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Being cheated makes me sick
We were in the relationship for four years and I even expected a marriage. I trusted in him so much that I never check his phone or Facebook messages or emails. I gave him all my love but what I got back is just cheating. He had another girl while I am far away for just two months, he never told me even when I came back. That girl knows about my existence and our relationship for long since she and my ex were just friends. I believed in everything he said and that situation last a year until he finally said that we should break up because his parents didn't want him to marry an interpreter who has to travel all the time. Ok, I accepted although it hurts like hell. I stopped all contact to him. But that girl felt like seeing me being killed. She post their pictures on Facebook so that I could see I lost him. My belief was broken, I had to ask him once again the reason why he said goodbye. He still insisted that because of his family not understanding his love, and that the girl, as his friend, just do it so that I can forget him faster. I wanted to believe it because it assured that my pride is not broken. I moved on and met new friends, my life seemed back to normal, just like before I ever met him. But that cruel girl once again hurt me. I've got all their messages now and discovered the truth that I was cheated as a fool for a long time. They have just had a vacation together, and their lovely pictures are everywhere on my friends' wall. I am totally depressed now, feeling like a lonely loser. Now that they are going to get married, and I am here suffer from the pain. I cannot control my mind away from this stuff. The images of our past, her winner smile, his sweet lies and the reality drive me crazy. Now I just wish all the worst happened to them. Is there anything I can do?
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