Right, look.. this is the story.. I'm not feeling upset, hurt or any other emotion that people go through with a break up, because WE BREAK UP ALL THE TIME!!

I have been with.. this girl.. for 2 and a half years or nearabouts. I have not been happy for a year now.. when we first broke up. God, I wish I had of just broken up with her completely then, instead of all this nonsense.

Let me think.. we have broken up not once, not twice, not three times, I think this is the fifth!! time we have broken up.

In January we broke up, the next month we get talking again.. we meet up, we ring each other.. it's all back to the way it was. She is all over me like a rash, ringing me every night etc.. then one night I rung her and she was really off with me. Since then, she has hardly spoke a word to me, like she doesn't care about me.. don't worry, I'm used to this cycle.. she does this every time we are about to break up!

It seems to me that whenever I'm treating her like a queen, she goes off me. But when I treat her badly (ignore her texts, one word answers on the phone, etc) she comes running back like a shot...

Anyway, I'm through with this. I'm tired of relying on her to make me happy. Because when we're on that stage when we're back together, I'm really happy.. but at the back of my mind I keep thinking: "don't rely on her to make me happy because she isn't reliable, she's going to go off in that cycle any time now"..

Then we break up, for the first week.. I manage no problem with N/C. Then she'll text me and I'll run straight back. Or, if she doesn't run back to me, I run back to her and she takes me back.

It's sooo confusing!! I just want to rely on my own moods to be happy, not rely on someones mood to decide if I'll have a good day or not! Like it used to be before I met this girl!!

Sometimes I wish I had never have met her, but then I think back to the first year and a half, when everything was just brilliant...

CaribMan

she seems like a mind fuk...i would leave her alone dont talk to her, dont txt her just go NC forever if you want ...its up to you ...if it were me i would not be in a relationship like that, i dont like being treated like garbage, but some people like it.

talaniman

break the cycle, get married or leave each other alone. The make up sex must be to die for.

Andrea21

I'm not a relationship expert cause i've done the same damn thing before. Just let it go!! Stop wasting so much time of your precious life. Your soulmate is out there somewhere but it's just not her.

JuliaK

Its soo hard to let go I know!!Me and my ex broke up about 5 times aswell..Maybe more! the last time was about 3 months ago but we still talk constantly and its confusing!!But it seems to be sticking this time. I think try and not rely on her mood to make you happy I know its hard when you care about someone soo much. If its meant to be you WILL end up together if not this thing you have will just come to an end naturally so if you cant let her go yet then dont but also dont let it affect you soo much mentally just try and have fun with it..

DazT

Well, we broke up eventually. I haven't heard from her since Tuesday and have in the right frame of mind to just let her go. Was a bit drunk one night and realised she wasn't worth all the worry... managed to stick with that thought in my head, and I'm just excited to be single again..

I made a list in my phone of all the stuff that I didn't like about her and why I shouldn't go back. Every time I feel bad, I read it and it puts me in a better mindset.

Just trying to get on with my life now. When I find it tough, I look at my phone and will start to post here more often. I have realised I need to move on with my life after nearly 2 and a half years of the same girl, when there's plenty more left out there.

Also, with the fact that she has her myspace picture of herself and this other fella (who is clearly a rebound), it has shown me she is not over me and that she's trying to annoy me. It shows me how much she really isn't worth it and that I'm not missing much.. if she wants to be immature, I'm just going to let her.

I think this time is definitely the time I'm going to get over her, even through the bad days.

N0help4u

You are off to a good start. Making a list is good. Also have a back up buddy that you can call and discuss fishing or whatever when you can't get your thoughts off her. Make a list of things you want to accomplish and even how you feel that your relationship held you back from those goals.
She is playing games with your head. She feels that as long as you are bowing down to her she can and will take you for granted but when you make yourself unavailable she panics and wants you back.
It is time you realize that this is not the vicious cycle you want indefinitely when you could be out there making a real life and finding a real relationship.

DazT

Yeah, I have a few friends I can talk to. I have also told all of my friends not to tell me any stories about my ex. Every other time we broke up, I refused to call her my ex.. but now thats what I see her as, my ex. The past.

Yeah, I know what you mean. Every time I have broken up with her, I have ran back because I know she would take me back.. but this time, she has broken up with me and I can't run back, but the way I feel now, I don't want her to run back.. because I know it will mess with my head in the end of it all again.

talaniman

A new and better cycle cannot begin, until you get away from the old one. There is a great big world out there for you to explore, so look forward, as you already know where you have been.

DazT

I'm on day 8 of no contact and today is the best I have felt since the breakup. I had a lot of spare time on my hands today, so I went shopping for my first car, got a new look (completely different haircut), meeting with a few friends tonight and I'm feeling really great today.

In truth, I haven't really had one bad day since the breakup. Every time I feel sad or depressed, I read my list again to remind me of her bad points and why it didn't work.. this cheers me up and I try to think of something else.

I feel like I'm starting to get the old me back after 2 long years. When I was going out with my girlfriend, I was told I was no fun any more, I only seemed happy around her. I was a football fanatic before I met her, and although I never gave up my interest in watching football, I stopped playing the sport and since then I have re-joined my old club and starting to really enjoy my football again.