I'm a student who is about to take a semester off college. Certainly that is unimportant except to the fact that it shows that I am young. In fact, I am 19 years old, going on 20 in less than a month. The girl I love, is at her home in Miami, and I'm from California. She loves her boyfriend, but from what I understand of her the last time she spoke to me, she sees her boyfriend as the ideal she epitomized as a little girl. They broke up because there were problems, but than they reconciled because he changed.

I'm confused by the fact that if he's her ideal, then how could there have been problems? She says he changed, but did she just see him as her ideal again, or is it truly him that changed? The worst part is, I could have dealt with that originally before an incident in which she helped save my life. My lung collapsed and she called the people that brought me to the hospital. I owe her my life, and because of that, I'll never forget her. My lung collapsed, unfortunately, if not caught early: death occurs. Luckily for me, I'm typing now. So I must be all right. So as you can tell, this makes me want her more.

My interest in her is not exclusive. We both have feelings for one another and she told me so because she said the timing was just wrong. It had only been about a week when we both found out about our feelings towards one another. The fact that I'm taking a semester off (not coming back to the school) and the fact that she got back with her boyfriend. I can tell there are moments between us where we want to just go at each other. However, we'd both feel guilty. I can feel it erupting from both of us.

Right now she's home. She's done with her finals. I can't fly for a month, and am going to be in New York until January to wait to fly home. I won't be able to see her unless I came to Miami or New York to visit. So, I'm scared I'll lose her because I won't be able to see her much.

That's not the worst part to it. The reason why I may feel too attached to her is due to the fact I've never been in a relationship before. In fact, I'm so desperate I basically asked for blind dates when I return home this break and maybe for the off semester. The fact I've never been in a relationship, coupled with her and I being extremely attracted to one another within a week, and her saving my life has put a toll on me.

She said to me once that I couldn't be in love with her because I hardly knew her. However, when she told me what her life was like before college, I felt like I knew her right then and there. There's not a day in my life now where I don't think of her.

Maybe I am in love with her. I don't know, and honestly, am scared because I don't want to ruin what we have as friends. I want her, but I can't have her. The story of my life. Should I worry about it because of how young I am? I know people will say, "You're young, don't worry. Someone is out there." However, how can you not love someone that saved your life and were extremely attracted to on a personal (and obviously physical level) within a week?

Please don't just look at it and don't reply. I came here to have a question answered. I need help. Everyone so far just seems to make me the brunt of their jokes. They treat me like I'm below them. They act as though I'm not someone who's time is deserved to be utilized upon.

She made time for me. Please, I know I don't know you. I know you don't know me. That doesn't matter, because we all came here for one goal. To talk about relationships. Now, I'm asking you for help? Can you please give it to me?

On a forum for an RPG. I had a question in which 24 people have looked at, and have not replied with an answer once. Please, don't do that to me. I need help.