Its been months, and ive done some thinking
I've been making myself believe that im not dreaming
I started to love this guy. the same guy in my past post about "is it a yes or no?"
he found out I crushed on him and i admitted.
but nothing changed
after he kept asking me
who was this guy in my status message in yahoo messenger
i told a different name of a man which related to his name
a combination of his first name and middle name
and after few weeks
he asked other people over and over again
and he even asked my most trusted friend
and who ever knew that i loved this guy i told them not to tell him anything
even if he asked them
so my trusted friend and my friend acted like he knew nothing
he keeps asking my trusted friend since their buddies.
my friend told me that.. he asks about it all the time
he said maybe it could be their clasmate or it could be my trusted friend
then one day my friend got fed up and told him
what if i told it was you? what would you feel towards her?
his first reply to my bestfriend was
"i dont know, were friends. thats is. i love someone else"
but when my trusted friend asked him he had a new reply
"i cant tell, you may not know, in the future i might have feelings for her. you know..."
but my bestfriend told him that i loved him
he approached me and ask if it were true
i was shaking
and said no
i just couldn't say it. even when i had the chance in front of me
and when i did
he told me
"you know, if you admit it. nothing would change. we'd still be friends"
and i said stupidly that."i know...."
then after that incident.. we haven't talked for almost 3 days
and then we started talking to each other when i met my trusted friend and he was with him.
he talked to me but it was only for a second. cause he had to go home.
he ran off w/o saying goodbye and my trusted friend grabbed his arm and said "arent you gonna say goodbye to her?"
he said goodbye but i went up my bus
so he talked to me when i got home.
after that.
he started talking to me once again
and asked me who really was this guy i loved, cause i was madly inlove with
then i still told him it was another guy
and he left out to buy food
after that.. he became really sweet
started saying sweet words, always caring for me
looking after me. he even approaches me once he see's me.
and then he was about to leave
and i acted.
"sadly he's not here..he hasnt gone online yet... he couldn't give me a hug"
and then he said
"aww.. thats mean.. he's ignoring you! want me to get mad at him?"
yet i said
"nah.. its ok.. hes always like that"
he said.
"he should be thankful you love him..."
then i said
"anyways.. you take care okay?"
he replied back.
"since he's not here.. ill give you a hug"
i was startled. i always waited for him to do that.. even if i sent him hugs
he never said anything
but just logged off.
but this time.. he gave me hug..
and i was like
"okay.
"
and that day onwards
he made me feel like he was mine
and he even dedicated a song for me..
studied it hardly
when i was busy with my exam.
he studies this particular song
that was so beautiful.
even i told him.. "if its so hard.. you dont have to do it.."
but then he told me..
"its okay.. ill do it just for you."
so now im all confused.
does he like me or not?
is it true when he told my trusted friend that
"in the future i might fall for her"
i need advices on what to do.. and what do you think is happening? =]
negative or positive comments ill be waiting! =D
bring it on
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