I hung out with "the girl" last night with a bunch of friends, and lets just say it did NOT go well. I can totally tell now that her friend is the cause for ALL of this, so that got me in a huff last night. This morning I woke up and was told my dog died, and to top it all off...............I just got rearended AGAIN today by a drunk driver (TWICE IN 2 MONTHS!!)....... I swear people, I WISH I was making this stuff up...... I have had such crappy luck (to say the least) over the past year.....oh yea, I start school back tomorrow morning as well!!! Im going to bed now, Im so angry Im in tears and shaking.......... Im NOT drinking though........God knows thats the LAST thing I need right now. I really need a change in luck guys, this crap is just getting to be too much.

Skell

im really sorry to hear about your dog and the car. you are having a tough time. No doubt!
As far as with the girl though...
Do you think maybe that you are sort of puniching yourself by hanging out with this girl.
you openly admit to having feelings for her but she isnt after something right now.
it seem to be driving you insane everytime you have any contact with her. You come on Jeff and tell us all these negative feelings you are experencing and they nearly alway revolve around some sort of contact with her.
Maybe it is time to stop that!
i have said it before and i will say it again!! You are going through a tough and very personal issue right now. Your alcoholism.
You are trying to get sober.
Please concentrate on YOU!
YOU YOU YOU!! I couldnt say it any clearer.
Why do you keep concentrating on her. You cant control her and her mixed up feeling or her wacky friend. That is totally out of your control!
What you can control is your situation and right now i dont see you controlling it effectively.
Please leave her be for a while. Work on YOU!! You may even see that doing this will change your bad luck in the other aspects of your life!

Keep sticking strong Jeff. But do yourself some favours first and look after YOU!

jeffatl

I know, I didnt even know she was going to be out when i met up with my friends though.....and I tried kind of avoiding her all night. I only talked to her a little and when i did her friend got all mad and started giving me bad looks. Seriously, this has been such a CRAPPY year for me its almost funny. I guess the good part is I dont even want to drink right now, I am to overwheled to even go down that road....... Wow, I better have something AMAZING coming my way and SOON!

chuff

Hey the only thing I can say is that when I'm having a bad day I just sit down and watch some tv or lay down because I figure nothing can go wrong just doing that. My condolences on your dog. I had a 18 year old lab that died last year that at times during my childhood I felt like was my only friend (we moved around a lot so I never could make real long term friends). I'm not going to lie it took some time to get over it but you will. I'd recommend just focusing on your school work for the next month or so and forget about this woman in your life. Maybe that will help you put things back in perspective.

Skell

Good. The drink wont solve this bad luck will it! good that you know that!

Your luck will change but i really think you can help it change!!

I love a quote by South African Golfer Gary Player. He won a tournament with a little bit of luck and when questioned by the media on his luck he said "you know its funny, the harder i work, the luckier i seem to get".

i think that is a great little quote that we can think about sometimes when we are down in luck and thinking the world is against us.

he comes from a depressed and unlucky part of the world but he worked hard and got his way to the top of the golfing world. he didnt get there though without working hard and against adversity!

Your no different Jeff. It just takes some hard work! Im sure you're up to it!

YeloDasy

I am really sorry to hear about your dog... and bad luck in rear ends! I am really close to my dog and worry everyday what will I do when he passes... and I tell him daily that he cant leave me! haha So I am really sorry!! It does sound like you have some new goals that you are working towards to keep you fosused, including recovery and school! I would put 100% effort into these right now... not half ***, ALL THE WAY!! Keep venting, okay?

Fr_Chuck

Sorry about the car and dog,

And smile as dad always said not matter how bad today is, tomorrow can make you think it was a great day.

Blazingsun

People told me about Karma... how if bad things happen good things are right around the corner to equal out the bad again. so chin up... better days are right around the corner.

Just while you are waiting dont let the small things go unnoticed. like the smell of flowers in the air, the way the sunlight shines on the dewy leaves in the morning... sun rises and sets...

my heart goes out to u about your dog... *hugs*

and congrats on staying alcohol free.

Wildcat21

Forget this girl Jeff...you're too geeked up over her. She's not your gal. For get her. I thoght there was an agreemnt you wou;dn't put any improtance into her.

Please, and for the love of god, stay away from the booze. Work on yourself.

maria26

I am sorry to hear about your dog, hard thing to go through.
But i agree with everyone, stop contacting the girl...it is what it is accept and move on. Work on yourself as sugested by everyone, because if you dont have your life in complete balance there is no way adding on more problems (girls-any for that matter) is going to help balance it. Regain complete control of yourself and than things will fall into place. Concentrate on YOU ONLY!