Why am i so shy?
I recently started dating a girl and we are beginning to get close. The relationship started when we met randomly through a group of friends. In the beginning, she approached me and started talking to me and poking me and stuff (messing around). I spoke to her and we got on well I think. She is a really interesting person and I found her very attractive from the moment I saw her, although I thought she was out of my league. The problem is that I am extremely shy around girls I like. I just avoid them and feel very uncomfortable with them. I know people will say they can relate to this, but it is really bad for me - I have had therapy previously for this, and am seeking professional help. I just can't look them in the eye. I don't understand why. I am OK sometimes with friends, although in a group I struggle. I don't think I am that bad looking and I sometimes get girls telling me I am cute, and I have had girls chase me before. They are always pushy, trying to get me to do stuff, and go places with them, but I just say no. When I then think about it, I get sad because I want to be there.
The girl in question is making a massive effort with me. She keeps asking me out, inviting me to go places which I really want to go to. I like spending time with her. She is beautiful, funny, crazy and I enjoy myself when I with her. But I just can't stop being so shy and I make excuses to not go. She knows how shy I am, when she kisses me, I just look down at the floor and feel awkward. She hugs me and she smells beautiful, I want to kiss her and tell her that I think she is beautiful but I just feel so uncomfortable. I wish I could tell her this. I know this must sound pathetic, but I just don't know what to do anymore. My previous relationships have broken down because of this, and I don't want it to keep happening.
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