I am sorry about your loss of this person. What you describe is common--immediately after a death. But 12 years? That's not something that happens every day. The bond between you must have been unusually strong. Was his death in the car wreck very sudden? I mean, he did not live for a while afterward, and become conscious, so that he could understand what had happened to him? Perhaps his knowing (and accepting) that he has passed on is part of the issue.
There is no simple, single interpretation of a dream. As I have mentioned in other posts about dreaming, the first step may be to ask whether to look at the dream from a psychological standpoint (where everything that is happening is within yourself, and your loved one in your dreams represents a part of you), or a paranormal (I would use the term "shamanic") approach, that you are experiencing something real and external.
From what you describe, it sounds like you feel this is real, that it is genuinely him coming to contact you. My instinct is the same. I would look at this more in terms of spirit and soul than in terms of psychology.
Apart from these dreams of your love, how talented of a dreamer are you generally? Do you have vivid dreams? Recall your dreams well? Do you have lucid dreams? If you are good at dreaming, perhaps that is how you are slipping into his level of reality. The universe is built with boundaries between the worlds. Most folks can't cross those accidentally. But some of us have the knack of doing that. So learning how to dream more effectively may help you in communicating with him and helping him get clear.
Many cultures around the world have traditions and rituals to help the dead on their way, honor them, and bring them peace. Ours (i.e. mainstream Western Civilization) is not well equipped for that. But you can try to do that. Giving him a plate of his favorite food, either leaving it at his grave or offering it to a fire, is one way. A lot of parts of the world have versions of that ceremony.
He may not be able to tell you clearly what he wants because he may not understand his situation very well himself. He may not know what he wants, or where he is supposed to go or what to do. There are ways to help with that. Some shamans and spiritualists work in the area of helping the dead to find their path to the places they are supposed to be. One term for that kind of work is "psychopomp"--strange term, never quite figured out myself why it's called that. A person with those skills can go into trance, get in touch with him, and help show him his path. You may find someone in your locale who strikes you as trustworthy and who has the knowhow.
I have training in this area. If you would like me to help you work on this, let me know.
Blessings,
Alder
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