So my girlfriend and I were together for a little over 2 years and things were starting to get a little repetitive. I felt like I was getting in to deep and at 21 was worried that I was going to waste away my youth with one girl. (I know that sounds pathetic but it was my thinking at the time) Anyway we went away on holiday and it was AMAZING. We almost fell in love again haha. But it wasn't reality and when we came back she went away with her parents to a place she loves and I went home. That week I felt like a single guy... hanging out with mates, chatting to women, getting compliments and all It made me feel that excited butterfly feeling in my stomach. We didn't contact each other much over that week but I just put it down to having been in each others company so much the week before.

She came back and I decided that I wanted to go on a break. I felt horrible and for a week just felt like it was the worst thing I could have done. She made her feelings perfectly clear about breaks and how she didn't like them. For that week she just basically did the no contact thing on me and I came crawling back.

So after the break we go back together and for a few weeks everything was fine until I get a call from my sister saying she had called her a in the club because she blamed my sister for being the reason that I was distant. That night she called and asked if I wanted company... I said it was prob better that she didn't come round. She preceded to lie and say she didn't say it then tell her friends to go along with it so it didn't make her look bad.

She never stayed at my house after that because apparently 'she felt awkward knowing that we thought she called my sister a '. Does that sound like a guilty concience to you or what?

Anyway, the day came where we went for a walk round Manchester then back to her flat. I brought the topic up and then told her that I was prob was really starting to love the friend side of her than the girlfriend. Ooooo now apparently to the girls I've spoken with that means 'i love you but I'm not IN love with you'. If so that wasn't what I meant. So we split. Very amicably. It should have been terrible but it... wasn't.


So months later we meet up once as I owe her money from the holiday, she tells me she fells a spark again, I agreed.

So it hits me there and then and then we say bye and she goes off to her flat where she lives with all her girlfriends. When she's with them they make her forget about me and when I met to give her the money One of her friends was there. My girlfriend immediately acted in some weird defensive way saying to her friend 'yea remember I told you I had to meet him to get the money, I shouldn't be too long'. That worried me a bit.

Then the no contact thing happened and it killed me. BAM! She wouldn't reply to my texts or phone calls. I collapsed into an emotional heap. Who was she with? Why doesn't she care? How has she managed to move on when she said she felt a spark??

She moved into the flat with her girlfriends in sep when she was going to uni. I lve back home about 40 minutes away. So she's prob able just to switch off. I've been with a few girls since (not slept with though as it just felt pointless and reboundy). So the week after I send her a text apologising for the texts and email. She replys quickly with... 'havn't had the guts to read it yet, I'll prob fall to pieces. And don't apologise for anything'

I reply saying ' I have to, it was wayto heavy... '

She replys saying 'only 2 essays 2 exams and then holiday for 3 weeks! :) '

I bite the bullet and reply 'Brilliant. Well good luck with them I'm sure you'll do great. :) and enjoy your hols too. If I see you back home I'll come say hi and you can buy me a drink :p p.s. do yourself a favour and delete the email I sent you as its not going to do either of us any favours now'.

I get no reply to that. Any ideas why? Maybe I basically told her to go away in that last text??

Met her best friend in a club and she asked me if I was seeing anyone. I didn't know what to say so avoided the question. Then in my drunken state went up to her at the end and said ' just wondering I didn't say anything earlier did I?'

Now according to my girlfriends that means she's going to go back and tell my ex that I'm seeing someone. What effect will that have?

And finally I'm doing the No Contact thing and have lasted nearly 30 days. (this sat) I also want to know should I bother contacting her again as she never replied to that last text message above. Or should I text her Merry Christmas or something?

Anybodys input in this would be appreciated greatly.

Thanks,

A

Wow man it seems to me that she is yo-yoing you don't fall into that trap again or she will have you by your short hairs again

Wow your story is long but I think its best to leave her alone but you should text her and say merry christmas to let her know she is not forgotten it would be a sweet gesture but it seems like you're a little confused about how you feel about her as far as wanting her or not

What an awful thing to read

She probable just got sick of yo yoing with you.

I think she is a smart women

And I think you need to really find out what you want in life..

Forget about her. Move on to another girl
And hopfuly find one you can stay with.

But again you are only young. So the time will come later on.

Female got you all confused, and into so much drama.

Solution, leave her, and her friends, and their drama alone. No contact will be hard, but as you feel better, you will see how good it feels, to not be confused, or in the middle of drama.

Thank you so much for these answers. Much appreciated. Just out of interest what would you think she would take from the last text I sent her?

I have no clue what goes on in a female mind, and frankly, it doesn't matter, but take the hint, that she got your message, and should leave you alone and you do the same. I

N other words don't dwell on what she thinks, as only she knows that.

As a woman, I say leave her be. You've hurt her, she's hurt you, its not worth it.

Move on, man. She's just not that into you.

So sorry.

Yeah your right I probably should just let it go. I'l be hinest and say that ve never really lost anyone before so it's a real blow when this void is left in your life. I know I don't want her back but I think after what's been said here it may appear that what I want is only a part of her back... i.e. the intimacy, the attraction etc... I know your right in what your saying but do you think I should even send a 'merry christmas buttn :) x' text or something just to let her know. And also what du reckon I should do over the christmas period if I see her out in the local club as she'll be coming home for xmas. Thanks again

Hey,

I don't understand your complete motives in this situation whether your hoping to be back with her or not, but anyway that doesn't really matter, do NOT text her on Christmas my friend, she broke your heart don't reward her, and don't talk to her, this spark you talked about when you see each other, of course that's there and I'm sure it always will be but the more important thing is that when your not around and she's with other people she thinks about you and wants to be with you, that's what your striding for, anybody can influence someone they love to want them around. Stay no contact and when she wants to talk to you and see if anything is still there or not she will let you know.

Take Care,
LCM

Why? Let her know what? After all that confusion and drama, and getting dumped what message are you trying send?
No need to be rude, but brief, busy, and unavailable is whats acceptable, and recommended.

Well the thing is that I wasn't dumped. I had probably more of a say in whither to fight for the relationship which ovcourse means that because I didn't at the time... means that if we got back together that reason would surely come back no? But in terms of the text message well by sending her a christmas text I just hope to let her know that I still care about her. But I suppose I risk her not texting back and me feeling rubbish again. Any ideas then?

Just to also say to LifechangesMan... that was great answer. But if my ex thinks I'm seeing someone surely she'll never contact me... and 'anybody can influence someone they love to want them around' can you explain this more please? I guess your also right about not texting her. Her family love me and will most certainly speak of me over the xmas holidays... even her cousins and uncles etc I got on with. But she's stubborn. I can never see her getting in contact which is hard.

All right buddy, if you LOVE someone when you see them you get butterflies in your stomach while together good ones, and when she's not yours bad ones... we know this, if you were to get face to face to her, talk, give her hug, be the person she fell in love with, all those things WILL rush back, whether she fights the feelings or not and denies them is her choice. For example, I love my ex, I love her to death she shattered my life when she left me after 4.5 years, cold, but I still will love her until the day I die, the unfortunate realization that occurred to me was I need to fight the feelings for her,to heal myself. I cut her off completely for me, because that's my only concern now, is me. It honestly bothers me to think that I could be hurting her by ignoring her when she texts me every now and then about something subtle and what not, but nothing will compare to what was done to me. Please understand this isn't a she did this, so I can do this to her thing. Your ex knows if she comes in contact with you and starts speaking with you and seeing you again, she'll fall right back in love where she was, and she wants to stay strong on her decision she made and not look ridiculous, at least not yet. Anything's possible. Don't worry about her family, they know you're a good guy and speak highly of you leave it at that, they would understand why your not around or in contact because I'm sure they also have been there my friend.

Once, these break ups occur to us, all we want is our loved one's back, then a month passes maybe two of no contact, life gets better, we heal learn new things, make new friends, live for ourselves, do things we would've never thought we would, then that day comes you wake up... look outside and realize everyday that sun is going to come up whether you like it or not, and your choice is to make the day great and be happy, or be miserable everyday... and trust me being miserable everyday gets you no where my friend. Live for yourself, things fall apart so something better can fall together, I promise you. I never thought I'd be where I am today, but this website helped me a great deal and I told myself that I would in my spare time help more people in my situation on this site, and you'll make friends online, in person, at work, where ever. Just realize this is YOUR life, you get ONE shot. You had a great time with this person, keyword = had, take it for what it is and move on man, remember the good times, the bad times probably out weigh the good in most cases but remember your loved one for the good things he/she was, and wake up and smile about it, because it's okay! Wish them the best on their life journey, and both of you know some special bond will always be between you two, it's an unspoken thing.

Hope this helps,

Take Care,

LCM

Thank you so much. This is helping so much and I'm aware that you've obviously felt the same. Its horrible. I'm nearly a month in and feel better... i.e. I'm not hurting inside. But my head is still over thinking. Can you see my point when I say that I know that if we were put in a position where we were alone it would all come flowing back? It ended amicably.. . But I can't help but wonder why I still feel that I need to be told she is thinking about me, or hoping for a text that says hi or something.

'Your ex knows if she comes in contact with you and starts speaking with you and seeing you again, she'll fall right back in love where she was, and she wants to stay strong on her decision she made and not look ridiculous, at least not yet. Anything's possible. Don't worry about her family, they know you're a good guy and speak highly of you leave it at that, they would understand why your not around or in contact because I'm sure they also have been there my friend.'

- that is the best thing I've heard in a long while. You're sooo right at that. And as she is stuborn I know she'll stick to her guns about the decision. So I take it this means she'll never contact me? I know you can't answer that but you know what I mean..

I think I'm going to do the same as you and help people on here that have gone through the same thing.

Helping others on here is a great way to make yourself feel better. Self pitty will get you no where. By helping others, you can also start to learn from your own mistakes. Takes you a lot further along.

You already know deep down she's thinking about you adam, you don't need it to be told to you. Just let it be man, you'll be fine.

Let's put it this way I thought for sure my ex would never text me again, and she texts me a couple times about the dumbest , you'll hear from her again, just ignore her though, if she wants to actually talk she'll let you know then deal with it, if it's stupid dumb texts about hey do you know the knick's score? Or something really really dumb, forget about it.

We'll all get you through this, stay strong with NC, and you'll be fine.:p

Take Care,
LCM

Hey mate, I've been stumbling upon some of your posts around here, and read your story... I must say, you've come a loooong way. So good on you for that... im in this same situation myself. Got the "I think we need a break/space/time" 20 days ago and NC for about 15.. have to say I'm finally seeing light at the end of the tunnel. Although very faint. This site has helped me and I can see it has helped you.

Just to finalise... I should not text her happy christmas or happy new year?

Nope... you don't owe her anything. She is more than aware of what day it is, so she doesn't need a reminder or any well wishes from you. Those days are about focusing on what you have, not on what you had.