Originally Posted by Kia
Thank you for the sayings but sometimes I feel that there is no happy endings. There are only winners and losers in life, and I seem to be on the losing end. This man has my heart and once again I put in hope that maybe the situation would change because he was responding a little and I just thought.....for one second that I could be in love again. He dissed me....again. I haven't found anyone that I like on the same level as him and I'm so depressed about it. I met a guy who says he loves me but I don't love him, which brings me back to the same place of missing this guy. Seven d$%$ years and my heart is still caught up. Everything else in my life is in shambles as well, and he was a small piece of happiness I was desperate to hold on to. It just feels like my love just never seems to matter to anyone. Every guy I have loved has not returned it like they could. I've never had the experience of being happy in love.
It hurts so bad, and I feel so powerless, and prayer hasn't helped. Times like this I just want to commit suicide I really do. No one understands my pain, its not going away, and I can't seem to change my situation no matter how hard I try, and how much prayer I do.
I feel literally sick and dead inside.
How can I go through life like this? I fear I will never get over this man. Even if I don't talk to him little things in my life remind me of him. Sometimes death seems like the only option.
Hi kia, I am so sorry that you feel the way you do, but I have to tell you that you are not a looser,(for one you gave your all and allowed yourself to love someone unconditionally, you didn't bail) That makes you a winner.
2. Your on a site like this expressing your emotions, trying to seek answers and talking about your deepest feelings. Which takes a lot. ( Your a Winner)
3. This man doesn't have your heart, You have control over your heart. Don't give him too much credit, and too much responsibility over your happiness, and if you Pray your heart should be humble. Perhaps you prayed asking to have him back, But he didn't come back isn't that a sign that maybe god has other plans.
4. You said you haven't found anyone on the same level as him, I would hope not if someone you been with for 7 years just walk away. What is it about him that makes you feel this way? Is it your love for him? Because if so You need to understand that you need to LOVE yourself even more... More than you love him.
5. He was a small piece of happiness... And that is all he was, but remember you make the rules and are in total control. I really don't know all that is going on in your life, but I hope that you can realize that life is worth living, and that troubles don't last always. Things happen to us for learning purposes, things happen to us for understanding, things happen to us for growing purposes. Every movement is not always going to be forward but sometimes we have to take a step back to see the clearer picturer..
God allows us to experience the low points of life in order to teach us lessons we could not learn in any other way. The way we learn those lessons is not to deny the feelings but to find the meanings underlying them, One day at a time--this is enough. Do not look back and grieve over the past for it is gone; and do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful it will be worth remembering..
Here is a saying I always say at difficult times God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference..