| Yep, the only thing you can state for absolute certainty, based on your story, is that as soon as someone is close to you then YOU want to be somewhere else. This means the uncontrollable feelings you have for others (that we all have) are worse for you because your mind isn't capable yet of filtering out those feelings and letting you focus on trying to be happy and faithful with one guy.
There's nothing wrong with you, you're just not ready. No harm, no foul.
Now, if you lead boys in close and then chase them away or hate them while you have them, then "no harm no foul" is wrong...you will be doing great harm.
In your situation, I would practice absolute honesty with every guy you go out with. "I really like you and would love to go out, but I'm not ready for anything exclusive, so as long as you know that, great!"
Now you never have to worry about letting anyone down because you're not falsely promising allegience or faithfulness that would only make you miserable.
For now.
Someday you will realize your perspective on men has changed quite a bit and you're no longer dating them for what they can give you or because of the uncontrollable love pangs you have for them. No, you will wake up one day and realize the guy(s) you are dating now are guys that are bringing out the best in your character, behaviors about being there for them, sacrifical behavior and selflessness that doesn't have time for the kind of the self-focused agony you're going through right now with these two guys.
It will be an awesome day. But it probably won't be anytime soon, which is fine. These things grow as they will. Relax, slow down this pace enjoy the company of boys you like without adding in all the misery-creating drama. You don't need it. | 
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