A letter to win my ex back

I know this is an old forum but I thought I would put my letter on here to see if it can help me, I haven't given my ex this letter yet but I really want to. Please comment on it, good or bad.

Feel free to use any part of this letter if you think it will help.

I have changed the name of my lost love for (Name).


My dearest darling (Name).

I have been in love many times before, I thought I knew how to handle everything. That was until what has happened recently, I realised that I have become complacent with us. I realise that I haven't been there for you when you needed me and I realise that it was me who drove you in to the arms of another.
(Name), I have looked back and reflected on what I have been and how I have been, so to quote a song I once heard, To live for today and to love for tomorrow is the wisdom of fools. And that is what I am and what I have done, I have been a fool because tomorrow is promised to no one but I took for granted that tomorrow was promised to me.
I have been thinking, thinking about when we first met, that day in (Place) when I first laid my eyes on you, the feeling I had can only be described as WOW!, it was and still is amazing. I remember our first kiss and how exciting it was and how I thought about it that night and the coming days, how I wanted to feel your soft lips pressed against mine once again.
That day is what I remember being the first day of the rest of my life.
I remember us taking walks, holding hands and holding each other, cuddling each other and not worrying about the rest of the world. I remember us planning our future together. I'm so sorry that I have such a bad memory and can't remember everything and I hate my memory for that. I wish I could remember.
I know I haven't been the perfect boyfriend that you wanted me to be, I know I have been a bad person, I don't know where I went wrong, I guess I thought I was doing enough and that you would never leave me. I was so wrong and so stupid.
I remember the fun we had when we went camping for the first time together, we got there late and the campsite lady was so grumpy with us and we had to set up the tent for the first time in the dark. And then the following day you took me pony trekking for the first time in my life, I never thought I would ever get on to a horse but you made that possible for me.
I hear different songs on the radio and they make me smile and they make me cry because they are songs that remind me of you and of us, I never thought I would have cried to rock me Amadeus.
I remember how you taught me to dress better, I would have never bought the clothes I have now if it wasn't for you.
You have shaped me over the years into this person, I got lost on the way. I became blind.
I really thought we could make it, I thought we had made it, I really believe that you are my soul mate and we are made for each other.
I miss you so much, I miss not having you to take to the train station in the morning even though I always woke up grumpy. I miss seeing you sat on the sofa in your PJs I miss having you to hold at night, I miss our cuddles and our kisses.
I miss your beautiful brown eyes looking back at me filled with so much love.
I miss your smell, my comfort smell.
I can't believe how stupid and selfish I have been, but I do know that I don't deserve you but I also know so very much that I want to deserve you. I want to look into your eyes and see all that love once again.
All I know now is that I hurt so badly and I know it because of all the mistakes I have made and how I have pushed you away instead of pulling you closer to me. I want to spend the rest of my life with you, I want us to grow old together. God I miss you so so much.
I have a pedestal just for you, to put you high up, like a princess, I need you to be my princess again.
I heard a saying once If it isn't written then it isn't true I believe that, that is why I'm writing you this letter.
I know every relationship has its problems, I know I have made my stupid mistake and I have stood my stubborn ground and said things when I should have caught my tongue and kept quiet. But after all I have said, this letter isn't about who is right and who is wrong, I know we have had our arguments but this letter is not about them either.
I am writing to tell you that we can work through this, I know we have had our disagreements but no matter how strongly we may disagree on any subject, I will always be able to say this,
I am madly in love with you (Name) and I never want anything to come between us.
I think you feel the same way too.
My (Name), my love for you is still as strong for you today as it was when we first became lovers, only that it is even stronger now. Our love for each other is so powerful, its our glue, and it sticks us together through everything. I love being so close to you and knowing that nothing could ever separate us, not even the worst of problems.
I don't want to fight with the only person who I have ever given my whole heart to, to My (Name), the only girl I have ever loved so so dearly and so so truly. I only want to focus on the precious and wonderful girl who I fell head over heels in love with and our love together.
You are so important to me, more important to me than the air that I breathe, more important than the blood that pumps through my heart and you are so so much more important than the problem that seemed so enormous to me at the time. I over reacted.
The time for me showing you the attention that you fully deserve is so overdue. Let me give you that attention and I promise that you will never go without it again.
I know that special sweetness that we had has gone, but it hasn't gone forever, it has just lost its way, together we can find it and bring it back and make it so much sweeter.
I know I have not treated you as well as I should have had.
I am hoping that our love is strong enough to get us through this. I'm not asking to have back what we had. I'm asking for a fresh and brand new start, for us to turn the page and build an even better and even stronger Paul and (Name).
I remember when you first told me that you love me. You melted my heart, just like you do every time I hear you say it to me.
I tried not to hurt you, I tried not to do you wrong, if I could start over again, a million miles away, I would follow my heart and it would bring me straight to you.
It so cold without you, so cold without a tomorrow, so scary without a future that isn't what it used to be. Our futures are meant to be just that, ours. Heaven may have angels and angels may sing their songs but they don't know everything. They may have streets of gold, they may have perfection and immortality but they have never known the touch of your fingers upon my skin. They will never know the taste of your soft lips pressed against mine.
Im hanging on to dreams of yesterday and the promise of a forgotten future but I'm beginning to think that I was born to be alone, born to go through this life empty and alone, to walk the long walk through the darkness without your love to guide me.
You are the only person who has ever made my dreams come true. I am everything I am because of you, because of your love for me. You have stood by me through so much and you are the one who has never let me fall.
I remember our first slow dance in the (Place), we danced slowly to U2s one, it was sung by Insanity Beach and we slow danced in front of all of those people.
Please let us have our slow dance again.

I will always love you with everything I have.
Your Paul