My boyfriend and I had been dating for almost two years. Then we got into a huge argument and broke up 3 months ago. I did all the wrong things, begging him back, telling him I'll change, and it only pushed him further away. So I just stopped talking to him and days later, he called me confessing that he missed me. We became friends and talked everyday but he told me he had a girlfriend. I pretended it didn't matter to me even though it hurt. But he broke up with her 3 weeks later because they argued too much and he still loved me. I had my hopes up thinking he would come right back to me, but he didn't. He told me he still wanted us to be together but he just needed some time to himself. I took it as if he didn't want to be with me at all and I begged him back, etc... Now I'm scared he doesn't want me at all. To make things worse, his brother died last week and the funeral was Friday. He expected me to be there but I couldn't do it. I've been ignoring his phone calls and texts and now he doesn't call or text at all anymore. It's only been 5 days, I know he's grieving and that he's probably angry that I wasn't there when he needed me the most, but I just didn't want to go for the wrong reasons. On top of that, the girl he broke up with still talks to him because she still has feelings for him and he admitted to me that he still liked her but loved me too, which is another reason why I ignored him... Is it too late for me? It hurts so bad I don't know what to do.