First, let me apologize in advance for this rant. I am just so upset all the time and it doesn't seem to be lifting. I am a busy girl, with a full-life and plenty to keep me busy. I have many friends (all of whom think I am crazy for letting this breakup make me so crazy...) When I think back to the 10 months that my ex and I were together, there were really good times...and really not-so-good times. The relationship, all in all, was not a good one, when I can see it for what it was. The problem is....now that he has said he thinks it's over, and wants time to find happiness elsewhere, I am devastated. This man is selfish and egotistical....cannot get along with my friends or family, because he thinks he is above everyone, made little-to-no effort with my son, and overall was a drain on me emotionally. NOT GOOD. Why then, now that we are on a "break" or whatever this is, am I such a freaking mess???? I am constantly wondering what he is thinking, doing etc, even though I am pretty sure it's not much of anything, since he's pretty much a loner and has only 1 friend on the planet. I am wondering if the someone who obviously caught his eye is spending time with him....or if he is thinking of me at all, while I suffer. These thoughts consume my days....and I find little happiness in anything. I am currently talking to someone else I recently met...and it's going well. Think he's a great guy...but my heart is still so completely with my ex it is impossible to think of being without him. I keep waiting for him to realize what he lost and come back.....and from reading these posts everyday, I know this is not the right thing to do, but I can't help myself. I am wondering if I need to go and see someone about this....I feel stupid, that I can't just let it go.....What is wrong with me?? Do these thoughts and feelings EVER go away?? I feel like I am losing my mind. I just want him to come back and hold me and tell me that we can make it better. HELP ME!!! I swear, if it weren't for these boards, I think I would just cry all day and night.....Which is just crazy since I have so many other wonderful things in my life. What is wrong with me??????

gypsy456

quite frankly: it may be way too soon for you to see some other guy.... you are obviously not healed from the previous relationship.

spend time with your son and get back on a stable track, feel good without a man in your life and take a deep breath....

move on.

SAB123

Their is nothing wrong with you. These are all normal feelings. My ex fiance broke up with me 3 months ago. Although it is getting better for me, I still miss and
love her and her son. My ex was also selfish but soon as time goes buy you will start to see him for what he is. Not completly but start too. But if you don't let go you will never heal. About 3 weeks ago I let go of her and things started getting better. But your going to cry, feel lonely, hurt, feel anger toward him, hate, happy without him, pray he come's back, anyalize you/him in the relationship, miss and love him. I'm 3 months post break up, I still do have all those feeling still but they are not as bad as it was the first month. Once YOU decide to let go the real healing process begins. And trust me when I say this. She/I did no contact with each other for 6 weeks then I emailed her on her Bday. That was the worst mistake I made, because I went rite back to square on. One suggestion is, that has helped me is read this forum and if you need to vent this is the rite place to be. So if you come home and cry all night thats normal. It's been a couple of weeks since I have but as tal would say and alot of other people grieve when you have to. Don't hold back. But you will be fine.

questionanswerer

I went through the same thing. Sometimes it's just the way your going to feel. moving on is good. if you were happy with him, and keep worrying about him, i think you are still in love. try to take it a little at a time. i think you should just move on and if he comes back to you, do what your heart says.