The Update
well last night i went for the meal (on my own) and it was ok. anyway i got home and around midnight i received a text from my boyfriend. he has been admitted to hospital and having various tests done. anyway he tried ringing but was out of money. i was up most of the night worrying. the thing is even though he let me know he didn't tell me all that much. i find out about 10 minutes ago that he had text the 'friend' and told her in detail all wot was going on and wrong. anyway his mum text me this morning and let me know he will be home today and she will get him to ring me.
as much as i am worried about him i cant help but feel angry and upset. why is he telling the 'friend' and not his girlfriend? i dont know if he even wants me to see him. i now have the friend telling me that he may want more time away from me to get better and what he is feeling. i feel really let down that i get 1 text and part of a phone call which worried me and yet she gets a full conversation with him. what am i doing wrong or am i over reacting?
i have mentioned to my boyfriend on a few occasions before this about things she has said. i dont want to say anything now obviously as i dont want him to get worse or angry or upset with me etc. their is a history as i have posted before about the friend getting in the way. she has just now sent me a message saying that i should be glad he is ok and it doesnt matter if he doesnt see me as much, trust me he wont want to see anyone, and not you, and that i cant do out to help him etc. basically lecturing me on how bad a girlfriend i am as i said i was going to try see him. the first thing i said was that im glad he is going home and that i wanted him well and said i might see if he wanted me there. what am i doing so wrong and what do i say back to her? so far i said i like to have someone im close to with me when im bad and stressed out. i want to be close to him and supportive. am i really that bad a girlfriend?

the latest txt: diff ppl, diff ways. i knw wat hes like trust me...take care of urself too, ur no gd to him if ur unwell n around him lol.

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ok well if youve read my other posts you will know whats happened. basically my boyfriend has panic attacks and lately they have been bad. anyway he has cancelled on me everyday this week. well tonight we were meant to be going for a meal with a few people i went to college with. i have text him to find out and have had no answer. anyway he has not replied to any since yesterday morning. well i went on my bebo and it said he was on 8 hours ago so bout midnight. obviously i wasnt on at that time and the female friend was last logged on between 12 and 1. this usually means that they will have been talking. well my problem is he is ignoring me completely. normally he sends me a text to at least say he wont be over but this time ive heard nothing. the friend said she hasnt spoken to him and that he probably doesnt want to talk to me if hes had another panic attack. do you think this is right or is their more to it? and what shall i do? thanks

sorry its so long

talaniman

That is nothing but bull, and he can't tell you what to do! You really need to check him on this quick. You are his love interest and you can't express it by being there???