I am so confused.. I fell in love with this amazing canadian guy last year.. really good chemistry and felt so right although he told me afterwrds that he had a girlfirned in canada who he had been living away from for three years.. but still talked on the phone everyday.. I thought he just had a propblem letting go and trusted our love.. to cut a long story short , I lived with him and after 3mths he told me she was coming out to stay and given her job flat everything up.. I had to move out and all the while trusted that he just had to see this girl to know how he felt.. so I moved out on my own down the road whilst this girl came over... it broke my heart but still trusted our love. He came round atfer a day and told me he wasn't in love with her anymore.. I waited and waited for him to tell her to go home but he said he couldn't cause she gave up evrything to come over thinking he was going to maybe marry her, he said he just had to save enough money to send her home with
.. I would see them together... I was alone as we had the same friends and he would go with her instead.. so much heart ache.. anyway 5 months on waiting if he was going to come and see me that night.. she finally goes on my birthday when her ticket was going to expire.. I tried to be with him but felt scared and hurt that he had done this to me.. news years eve with him having a good evening the phone rings and its her saying why are you f... my boyfriend I am coming back.. etc.. So told him to get out of my life.. he deleted me from his myspace and has her there with her fake boobs.. anyway just started to move on then I bump into him he is telling me how much he is in love with me and sending me the most sincere messages about how he feels sick at what he ahs put me through and that he understands now how I felt as nhe thinks about me all the time and feels sick thinking I might be with someone else he has so much regret he just said he was confused.. he knows what he wants and he knows it maybe too late.. he seems so convincing and just says he didn't want to be on his on as he is getting older and so kept contact with this girl.. but would give it all up for me.. I spent the last week with him and its beenlovely.. he wants us to be togther marriage abbies.. but do I trust him... his dad has so many gilfriends . He has lied and lied and lied but what if he is being honest now what if he really means it...
What do I do.. I have just tried so hard to pick myself up and move on and slowly I feel like I am being sucked back in... I just want to be happy and married to someone who really loves me and respects me and isn't going to leave or have a secret life . Please help I just don't klnow what to do...