Hi Firm,
I love your questions as many of them swim around in my head as well.
Yes, I beleive in life after we pass on from this life.
But I do beleive I personally, will not make it directly to Paradise until I atone for my sins and wrong doings.
I do beleive in Purgatory - or a place like that.
The reason I say that is because of those beautiful children and people who struggle every blessed day, wondering how they will eat for the day, how will they make it to the next hour. I beleive our little ones who are called home sooner then we would ever want, go right into Our Father's loving arms.
Compared to those beautiful people, of course I don't. And so I must atone for my sins.
For my selfishness in having things that I don't need, for getting upset or angry, cursing, all of it. I must atone. I can make a start while here, but I just can't imagine going directly to heaven. I feel I do not deserve, at this point, to go directly there.
I beleive in a place of peace, love and great joy. Where are loved ones are and where we all hope to be. Where there is no pain, no suffering and most of all, where God truly is.
I'm frieghtened in a way to lay eyes on him because of my sins even though I know he is a merciful God.
That's why I don't fear leaving this earth, there are times I long for that peace, and not just for me, but for all. I long to see no more hurt or suffering.
But I guess, it's not my time to be called home.
So, yes, do beleive there is Heaven and Our Loving Father who waits for us. I'm excited and yet feel ashamed all at the same time to see Our Father, but mostly I feel great love and hope and do look forward to the day I hope to be in His arms.
Sorry I rambled on so much. I just am so grateful that Our Father loves us so much.
Thanks Firm for asking
