My boyfriend doesn't talk to me, we played a weird game and it's a mess now. Help me.
First off all, I apologize for possible mistakes. English is my second language but I tried my best anyway.
I'm with my boyfriend for a year and a half and we kind of live together. I mean I usually stay in his place for at least 5-6 days a week and we used to have fun together. We love watching movies, preparing dinner, cuddle to sleep etc. However things have changed a bit, he doesn't seem to care about me anymore and this makes me really anxious. He's got some temporary financial problems which could be solved so I don't think that's the matter. I mean we've been through these kind of challenges before. He's 28 and I'm 26 so we're both adults. He's a writer and known to be a stubborn loner so it relieves me to think he loves me, otherwise he wouldn't bear my company all this time.
I'm sad because when I'm with him, I can't find anything to speak about anymore. It's probably because he criticizes me so much and I accept it all for I respect him to death. I've even begun thinking I'm neither smart nor intelligent enough to be with him. I asked for a way to contact him, it could be the email, Facebook or even writing letters. I wrote a message which tells my desire to be understood but he didn't even reply. So I did this something, I created a fake account. Disguised as a female academician and we began writing each other. He was so impressed with my companion that he even told "me" about that friend of his. Then of course he started to write me how smart and attractive I was and stuff like that. He was thinking that fake person was so brilliant that he started writing a new play based on events and impressions in her letters. I knew it was going too far when I heard him telling a friend of his about that so called scholar lady. I panicked because I didn't want him to promote his play through a lie so I warned him. He got frustrated. I should have seen it coming because it irritates him when I react a female that he's into. Anyway, I left evidences around, I made the song he sent to her my ringtone etc. It was two days ago I found out that he took my smartphone, accessed the account and deleted the whole message log. It was the end of the game. I didn't do this to steal information from him, I hope you understand. I don't even care about proving how smart I am with a deceit. All I wanted was a way to be in contact with him again. It hurts when your loved one acts like you're not worth speaking to. It was also breaking my heart to see his passionate, intellectually satisfying messages anytime I logged into that fake account while there was nothing in my own page. It may sound funny but I guess I miss that "friendship" now.
He's acting weird. He just dropped by to my place to take his key. Didn't kiss me, I kissed him on cheek and he was reluctant. I asked him in for a cup of coffee. It was important because you know we're always in his house and I just wanted to host him for 15 minutes. He didn't even talk to me. I'm sad.
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