why the am I so dark.

I want something that really works. My big goal is to become light skinned again. If I can't achieve that at least become a few shades lighter. I can't stand to look at myself in the mirror every day.

Here are some ref pics of me.
some of the pics have intense lighting but in daylight I am dark and grayish as hell.
This was from 2008.
http://img17.imageshack.us/img17/3743/005pbt.jpg

http://img17.imageshack.us/img17/3743/005pbt.jpg

Here was i Last weekend (i ing hate how i had to shave my head and hair I had from 2008 and now i must grow it out again and go through these ugly phases before my hair looks nice and curly again)
http://img5.imageshack.us/img5/259/1...2533059710.jpg

i hate this pic the most. I am a god damn silhouette.

http://img33.imageshack.us/img33/643...2533060410.jpg

Please answer me. I am so emotional and sad I am on the verge of breaking down.
I have such a low self esteem about myself. i don't want any other advice except for something that will work and will either make my skin light skinned again or make me several shades lighter.

i am sick of being so dark! I desperately want to be light skinned again.

Golden_Girl · Oct 28, 2009, 09:27 PM

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Originally Posted by Itss A New Day

I read The Bluest Eye in high school. That story was so sad and I could really relate to the girl in the book (I forget her name it's been so long). This story is a mirror of the hate that many of us have experienced on this thread. A good read, but a sad book.

Yeah, I remember now. The girl's name was Pecola Breedlove, It's been years since I last read it. But am interested in checking it out at the library soon, I remember after reading it I wondered that if more ppl read it, it should have been enough to stop colorism within the communities and how it can have major effects even on a child. I was being optimistic then.

I was wondering too if Kris has even been keeping up with this thread or tried anything new. Hopefully he will not use anything dangerous. I do believe their are good mostly natural lightening products out that can effectively lighten. And Eggo your so right, him becoming darker does not mean he has to go to the doctor for treatment as if it is some internal disease, some people who tend to believe this are very supersticious.

EggoMini · Oct 28, 2009, 09:38 PM

What I was saying though is that he should go for advice and to make sure that it isn't internal..since it was a change from lighter to darker.

Sometimes kidney and liver problems can change a person color. Also meds...I had surgery in my 20s and turned very dark for about 2-3 months. I went into the hospital brown and left darker..it continued for a month then leveled off and lightened in the 3rd month.

Silly me I never asked my dr. why. ...I think on some level I associated this with hospitals because my grandmother and dad darkened after surgery.

My guess is that it's simply permatan for Kris but I'd feel silly & guilty telling him to buy creams and sunscreen etc. while it was actually, G-d forbid, something internal.

Golden_Girl · Oct 28, 2009, 09:44 PM

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Originally Posted by EggoMini

What I was saying though is that he should go for advice and to make sure that it isn't internal..since it was a change from lighter to darker.

Sometimes kidney and liver problems can change a person color. Also meds...I had surgery in my 20s and turned very dark for about 2-3 months. I went into the hospital brown and left darker..it continued for a month then leveled off and lightened in the 3rd month.

Silly me I never asked my dr. why. ...I think on some level I associated this with hospitals because my grandmother and dad darkened after surgery.

My guess is that it's simply permatan for Kris but I'd feel silly & guilty telling him to buy creams and sunscreen etc. while it was actually, G-d forbid, something internal.

oh ok, i see. yo think it could be internal at his age?

EggoMini · Oct 28, 2009, 10:34 PM

My SpideySense says it's probably simply the sun exposure...I've been close to his color a few times BUT I'm not a doctor so I just don't know. I'm trying to err on the side of safety.

Golden_Girl · Oct 28, 2009, 10:58 PM

idk, that's what I was wondering, but it's a waste of time and waste of prouduct. steroids should be for medical use, and if ppl are selling this on beauty sites then it's just another item that should be banned.