Thank you all so much for your honest replies.
This is all so very hard and I can't believe that it happened.
He keeps telling me that he loves me and how sorry he is and how he wants us to work out.
He says that this all happened because he was scared of feeling love for me.
Out of respect of this wonderful site, I won't use all the swear words that I really, really want to use, but just by saying that, I'm sure you know exactly which ones they are.
You're all right. If he were really sorry for what he did, he wouldn't have done it in the first place. He can only be sorry that he got caught.
What hurts the most is the lead-up TO the actual sexting. How they met, exchanged phone numbers, got to know each other a little better, and THEN came up with this understanding of it being OK to sext each other. It's not just the sexting. It's the entire process of getting there... with no thoughts of me or our relationship at all within the entire process and THEN going through with it... multiple times.
Something in me believes every word he says but another, STRONG, part in me knows that I deserve MUCH MUCH MUCH better (especially at my age - 32 - I've already been through all these stupid, hurtfull problems). He's a younger man and, I believe, at the stage of WANTING a grown up relationship but not willing to DO the growing up part.
Again, thank you all so so much. I don't know you, but you've got a special place in this little broken heart of mine.
It's so, so sad. Here comes single again. Uffda...