[Ulysses]

Hi, all
After over a months since her last "Let's see" followed by nothing of a contact from her, I finally decided to make my move. I packed her stuff, and it was sent to her last Sunday. I dropped her a letter today, basically saying I love her but I can't linger on like this, that she can't play my feelings any more, and that she's a wonderful person and wished her happiness.

I got her return mail then. It says "you've sent me everything. if you don't want anything to remind you of me than it's ok. I haven't played with your feelings, sorry you don't understand that. But I have changed. I know (!!!! - my punct) you gonna be alright. everything is for better. And this time alone made me feel much better."

So it's over. I only regret she's leaving with no guilt at all about her playing with me. She is leaving with an idea that what she's done is completely OK. Well, I feel... nothing. Maybe my solitude for the last 4 months made its work. Maybe it has not hit me yet. I don't know.
I only hope that the warmth of my hands and heart will find their way to another heart who will reciprocate. A bitter ironic feeling. The end of my story.
OK I'm just venting. Thanks for listening.

[iAMfromHuntersBar]

Good for you mate, stay positive, take some time for yourself and then dive back in when you feel ready!

Good luck!

[talaniman]

It took a lot and I'm glad you made a decision you can live with. Good luck and keep coming back from time to time.

[corrie]

I did the same thing yesterday funnily enough after ending things with a guy 4 motnhs ago also. I rang and told him that I was so angry and hurt by what he did and he was very sorry because he is guilty also. I had to complete this cycle of this event and feel somewhat good but yet down about it as there was no going back. Yes it is a couageous thing to do and good thing in the end. I know what's it's like and I wish you well.

[manimuth]

Wow. Thank you for sharing!
You know, may be you are numb and may be it hasn't hit yet. So, hold on and ride it through. Don't be afraid to feel whatever you are feeling, whether it is sadness, anger, or loss. Just ride them through and feel better.
I commend your brave decision and actions to give yourself the chance to move on. You are on the right path, buddy. Stay strong and good luck, Ulysses. :)