Asked Sep 30, 2006, 04:06 AM
i have some problem wit me n ma boyfriend
I know there is a lot of azzholes out there...apart frm ma boyfriend he's a good guy but I thot he seems to want to be in a serious relationship like I want to...I'm not interested wit 1 night stand or flirtin any 1 or those kind of silly thins I'm jst not those kind of gurls out there, but even though ma boyfriend n I having some issues I don't know rilli...I am confused n he mite seems confused like he did loved me 4 who I am n cared 4 me...but then all of a sudden he says to me "dont you think its funni how we nva an arguement" or something then in a few minutes later...then he started saying few thins to me like small few stuff like how do I know if I am tha 1 there are others out there, also he saying he wants to tell me something but 4 he do he wants to say that he rilli loves me so much n he care 4 me...n then he says that frm what he feels bout him self that he feel he's trapped n got a lot of pressure frm me, that he's also is depressed...n I don't rememba tha rest but it made me upset frm what he was saying to me...I jst feel there's something about him why he saying this to me n hurt me like he had to I don't understand...but then he said to me do you think its too good to be true or something eh...n also he said to me 1 thin he wants me to promised him that if eva happens to "us" that I will find some 1 that who will make me happy n but he will always loves me n care about me that I will be his best friend he eva had....he has made me cry n some thins he said like he wants this hurt to end to promise him this...I feel that he wants to break up but he saying another way instead of saying its ova or saying I want to break up or something....I isn't too sure but he's confusin me. I rilli love him so much he means tha world to me there's no way I could be witout him I jst can't leave witout him but what he don't understand is that he don't know how much he loves me, also it makes me feel he doesn't know what love is but then I made it a little worse what I thot frm what he was saying b4n I eventally broke his heart n he was upset but he were sad frm tha start....I jst rilli need help to know what he's rilli after or what he wants I know its hard but I'm jst feel lost. Then he says he doesn't believe in love anymore after all I said stuff I felt stupid 4 saying this to him which I didn't mean it n I didn't mean to stuff this up
then in nxt day I asked him if he still loves me...he's like I used to n it made me cry...I don't know what I have done n then later on he's like he doesn't know if he loves me n also its because he said he thinks I don't believe him that he loves me...I told him many times that I do believe him but he sometimes doesn't listen he hardly talks to me now...n he seems to be changed abit too...I'm dwn atm he jst don't know how bad I feel n I feel so hurt...also he say he needs time to think n have time alone 4 awhile...I guess he probbly doesn't love me like I do. Like I mite think I'm not good enough 4 him or I'm not tha 1 he wants to be wit...so he hasn't even been talking to me much 4 3wks or 2wks....hasn't even seen him ova tha wkends 4 almost 3wks
n I have been wit him 4 3mths...he is ma 1st boyfriend n ma 1st love n I am his 1st girlfriend n 1st love too..so its our 1st time n I know its hard it seems...but I know what love is bec of him I am 20 yrs old (jst turned 20 on 13th sept) n he is 18 yrs old...we only c each other ova tha wkends...we both live in brisbane but am movin to goldcoast wit ma parents n bro...n I am so sad because i'll be missin ma boyfriend he lives near southbank it may take 1 hr n a half so it feels like its abit far away frm each other...I hope me n ma boyfriend would come bak to me n work out sometimes soon I don't want to lose him I have no guy friends n I don't need them because I don't go parties n I don't always go out much...but I have 2 gurls are ma 2 bestfriends...I have them both are on ma side who support me n help me through some few thins...but ma boyfriend he's all I eva want to be wit...I don't want another guy no more once he leaves me 4 nothing I don't want another love...I jst feel I want to be me, ma self n I....so what can I do? How do I know if he does rilli love me? 1 of ma bestie says jst give him time n let him be if he loves me he will come bak n some says tha same thin...what if he doesn't? But frm what ma bestie told me that she has spoken to him n he told her about me that he rilli loves me n he wouldn't know what to do witout me n he have got lot of pressure n blah blah...but he said he needs time alone n so...but I guess he put me on hold...I don't know or maybe he's jst a cover up or jst saying those thins instead of saying another of saying its ova or so...so I guess he wants to break up
so pweeaze what can I do? I love him way too much...